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About viktorpersson1

I have a passion for life and a burning desire to create a functional world system that will support everyone to make the most out of their lives on this earth. I have attained a Masters of Laws through studies at Uppsala university, Sweden, and I am on my way of completing a bachelor in economics. Though my interest lies with Human Rights law and how this can be applied to shape our future for the better.

Day 375: Opportunities

This past week I have been working with opportunities. A tendency I have is to compare my life to that of others. Naturally, it always seems as if I am worse off, which in turn can make me feel depressed. I will then stagnate and move my attention/focus unto what I should have done and what I have missed because I did not do it. This is problematic because it causes me to miss the life that is right in front of me.

That is why I have been practicing recognizing and moving on opportunities that come through. In can be small things. Still, if I am in my mind, I will miss them. For example, it can be that I meet someone that I have not seen in a long time. I then have the opportunity to do something more out of that interaction, which could be done by for example eating a lunch together. However the opportunity can be much more vague and difficult to spot. It can be a idea to do something that comes up while I drive my car. If I am not on my toes its easy to dismiss such things as daydreaming. Though it can be a worthwhile notion to move on. Who knows? That is why it is important to not worry about the life of others and compare myself and what I am doing with what others are doing.

The biggest issue that I have had with comparison have been in relation to my work. And this has been a reason as to why I have not dared to commit to any one direction or focus. I want to keep all roads free, because what if I make the wrong decision? What if I do not make the right choice, and then at the end of the day, I will compare my choice and realize that I was wrong? This fear inhibits my expression of moving on opportunities, interests, what fascinates and intrigues me, because I can never be sure where these will take me.

Where does comparison come from? From what I am able to see, comparison is a type of insecurity. It is cultivated with self-judgment, doubt, anxiety, and desires to be successful and famous. When I was a child I had no issues with comparison because all that existed was my life HERE. The decisions I made where fully my own. I did not care about whether someone else did the same or something different compared to me. My presence and enjoyment in the moment encompassed all of my inner reality – there was no room for comparison – every inch of me was needed HERE to express and live. And that is an important thing to take with me. That comparison cannot exist when I am FULLY engaged and present in the moment and in what I am doing.

The solution to be more awake and ready to move on the opportunities that present themselves is to be fully breathing – fully living – fully HERE. Comparing my life to that of others is really only a symptom of not living fully here – it shows me that I am accepting and allowing myself to do things halfheartedly, without intensity and passion – it shows me that I am thinking too much and not living. It is thus a opportunity in itself to investigate where it is that I am holding myself back and correct it.


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Day 374: Some Reflections on Billions

I have recently been looking at the TV-series ‘Billions’ (see more on the Wiki-page). It is about a attorney that use all means necessary to reach his goal and a billionaire that is very much the same. A big part of the series has to do about money. Most decisions made by the characters are motivated by greed or desire for fame and reputation. What interested me was seeing how some of the characters relate to money, especially their personal economies.

All of the characters make a lot of money. An example would be the attorney and his wife. The attorney make about 200 000 dollars a year and the wife makes about 1 000 000 dollars a year. In my eyes that is a lot of money – not a salary that would leave anything else to wish for. In one episode the attorney and the wife are discussing changing their jobs and how that will influence their situation with money. Even though the wife is keen to get a new job, she says that they do not have the means to do it because she will have to accept a lower salary. Then they would not have the money to pay rent, tuition fees for their kids, etc.

This made me realize that money is always relative and that what tends to happen when we earn more money is that our expectations/desires/habits will change and soon match our new income. The same goes with our fears. They never disappear. When we earn more money, the fears will after a while alter and return in a different shape. It might not be that we fear being without food or a house. Instead the fear might be that we are not going to have the money to send our kids to the best private school, or that we will not have the money to invest our money in the best possible hedge fund.

When it comes to fear of money, the solution is not to earn more but to deal with the unconscious energies that moves deep down. If we do not deal with our unconscious mind – it does not matter what we do. We are going to recreate our patterns. They will look slightly different, however it will be the same energies, the same experiences, the same ideas.

