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Day 329: Redefining Successful

Redefining the word Successful

How I have lived the word up till now

Undoubtedly, success for me has been deeply connected with receiving recognition from others and thus my primary relationship with the word has been in relation to fame and the desire to become famous. Throughout my life I have many times ventured and taken on new hobbies, because they have held an opportunity for me to get famous. There has been music, making movies, writing, and more, hobbies that I have pursued hoping to become widely known and appreciated. Thus, success has not been something present in my personal relationship with myself – success has been something to achieve for someone out there.

Current definition

Dictionary definition

  1. The accomplishment of an aim or purpose: the president had some success in restoring confidence.
    • the attainment of fame, wealth, or social status: the success of his play.
    • [ count noun ] a person or thing that achieves desired aims or attains fame, wealth, etc.: to judge from league tables, the school is a success | I must make a success of my business.
  2. archaic the good or bad outcome of an undertaking: the good or ill success of their maritime enterprises.

Etymology

1530s, “result, outcome,” from Latin successus “an advance, a coming up; a good result, happy outcome,” noun use of past participle of succedere “come after” (see succeed). Meaning “accomplishment of desired end” (good success) first recorded 1580s. Meaning “a thing or person which succeeds,” especially in public, is from 1882.

The moral flabbiness born of the bitch-goddess SUCCESS. That — with the squalid interpretation put on the word success — is our national disease. [William James to H.G. Wells, Sept. 11, 1906]

Success story is attested from 1902. Among the French phrases reported by OED as in use in English late 19c. were succès d’estime “cordial reception given to a literary work out of respect rather than admiration” and succès de scandale “success (especially of a work of art) dependent upon its scandalous character.”

Sounding of the word

Suck-cease

Suck-see

Suck-test

Search-for-the-best

Sit-on-end-of-test

Suck-tease

succeed

succession

Creating writing

The current definition of successful is actually grounded and specific in comparison to how I have thus far understood successful. Being successful is not about ‘competing’ or ‘winning’ – it is not about proving oneself to another – it is actually about realizing a plan/idea/manifesto into reality – it is about walking a process of creation into the physical. My definition of successful has been that it is something ‘good’ that happens, particularly related to money, career, studies, sports, competitions, and foremost in comparison with others – a success is only a success if it implies that I am better than or more than others.

However, this is not the essence of success – because in the word we have the sounds of succeed and succession – and it also comes through in the etymology of the word – success is something that comes after – it is outcome of a process of creation – where a goal has been established and then a process has been walked to realize this goal – and hence – the outflow is success.

New redefinition

Walking the creation of a goal/vision/idea/principle into physical creation/completion.

Day 204: What is a Weakness?

Some days ago my partner became sick, and when this happened an interesting experience emerged within me, specifically in regards to the point of being sick – and that was irritation and anger.

So, the question then is why would I become irritated and angry when someone close to me is sick? And here the answer lies within what sickness represents to me – because being sick to me is a sign of weakness – being physically incapable of effectively caring for one’s life and responsibilities – that is something that I define to be a weakness.

The word to investigate is thus weakness – and how come that I see this word as some form of repulsive disease that must be suppressed and held back at every instance. Firstly, what weakness implies to me at the moment is basically not being able to stand solid and grounded and walk into the current world system, and not be able to push and will yourself forward even though the labor in the world system is challenging and demanding – weakness at the moment is thus a lack of survival skills or ability to survive.

What I see in this is that I’ve mostly related weakness to be in relation to the physical characteristics of human being, either the human being is strong, as in being able to physically handle many responsibilities, tasks, and jobs, or the being is weak as in not being able to handle many responsibilities, tasks and jobs. I’ve seldom looked at weakness as being a weakness of character – because it’s obvious that weaknesses can exists in several areas of one’s life – it can be a weakness that one accept and allow a certain emotional experience to possess oneself easily – or it can be a weakness that one doesn’t have the skill of relaxing and caring for the physical body – there is really a multitude of weaknesses.

But, the one of definition of weaknesses that stands out in my mind is not being able to survive, not being able to find food and nutrition, and build my life in such a way that I feel secure, and safe, and as I’ve got everything I need in order to get through. So, the reason why I get angry at my partner when she’s sick, would be because she is representing a weaknesses in my worldly survival skills, and that would then trigger reactions, fears and anxieties, as well as anger and irritation – which would then function as a form of alarm system in me that will initiate action, and make sure that I act to put my partner backing into an effective working condition where she’s not sick anymore – but ready to survive and make as money as is required. Though the problem here is that I act out in irritation anger, blaming my partner of not having optimal survival skills – and in that believing that through being angry, and irritated, this will somehow cause my partner to ‘get her shit together’, become healthy, and effective again.

I realize that this definition and understanding of weakness is limited, because actually being constantly possessed in a state of pushing myself to survive, not seeing and recognizing the rest of life that is here, that is also a weakness – and not being able to support and assist another in stability when they are sick – that’s also a weakness – so, it’s obvious that a weakness is not only in relation to money and survival but that it’s a word with several applications – and the one thing to remember is not to fear weaknesses, but rather recognize them, and then commit to walking a process of self-correction – or support – where one take the weakness and then turn it into a strength.

