Day 88: Abandon All Hope

Hope is in today’s world often celebrated as this great feat of humanity, that we’re able to hold unto hope of solving something or getting out of the trouble were in even though there is no possible practical solution to what we’re facing; though is this really such a great feat after all?

343103905_640Let’s look at it – imagine that you’re in a war and you’ve been ordered to attack some type of hill. Before the attack your commander tells you that you’ll probably die because it’s a very risky mission – now in this situation imagine that you’ve this hope of surviving. You’re afraid sure, but still there is this hope within you that “I will maybe survive!” – now what is fascinating here is that this hope doesn’t really mean anything in terms of your actual odds of survival which are practically speaking very low. Even though you have this knowledge the hope will still be here – and here it’s fascinating that we tend to speak so warmly about hope as this thing that “man never gives up” and that apparently “makes him so special” – but really doesn’t it make him rather stupid?

Let’s go back to the imaginary scenario of the battlefield, where you stand and make yourself ready for your mission. You don’t particularly feel obliged to do it, but you know there’ll be consequences if you try to escape, and because you hold on to this little bit of hope, you decide to go on the mission even though you know the chances of survival are slim – and then you die on that mission.

What would change if you didn’t have any hope? We’ll you’d be able to practically assess the situation, and practically see that “hey – I will probably die if I go out on this mission, is there another way out of this?” – and as such in letting go of hope a fascinating thing opened up: REALITY – and here is where it get’s interesting – reality is in it’s very nature merciless – it’s without compassion and it’s without justice; reality is a bitch that will give back exactly what you give in – and to live effectively in reality THERE MUST NOT EXIST ANY HOPE; because hope is a drug that makes us cling unto to these small branches of probabilities and unlikely turns of events – we hope that it will happen but we fail to see that reality doesn’t work in accordance to hope – it works as a mathematical equation where what you put in equals what you get back; it’s as simple as that.

Thus – with this I want to show just how useless hope is, and how it’s really just one of those completely meaningless feelings that feel good but mean nothing when the going get’s rough – it’s just a feeling and nothing more; a feeling that makes us stupid because we will walk even though the odds are against us, we will walk even though everything shows us that it won’t work – we will walk even though WE KNOW that we can’t really pull ourselves through whatever it is that we’re facing; and that is in-fact the definition of stupidity.

Conclusion is as such that – hope is stupid – or hope makes us stupid; and why continue to be stupid?

Abandon all hope: that is the key to real self-action – real self-movement; when there is no more hope there is only one thing left to do – find a damned solution and fast!

Thus – walk with me and let’s remove and release ourselves from this stupidity that hope in-fact represents.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold unto hope for a better future, to hold unto hope for a better life for myself, and a better experience of myself somewhere out there, and think that this experience will just come to me, that this life will just arrive one day because I am hoping for it; and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how hope is a drug that makes me stupid – because I want to believe that my world is going to turn out in a particular way – that my future is going to hold a particular value – yet looking at the point in reality there is absolutely nothing that says this is so; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not abandon all hope – and to let go of any form of positive experience in relation to the future – and instead change myself so that I act – I motivate myself – I live – and I participate – and I push myself to create that future that I want – to create the life that I want; as a future and a life that is best for all in always

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to glorify hope as this fantastic feat – thinking that it’s marvelous that I can remain positive towards the future even though the future is grim and that I see there is no way out for me in terms of facing this particular consequence – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use hope to blind myself from the truth, to blind myself from seeing what is real, what is actual, and what is in-fact happening in my life, and in my reality; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go of all hope – to not let go of all desire to have a particular future and realize that feeling positive towards the future doesn’t change anything – and that a feeling have in-fact no power in this physical reality and that it’s as such completely meaningless, completely without a purpose and without a reason

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that in holding unto hope I am limiting myself and compromising myself, as I will make decisions that aren’t based in common sense but based in hope – thus making decisions that aren’t in anyway aligned with and as reality – with and as the physical – with and as what is real – but decisions that just feels good to make; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lead my life on such a ineffective principle as hope – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question hope – to not investigate hope – and to not ask myself the question: does hope really contribute to anything at all in my life or is just this nuisance that makes me miss important points and considerations in my life?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I will loose nothing in letting go of hope – but in-fact gain everything – as hope to begin with isn’t real – it doesn’t give anything of substance as it’s not a actual physical substance it’s just this mist inside of me with energy that I’ve allowed myself to give precedence before my actual physical real reality that is here in every moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give hope precedence over that which is real – to believe that hope is more important than that which is real – to believe that hope holds any form of value and that I will loose something in letting go of hope; and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath and bring myself back here – and see, realize, and understand that this is a falsity – that I will loose in-fact nothing in letting go of hope because hope isn’t real to begin with; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to stand without hope, that I am not able to motivate and move myself without hope, that I am not able to make decisions without hope, instead of seeing, realizing, and understand that – I AM ABLE TO MOVE – PARTICIPATE and TAKE ACTION without hope; I don’t need hope

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and withhold myself in a state of self-suppression wherein I will not act – I will not risk anything – I will not push myself to move and direct myself because I still hold unto hope that things are going to get better by themselves – that things are going to move by themselves; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath and bring myself back here – and see, realize, and understand that – in letting go of hope I will in-fact enable myself to make the decision to walk in this life time with complete commitment and dedication to the point of birthing myself as life from the physical – and creating a world that is best for all in always – and as such I commit myself to let go of hope – and to within this dare to live and dare to have the courage to stand and face this reality as it is and walk solutions instead of covering and hiding in hope

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cover and hide in hope and wait with taking action until I am in-fact facing consequence; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go of all hope and as such take action immediately – to not wait and hope that things will get better – or hope that things are going to change – but to immediately take action – move myself and direct myself to get things moving, and to get things done – and to not wait for consequence before I move and direct myself to sort things out in myself and my world

Self-commitments

When and as I see that I am holding unto hope and I look at my reality with hope – thinking that things are just going to get better, they are going to be sorted out by themselves – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here; and I see, realize, and understand that I am within holding unto to this particular hope limiting myself and creating consequences for myself – because I am not pushing myself to move and direct myself when it’s required because I am instead simply hoping that things will move and change by themselves; as such I commit myself to let go of all hope – and to push and motivate myself to find solutions to the problems and issues that I am facing – and to stop covering and hiding in hope

When and as I see that I am hopeful, and that I feel good about an imagined future in my mind – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize, and understand that there is NO hope for real – because hope is a feeling and reality doesn’t work – isn’t influenced – and isn’t moved by feelings but by practical action; as such I commit myself to let go of all hope and instead focus on practical solutions to as such make a difference for myself in my life instead of wasting away in the disease of hoped

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