Another realization that I have had while looking at this series is how bad we are at using our money. We are bad in the sense that, we use our money, only to further our own self-interest. Some money might go to charity, however our primary reserves will always be used on ourselves and those closest to us. We buy stuff that we do not need, we get new interests and hobbies, we travel, we spend and consume, and only a very small percentage if any is invested in solutions that will bring substantial change. How are we ever going to change anything in this world if we do not spend our money on fixing it? Is it possible to expect that things will change, without us investing any effort/energy/money? Thus, earning a lot of money is for most of us, in the big scale, meaningless, because we cannot use them effectively.

Correcting our relationship with money is an important point. Money is both the key to solving our problems on earth and the very thing that substantiates, moves and creates more issues. With money, our desires and wants can become realized. At the moment, our desires and wants are misaligned and without purpose – and that becomes what our money creates; meaningless entertainment and consumption. Imagine if our desires and wants would have been to change this world for the better and to give everyone a awesome life. What would happen? How would our lives change? What would we do with our money?

 


 

Day 373: Structure vs. Spontaneity

Being in a long term relationship can be really challenging and it can also be absolutely fantastic. One key ingredient in moving a relationship towards success is understanding the difference between the male and the female psyche. Many conflicts between partners arise due to not taking into account some of the basic female/male designs. Instead of considering the differences and learning from each-other – what tends to happen is misunderstanding, impatience and judgment.

An example is structure vs. spontaneity. Generally speaking, males tend to be more inclined to make decisions and move themselves with little planning. Decisions are made on the go, solutions are improvised, and changes are applied without much preparation. Women on the other hand, generally speaking, tends to better at planning, and also want to have a plan/structure. The conflict will then be about the man not structuring/taking his life, causing many ups and downs, which the woman becomes dissatisfied with. The man on the other hand will become dissatisfied with what he experiences as too much anxiety/worry/micromanaging and inflexibility from the woman.

How then to solve this problem?

Both the man and the woman must be willing to let go of their own preferences. Both structure and spontaneity have their positive and their negative traits. The solution is not to enforce a total and unchangeable structure, neither is the solution to live solely in the moment without any preparation. Balance is the best way to go – and – recognizing that being in a committed long term relationship is a great opportunity to learn and become a more well-rounded human being. Men can learn a lot from women, and women can learn a lot from men. We have our weaknesses and our strengths, and it is when we push ourselves to move beyond our own perception of the world that we are able to expand.

Myself for example, my challenge is to become more structured in my leisure time. At my work, structure has become a part of me. However, when I get home, I feel a need to let go of all plans/structures so that I can be free to do what I want to do in the moment. That does not work very well with family life. When there are several lives working together in a unit, structure is very important for everything to move smoothly. Without structure, each individual will move wherever and however he or she wants – and that will create conflict. A structure, an agreement, between the individuals in the unit, is thus vital for a effective movement.

Freedom is not limited by structure. It is possible to be free and express myself within a set structure, it is possible to enjoy myself within and as a structure, it is possible to expand myself within a structure – because it is about WHO I AM – and not about where I am. At the moment, structure is a necessary part of my life and something that I will have to keep practicing and that will make my life a lot easier when I master it.


Day 372: Bringing Life Here

When things get too much, then focus on the small. One thing at a time. That is how movement is accumulated – we do one thing – then we do the next thing. Sometimes it is not possible to have overview, it is not possible to be in control over a series of events – however – we are always in control in THIS moment. In this movement we can decide who we are – and we can decide to move ourselves into the direction that we want to go.

I cannot walk my life effectively trying holding a image/projection in-front of my eyes, believing that I need to manifest that projection into reality – moving with that picture as a target my decisions become inflexible. I miss what is HERE in-front of me and start to move with a erratic frenzy. Life is HERE and hence it must be DIRECTED here – it cannot be lived as a picture – because that is not the nature of LIFE.

