Day 192: Facing Uncertainty With Boldness

Boldness is a trait and characteristic that oftentimes is connected to war, the strive for success, the ability to take risks, and move in the face of fear – though to be bold is not only that – being bold is something that we’re able to use and live in our daily lives – as we face those daily points that come up within us – emotions, feelings, thoughts – being bold would imply moving into a new direction – it would imply going for that change – and standing – walking into the unknown without hesitation.

Now, I’ve been working with this point of boldness for a while, and I’ve realized that living boldness is one of the solutions to the experience of fear and anxiety towards the future. Because one of the issues with my way of approach fear and anxiety have been that I’ve not yet replaced it with a creation – with a correction and a new way of living that I see would be more supportive and effective for me – and compliment me and the life that I am living – here boldness comes in as a word that I able to live.

The point of boldness further opened up when I was listening to a interview with the attaché to a second world war general: The attaché explained that his job was to make sure that the general – which was a contentious and hesitant one – did his job and gave the orders that were required for the army to move forward. He explained that what a general was supposed to do was to make the decisions and then stand by them – and this resonated with me – because this is the exact point that I’ve been facing. My very problem and issue have been to make my decisions and then boldly walk into them and face the consequences of them – instead I’ve made decisions – become worried and nervous about the decision – then re-made the decision – and repeated the process again.

Thus – one aspect of living the word bold as I see it – is to stand by my decisions – to dare to face the consequences and playouts of my application and movement in this world and not be deterred or impeded by failure, mistakes, contingencies, and unforeseen events.

The same goes for walking process – and walking my self-change – it’s a process that I can’t foresee the result of – I am not able to know exactly what is going to happen – exactly what I should do and how I should go about it – yet – in walking this point of being bold – and walking with my decision and pushing through regardless of what I am facing within – no problem can hold me back – because I know that regardless – I will push through – and I will establish solutions for myself – and I will direct and move myself through challenges and difficulties.

This particular point of being strong and having the ability to push through and walk regardless of the difficulties was also brought up in this interview – where in essence – what is shared is that in order to walk process successfully and establish change for real – you require to give it your all – and not stop in the face adversities and predicaments – but rather hold unto and push through within that knowing – that I will not give up – I will not give in – I will do what I came here to do and that is to create myself.

Thus – living boldness is something that I will practice in my day-to-day living – and in particular I will apply this boldness when fear and doubt comes up – to then exclaim within myself that: I am bold – I move myself into the unknown and without certainty – because I trust myself that whatever issue or difficulty I will face – I am going to direct it into a solution.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand within and as the word of being bold – and live as boldness – wherein I will walk into uncertainty, and the unknown with self-trust – wherein I will move into the future – and move with my decisions – and face the consequences – knowing that whatever I am going to face – I will stand within myself and direct the point into and as a solution

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not when fear, anxiety or doubt comes up within me in relation to the future – or decisions I’ve made – to stop – take a breath and bring myself back here – and state within myself that I am bold – and that I boldly take the step into the next moment and face whatever might come my way – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate – to fear – and to go into self-disbelief – instead of sticking with my decision – sticking with my initial intent and what I set out to do – and not accepting and allowing myself to be deterred – impeded or hindered – but that I instead push through and do what is required to be done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to approach my future in hesitation, in worry, fear and anxiety, self-disbelief, and inferiority – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to change this – I must change my approach towards the future – my outlook – my way of seeing myself in relationship to my future – and within this I see, realize and understand that living boldness is a solution and something that’ll assist and support me to move forward – and to create myself in my life in such a way that I see is supportive and assisting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not immediately when fear arise within me – stop – take a breath and bring myself back here to what I am doing – and what I am walking – and what I am creating – to bring myself back to that certainty that regardless of what – I will find a solution – I will move myself forward – I will not give up or give in – but I will rather create myself through living boldness – through approaching my life – and my future – not within fear – but rather within being creative and playful – going into and towards the unknown and the uncertain – and not accepting and allowing worry and fear to dictate my expression – but rather that I dictate and move myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that fear indicates that I don’t trust myself – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not through repetitive action – consistently prove to myself – that I can trust myself – that when I face difficulties – when I face points that I don’t immediately know how to direct and move – that I will find a solution – that I will find a way through – and that I will not give up upon myself – not give up upon what I’ve set out to do – but rather push through

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that fear, angst, worry towards the future – or decisions that I’ve made comes up within me – I stop – I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand this fear comes up because I don’t yet trust myself – I don’t yet stand as my own backbone in being stable and firm – steadfast and motivated to push myself through any and all obstacles – find the solutions – establish and create my life regardless – and thus I commit myself to live boldness – to boldly push forward even though I can’t predict the future – and even though it’s uncertain – to realize that life is in it’s very nature and essence uncertain – and living in fear of that is meaningless – and through living boldness I take charge of myself and push forward to make the most of my life and in this realize – that when challenges and difficulties emerge – I will direct them – I will find and establish a solution

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