Day 110: Fact or Feeling?

I am currently listening to an interview series called “The Crucifixion of Jesus” – and the topic is wants, and how we from want create fears.

The pattern goes like this – we first state that we miss something, after that we go into a state of wanting that thing, and after that we go into a fear of loosing our want, and this is something I can relate to in regards to careers and money. Because, for quite a long time I’ve been wanting a specific career path, wanting a specific type of job, and within this I’ve gone into a fear, and anxiety that I won’t be able to attain and get this particular position.

So, I am in this blog going to look closer at this particular point, of how I create wants, and then go into fears about not being able to attain those particular wants, instead of creating a direct relationship with a want, and creating such a point in practical reality, through practical living, and not through utilizing any form of fear, anxiety and nervousness.

In relation to this particular point, with career, and money, another point is worth to be mentioned, and that is the point of how I tend to dream, and imagine things to happen in the future, and within this create wants, but not really having a clear and actual understanding of the practical point that I am actually desiring and wanting. For example, in regards to careers, I’ve wanted to have this specific career-path, yet in looking at the point for what it is, looking at the information that is out there describing this particular career-path, I am able to see that what I hoped that this would, is in-fact not real – and thus the job in it’s actuality is not in-fact in anyway resembling the want existing within me, because the want is merely a energy, and a experience, connected to particular fantasies, and it have nothing to do with reality in-fact.

Thus, within this I see how important it is to remain practical, and to make sure that within one’s decisions, that one take reality into consideration, and act according to what is practical, what is physical and what is real, and not according to how one feel about a particular point, because the feeling, it’s simply not real, and it doesn’t actually show or describe what is real – it’s just that – a positive feeling one have about a particular outcome or result, but with no understanding of what that outcome or result actually represents.

The most effective way to walk in this life, is to walk without creating any form of feeling attachment towards one’s external reality, because in walking like this, one will be able to act and make decisions according to what is real.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider points, and make decisions as to what I am to do with my life, and how I am to live my life, according to energy, according to feeling and experience – instead of looking at the reality of the situation, and looking at what is in-fact here – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire, and want points from a starting point of how I feel about them, instead of making a decision to manifest and create a point into my life and reality, because I see that it’s common sense, I see that it’s effective, and I see that it benefits me on a practical physical level

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk in my life, to direct myself in life, to make decisions, and to consider points, from a starting point of how I feel about them, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in relation to career, create a particular positive energy towards a particular career path, and want and desire to walk this career path, without making the actual research as to what this career path entails on a practical and physical level

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a career decision without first researching what a particular career path implies on a physical level – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind to direct me in my life, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how this particular way of moving myself in life is not at all effective – because what happens is that I make decisions and then I have no clarity and context as to the actuality of what the decision implies, I just make the decision and then hope it’s going to turn out as I desire and want – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath, and bring myself back here to and as my human physical body – stabilize myself here within and as breath – and as such make decisions from within and as a starting point of what is practical – and not from within and as a starting point of desire or want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how it’s obviously not in anyway practical or relevant to who I am, to make decisions according to how I feel about points, simply because it doesn’t matter in terms of my physical existence and experience of myself – because what matters – what is relevant – is my physical existence and world – is what is here and what I am able to touch and cross-reference and make sure for myself is in-fact what it is; and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change my way of looking at this world and the various opportunities within it – from feeling to instead looking at what is practical – relevant on a physical basis

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a want, from within and as stating within me that I don’t have that particular thing, I miss that thing and apparently need that thing to complete and fulfill me, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not instead make a decision from within and as a starting point of what is practical – what is relevant – where I see that a position in the system would be effective for me to go into; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath and bring myself back here – and accept and allow myself to push myself to work with what is real – and not work with what is here from a starting point of feelings and emotions as experiences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I am in-fact making completely irrational decisions when I accept and allow myself to move and direct myself from within and as a starting point of feeling and experience, instead of looking at what is here – looking at what is a physical actual reality – and thus moving myself from the research that I’ve made and that I can cross-reference with another to be accurate and effective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move myself from within and as a starting point of want, and desire – as feeling that I need and must have a particular outcome in my world else I will somehow not be fulfilled and I will be missing out – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I am in-fact limiting myself extensively through holding unto this particular idea of how I must move myself in my reality – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make the decision to move myself practically here – to realize that the dreams, fantasies and imaginations that come up in my mind – they are in-fact no relevant as they do not show me a proper and relevant picture of reality and thus are not reliable in terms of utilizing these as sources upon which I base my decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that regardless of what career-path I decide to walk, the point that will remain the same is who I am here – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that a particular career path doesn’t define who I am, doesn’t create who I am, doesn’t make me – it’s simply something that I do at the time-being in order to ensure that I have a sufficient amount of money at my disposal so that I am able to walk my process internally and externally and bring forth and create a money system that is best for all – wherein I won’t anymore have to hunt for money but where money will be here at my disposal and I such can utilize my time to things that are more important and relevant than hunting for my survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all career-paths in the system are in someway limited, and that regardless of what path I choose, none will be completely fulfilling and effective, because that is not how the current system is structured; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger, frustration and despair at the fact that I will have to in a way “lock myself into” a particular position in the system to make money to survive – instead of realizing that this is nothing to react towards – it’s simply how the system currently functions – and thus in order to walk my process this is what I must align myself with and direct as myself here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and as a reaction when I stand before a point, as a career-path, wherein I realize that in order to walk this career-path I must dedicate and put down massive amounts of time, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and as fear and anxiety towards the point of loosing my time, loosing out on my life, and loosing out on my self-interest as my freedom to do what I desire and want in my life, at any time when I want; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath – bring myself back here – and see, realize and understand that in order to become a part of this system – I must embrace and walk in the system – for a moment – and that this is obviously nothing bad or wrong, it’s simply what it is – and thus I walk in the system while I at the same time make sure that I dedicate my other time to the point of creating a new system that will be best for all – so that I do not anymore have to spend so much time assuring my survival but that my survival will be a given

Self-commitments

When and as I see that I want to make a decision in regards to my future, in regards to career, and in regards to what I should do with my life, upon the basis of a want, or a fear – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that motivating and moving myself from this particular starting point as fear is obviously completely ineffective – because common sense dictates that a feeling or a fear can’t in anyway show me what is the best decision as it’s not based on a factual research; as such I commit myself to make decisions upon the basis of actual research as researching the actual physical points that are here – and not walk and move myself in accordance with how I feel

When and as I see, realize and understand that I am looking at a point from a starting point of a emotion, or feeling, such as wanting, desiring, or fearing – and I am about to make a decision – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that a decision can only be effective when it’s based on the REAL facts – as the facts that are proven – and that a imagination, a fantasy, or a dream, can’t be used to make an effective decision as these points are not real; as such I commit myself to take a breath and bring myself back here to and as my human physical body – and make decisions, move myself, and direct myself in my life, in accordance to proven facts, and not in accordance to how I feel and experience myself in relation to a particular point

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