Goals can be defined and plans can be scripted – though it will only remain a plan and a goal – not LIFE. It is important to not confuse a goal and a plan with life. The former is used to find direction – the latter is what it is all about and cannot be defined within the limited confines of a goal and a plan. Hence it is important to never have the plan and the goal supersede what is happening in this moment – because it can all change – in one breath.

Real stability, clarity and overview is in the moment – it is HERE – it cannot be placed on a paper – it cannot be constructed – it must be LIVED – one moment – HERE – I see. And this is cool – because whenever stability, clarity and overview is missing – it does not mean that we have to arduously walk a long process until these points can be brought here – rather we can bring stability, clarity and overview – HERE – by making a decision to do so. And sometimes it might not be possible – and we need the tools of support such as writing and self-forgiveness – other times it is possible.

Because my life is so busy, with things, responsibilities, points to handle and direct constantly, I do not have the time to bring stability and clarity here through writing – I have to live it in the moment. Why wait for these things to come to me when I can decide to live that now?

 


Day 371: Making The Ordinary, Extraordinary

This week I have been working with giving/creating purpose in my life – asking myself WHY? I learned this application in the following Eqafe interview:

In the interviews, the question is asked, what does it mean when we are depressed, demotivated and apathetic? It means that we are not giving purpose to ourselves and our lives – we are not making it MORE – but instead accepting and allowing it to just be handed to us – lived in a flow – and comfortably we swim with the stream. However – in swimming with the stream – we miss that point of making something MORE out of ourselves – and this is where the question, WHY, comes in.

An example from my own life is in the work I do. The WHY of my work is firstly, to earn money to support my family and I, secondly to support the people I encounter, and give them the best possible service and advice, so that they can create their lives to be the best that it can be, and thirdly, to learn more about this world, the system, and life in general – that is why I go to work. When I keep that in mind – the WHY – I become different – I act with more confidence, stride and direction.

Asking WHY is helpful especially with things that have become a routine, mundane and that we take for granted. Why are we in the relationship that we are in? Why do we have the hobbies that we have? Why do we eat a certain thing in the morning? Through questioning ourselves and our life we are able redefine and rediscover our purpose within it all – and it is by living with a purpose that we are able to establish substance, wealth, and greatness within ourselves and our life

However it does take discipline to question self and that which we have taken for granted. It is easy to fall into old tracks, and just go along with what is working – that is not the road the excellence. In order to attain excellence, depth is needed, it must be personal, it must be intimate and real – not just something that is done on a surface level. And that is unfortunately that is the case when I approach a part of my life without a clear purpose/direction/understanding within, my participation becomes surfaced.

Hence, is it is important to establish WHY – and not only walk through the motions of everyday life without any life movement/direction/creation. There is nothing wrong or bad about routines, though, when they become a purpose on their own, that is problematic – because that means we are not anymore directive.

What I do is that I make sure to make of all my routines/moments in my life. expansive and life-giving – I find the little seed of life and I nurture it. Regardless of what I am doing, there is always space for movement. Hence, when I drive, I use the time to introspect and apply self-forgiveness. When I take a shower, I push myself to be present in my body, explore breath, the physical sensations and enjoy the moment. Nearly moments, and everything we do on a daily basis, it can all be redesigned to have a supportive meaning that assists and supports us to grow. That however requires from ourselves that we are on our toes, present, here, and that we actively push to make something extraordinary out of the ordinary and trite.


Day 370: How To Enjoy Hobbies With Limited Time

Being the father of a young girl, time has become a scarce resource. Before becoming a father I had time to participate in big projects and move them forward fast. That is not possible anymore – at least – I cannot do it in the same way as I used to do it. This has opened up a new dimension/understanding of creation/participation/movement that has to do with quantity compared to quality.

An example I have is my recent exploration of growing vegetables. Initially I wanted to and also tried to become self-sufficient on vegetables. However I realized that it took too much time – also considering that I have many other interests/hobbies that I want to continue. Practically speaking, there is simply not room in my life at the moment to grow all my vegetables without compromising responsibilities in other areas/parts of my life.

