So, what I’ve realized is in essence that I’ve been waiting in relation to actually taking the step into the unknown – committing myself fully to my process of self-change and actually walking through it – and I see that a point that have contributed to this is the idea and belief that I am not able to walk this process of change – that I am not able to change and birth myself as life from the physical.
Though, obviously – I am able to do this – and the reason I can say this is because I’ve everything I will ever need at my disposal – I’ve the tools – self-forgiveness – self-writing – and self-commitment statements – I’ve a functional human physical body – I am breathing and I’ve a functional mental capacity – thus – there are no excuses and there are no justifications why I shouldn’t make it the purpose and focus of each day to bring through the potential that I know I am able to live.
After listening to the interview I recapitulated my process – I looked at what I am facing within – what I’ve been working with for an extended period of time – and where it is crucial that I push myself to actually change for real – and I see that the time of preparation in regards to these points is DONE – I’ve prepared myself – I’ve laid the foundation – I’ve walked the writing – I’ve walked the self-forgiveness – and now it’s time to bring this into physical application – and to take my self-commitment statements into living – and make my spoken and written word – living words.
Thus – I’ve committed myself to make the primary point of attention in process to live my practical commitment statements – to get back to the basics and walk through these persistent and nagging points – that I’ve not yet fully pushed myself to transcend – that I’ve still in a way waited for to change – not realizing that when the points arise within me – I must stand as that point of movement that makes the decisions – that I will the point into physical manifestation and change – the only one that is able to do this is MYSELF – so – practical application – practical change – practical movement – being practical – and engaging in my process practically – that will for the time being be a priority.
And I see that it’s not that this practical application part of process is particularly difficult or tough – not more tough than other parts and aspects of process – it’s just that – I’ve never done it – I’ve never fully committed myself to it and walked it – and that is what I must do – to actually get my hands dirty – do it – do it – make the mistakes – and then – perfect the point – so that I establish this point of taking my self-commitment statements into practical physical application.
One of my primary motivations in doing this is that I realize what an opportunity that I’ve – that there is potential for me to create myself – and that I don’t want to under any circumstances look back at myself and my life – when I die – and realize that I didn’t give it my all – thus I take preventive measures and make sure that I give this my all – every day – every breath – push through and walk the point – until it’s done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself within and as persistency, consistency and steadfastness – standing fast in my determination to walk this point through – to apply myself and walk this process to the best of my ability
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving this process and myself – my everything and all – in fearing that my best and to the fullest of my ability won’t be enough – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to half-ass myself through my process believing that it won’t be enough when I give it my all – and also thinking that it will take too much effort – and be uncomfortable and too much if I give this process my all
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not wake up each day with a clear intent and motivation to bring forth change on a practical on physical level in myself and in my world – with a clear intent and motivation to push through and move myself through the difficult and tough points that I’ve been working with – and seeing, realizing and understanding that I am able to do this – that it’s about me aligning myself within that clear intent and determination that I do possess – and that I must re-direct into process and into bringing through physical practical change on a daily basis and not stopping – not holding back and not quitting – until this is done
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not develop and strengthen my spirit – my ability to stand – to support myself and practically apply myself when I face tough and difficult shit within me – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practice this point through the application of when a reaction emerge within – to immediately ask – where did this come from? How did I create this? And then look at solutions – to apply self-forgiveness on the point and immediately move myself out from the energy – to use breath to support myself to step out of the character and get into the physical here
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this is my last life – and that when I die – I will be measured – and I will stand before myself and ask myself – what did I do? Did I give this my all and everything? And within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in that moment I want to see with full certainty and surety that – yes – I did absolutely everything in my power to move myself – to expand – to correct myself – to live my words into the physical – and that I did take this opportunity and I made the most of it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must create myself as the character of life – that I must bring into existence those characteristics that I see that I must have and live in order to walk this process and birth myself as life from the physical – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that walking this process half-assed – walking it without really meaning it – walking it without really wanting it – it’s meaningless and waste of time – because I won’t get anywhere – in order to actually expand – in order to actually move – in order to actually develop myself and stand – I must mean it – and I must live it fully
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that common characteristic of people that have produced marvelous results with their lives is that they gave it their all – they didn’t waver or give up – but kept on pushing regardless of what issues – challenges or difficulties that they faced – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself with that same intensity and will – with that same spirit and power to push through and move myself – and produce results regardless of what I am facing – and stand steadfast within myself in understanding that walking process and producing self-change is a matter of accumulation – is a matter of remaining consistent throughout time – and walking the correction and the direction that I’ve placed for myself until I stand – until I’m in a position where I am stable and sound and there is not anymore any movement within me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spoiled with the tools of self-forgiveness, writing, and self-commitment statements, and in that use them half-assed – instead of when I sit down to do my writing – when I sit down to do my self-forgiveness – to be fully and totally here – to do it completely and absolutely – and to be here in the physical and walk the point with presence of breath – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and recognize the opportunity that these tools represent – the opportunity that living these tools in the physical represent – and that all the answers – and that the life I’ve been looking for – that it’s before me – and that all I have to do is to stop waiting – and simply step up and take these tools to their fullest potential through living them practically – and doing that consistently day-by-day – until it’s done
I commit myself to each day wake up with a clear intent and motivation that I am walking my process – this is why I am here on earth – to birth myself as life from the physical – and thus I will use this day that is before me to fully apply myself – to stop myself when I notice I go into thoughts, emotions or feelings – to remain here with my breath and practice stabilizing myself in the physical – and to make sure that I do my writing – and that I walk my Desteni I Process course – and that I use the support-platforms that are here at my disposal for me to embrace and make my own
I commit myself to stop waiting and make each day a complete and fulfilling day – through taking the tools and my practical application to it’s fullest potential – through being HERE – and applying myself – taking my practical commitment statements into physical living – and creating myself as life from the physical – and walking this point until it’s done