Day 431: Jumping Off The Stress-Train

I have been working with anxiety/fear/projections last week. I have realized that the key to stopping anxiety/fear/projections is to stop the train of thought and bring it back here. The emotions need thoughts to become fired up – they need some image or vision of something going to shit – and by not going there – the emotions remain small and easy to direct.

The solution is simple – the application can be tough – because it is easy to go into that train of thought and the justification is usually that it is somehow needed for me to protect/prepare myself. However – that is the illusion – that feeling of need – because there is really no need to think of anything – it does not make things better or worse. Thinking about things just perpetuates a state of feeling. For example – if I have a test I need to prepare for – thinking about the test will perpetuate a state of stress/tension and it will not increase my chances of passing the exam. The only thing that will increase my chances of that is actually sitting down and studying. And that action is not itself associated with anxiety/tension – it is simply what it is – sitting down and studying.

The same goes with the test – it is what it is – me sitting down doing a test. Though when we think about it – that is when the demons start coming out of the woodwork. Suddenly the test seems to be too big, and there seems to be a grave shortage of time. What to do, what to do? The stress starts seeping into every cell of the body and corrupts every moment with a foggy state of being half alive and half zombie. That is no way to live – that is survival – and why even be here if it is only to survive? We are meant to be and do more than that. Life is about exploration, experience, expansion and movement – it is about finding out what we are all about and the difference we can make. And to get into that zone of expression – we must drop the thinking – it is only holding us back.

I have understood that in order to stop feeding the stress-demon – I must be consistent in my STOP-application. The train of thoughts leading me down into the rabbit hole will move again and again – and each of them will try to lure me away on a small trip to stress-land. Each train will have its own unique attraction – something that creates that desire to jump on and find out where it is going. When that desire arise, that is the moment to step in, take a breath, and hold the reigns. Because if I go into that desire, I will start feeding the monster – and soon enough – I will yet again be engulfed in an experience and not able to live and experience each waking moment with the presence and clarity that it deserves.

The interesting thing about stress is that we believe we need it. We have created this idea that we need competition, we need to fight for our survival, struggle, or exist in austerity and lack in order to get going – and hence – we created capitalism in our image and likeness. Capitalism which is the very essence of the struggle to survive and the glorification of the winner at the peril of the loser. And we believe that we get some many fantastic things out of capitalism; advances in technology, creature comforts, more and better food – though what is growing inside of everyone is the tension/anxiety/fear – the understanding that in a capitalistic world no one really matters.

We do not need stress or fear to create awesome things. We do not need these demons to push us forward – we can do that by ourselves. All we need is our common sense – and our body will take care of the movement. Thus – I will continue to embrace and live a life-oriented living where I focus on the creation and enjoyment of living instead of living with fear/stress.


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