As I ran into this practical conundrum of wanting to do something, yet not having the possibility to do it, I began looking at solutions. While pondering various approaches, I realized that my interest in growing vegetables really had nothing to do with self-sufficiency. Becoming self-sufficient was an idea that I created, that mirrored my passion/intensity/desire to expand and learn about vegetables, earth and nature. However, self-sufficiency was not the core point. Instead, what really drove me and motivated me to invest myself in learning about and growing my own vegetables was the expressions within me that this hobby opened up.

Looking after a plant from its infancy as a seed to its blossoming into a full grown vegetable is soothing, deep and intriguing. Putting my hands into the earth, and using my body to dig and carry is rejuvenating and refreshing. That is really what growing vegetables is about to me. It is a moment of expansion into a new area of interest – an area where I have no past experience – and where everything is new and fresh – that is why I enjoy it. I also find pleasure in learning recipes, and finding ways to store the produce for a longer time. I expand when I participate in this interest – and that is the core – that is what matters. Hence – it is not of prime importance that I do as much as I can, it is however important that I put as much of MYSELF into what I am doing – that I am really HERE and allow these words/expressions to develop within me as I participate in the specific type of hobby.

When I approach my interest in growing vegetables like this I can fit it into my schedule. It does not have to be that much, though it has to be substantial. And I find this to be true of all of my interests. It is a lot more rewarding when I make sure that my commitments are in balance with the rest of my responsibilities. And then I am able to do a little, however do that small part with intensity, specificity and my total focus – and push myself to develop the soft values/expressions that are hidden within each and every hobby that is part of my life.

To sum it up: When time is scarce, instead of looking at acquiring a quantity, I move to achieve quality and to balance the hobby in harmony with the rest of my life. And instead of focusing on the amount I create, focus on the expression within me that I live as I am walking/participating while in my interest.


Day 369: Comparing Your Reach

I recently listened to two Eqafe interviews that I can warmly recommend:

These interviews covered the topic of wanting to have a impact, wanting to influence, wanting to be noticed/seen by others and what consequences this behavior can cause. The example used in the interview was that of social media; when we spend most of our time trying to share what is going on in our lives in a interesting way, so that we can in turn receive the attention we desire. I suspect that there are many out there that are able to relate to this.

Personally I do not have issue with social media – however – that does not mean that I have been spared from the desire to achieve fame and have a impact. For me, this desire has taken other shapes and found its way into my work and my decisions in terms of hobbies and interests. One example of how this desire have limited me is the following: By nature, I am a eclectic. I enjoy variety, pursuing new interests, paths, and testing out new things. And often I discover new avenues that I would like to discover. However, the aforementioned desire has from time to time limited from moving forward on those avenues. Because in the back of my mind there has been this voice asking: Who will notice/be effected if I decide to pursue this point? Hence, I have evaluated my ideas on the basis of what kind of reach/effect I would be able to achieve. And if my evaluation ended up in the conclusion that I would not be able to achieve any noteworthy impact – then I would withhold myself from pursuing the point.

By listening to these interviews, I have again become reminded of how important it is to not compare myself with anyone else. It does not matter what anyone else is doing, it does not matter how many people I reach, what is important is that I walk by my own self-honesty, and that I give effort into my life that is already here. Because fact of the matter is that I do already have a certain reach. It might not be global and it might not touch that many – though even still I am important and I do have a significant impact – people, animals, plants, things – there are many that are dependent on me. And if I am busy trying to increase my reach – obsessed and lost in the desire to achieve fame and notoriety – then I will miss and forget these points in my life which I do already have a responsibility towards.

Hence – instead of increasing my reach – my focus should be on perfecting the influence/impact I already have – to thus make sure that I am living what is best, and giving what is best, for the people, animals and plants in my life, that are dependent on me. And that is what I will focus upon whenever this desire to acquire a broader reach comes up within me – FOCUS on what is HERE already and build on that.