And for example, with my partner, this process of working with this weakness as the sickness, could be to support my partner with what she needs to curate, and take care of the responsibilities of the household, cook food and clean – so that my partner can relax and physically change her state of weakness into a state of strength through allowing the body to recuperate and refresh. Thus, not reacting to the fact that my partner is currently in a state of weakness – but rather assisting and supporting my partner to turn that weakness into a strength – and understanding that a weakness is nothing personal – it’s what it is and thus like a mechanic that make reparations on a car – I’m able to walk the same process with myself and my environment.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and anxiety when my partner becomes sick, and judge this sickness as a weakness in survival skills, and think that this point is compromising my position in this world – and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to handle this weakness through becoming angry, frustrated and irritated, and judging my partner for becoming sick – and thinking that my partner should immediately recuperate and come back to normal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and judge the state of physically ill and sick – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize that I hold a fear of becoming ill and physically sick, because I fear that I would in that state of being not be able to care for myself or my life, and that I would not be able to survive effectively – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to survive in this world, and effectively care for myself, and my future, and that this ability of mine will also be compromised if my partner gets sick

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my partner is going to get sick, in fear that I will then not be able to secure my survival in this world as effectively as I hoped I would – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a state of fear, wherein I fear that me or my partner will become subject to any sickness, or physical weakness, in fearing that this will effect our lives negatively, and that we’ll have a difficulty in surviving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to survive, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when my partner get’s sick, to have my mind immediately go to money, and how much this sickness will affect the finances, and how much money we’re going to have till next month – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fearing not surviving, and fearing not having money are effective ways to deal with this problem, and that I will be able to get my partner to step up through being annoyed and irritated with her – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that these reactions in no way assist and support – and that they do not change or alter the situation that is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my partner when she gets sick, and to judge my partner for being physically weak, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see weaknesses as something bad, and as a personal thing, that implies that the being is a bad being – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed in this state of judgment, wherein I’m thinking to myself that this other person shouldn’t be weak, and shouldn’t be sick – because they apparently should be strong, and capable of dealing with these sorts of things, and continue to move themselves throughout their life, and not be affected by a sickness of this kind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become fearful of physical weaknesses, and believe that the moment I’m not able to perform fully in the monetary system in terms of earning money, and making a living – that this will be the end of me and my life – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and fear and any notion of a play-out that involves sickness and physical weaknesses – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to banish any and all such forms of weaknesses from my life through when they arise – become angry at them – try to ignore them – and push them away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist physical weakness, and when it emerge and come through in my world, to attempt and try to fight it off, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not work with the weakness, to not find ways and solutions that will bring the point to a conclusion that is best for all – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in irritation, and frustration towards these types of weaknesses instead of focusing on a solution, and how I’m able to assist and support in order to alleviate and construct a way out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to physically stable and healthy, and fear that I won’t be able to make a living for myself in this world, because I don’t have the physical strength to create my life and build myself – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing power, loosing control and direction of my life, and having nothing that I’m able to do about it – and that it just happens automatically and without me being able to step in and say STOP HERE – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a state of constant fear, and worry that suddenly, and without warning, I’m going to loose control and direction of my life, and then not able to push into the direction that I’ve and desired that I would

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself in life as someone that struggles and fights against the difficulties and hardships of life, and that it’s my role in this world to make sure that I survive even though my world seems to be all against me, and seems to be working towards me at all times, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, and define life as a struggle, where I must constantly fight to remain sharp, and on-top – and make sure that I am ready and able to deal with any and all problems, and fight them with teeth and nails – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that when I accept and allow this to be my starting point – then this is also the experience of myself that I am going to create in my life

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that I am reacting in irritation and frustration because someone close to me, or myself, becomes sick or physically weak, I stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this anger and irritation in-fact comes from a fear of loosing control over my financial reality – and in that my future, and my life in this world – and thus have nothing to do with the sickness in itself; and as such I commit myself to assist and support myself or the other person in my life to become physically strong – to assist and support them through caring for them, and alleviating their physical world – through taking responsibilities for chores and other points that might slow down their process of recuperation

When and as I see that I am reacting in anger towards sickness, or another type of physical weakness, as not being able to effectively handle and direct one’s world – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this way of dealing with the situation doesn’t work – that in order to find solutions I must be stable and see what is here without in anyway taking it personally or making it an emotional experience of any kind – and thus I commit myself to look at what I can do to support myself or another in transcending and moving through the physical weakness – and how I can be of a solid support for myself or another in walking through this point of being sick and getting out of it effectively and without a healthy human physical body

Day 181: From ME to WE

I’ve for quite some time been walking a point that is in relation to the fear of the future, and in particular the fear of not earning sufficient with money, not choosing the right career, and more generally not being on top things – and today I am going to open up another dimension of this point that I’ve realized, and that have helped me a lot in being able to let go of worry, fear and concern in regards to my future.

So, one aspect of this career-character that I tend to go into, is that I will look at my life, my future, and my environment, only from a ME perspective, it’s all about ME, my future, my life, my experiences, my hopes, and my expectations, and what I can do and create for myself. For example in relation to career, here I’ve been struggling with a fear that I will go into the wrong direction, that I will pick a career that is not the best for me, and that I will in that not use my time effectively, and mess up my life, and the possibility for me to “make something” out of myself in this life – and I mean – looking at the origin of this fear it’s clear that there is only one concern and care – ME.

Thus, what I could see today as I applied self-forgiveness on this point, is that there exists another starting point from which I can create my life – a starting point that will not breed fear – and that is the starting point of WE – looking at my life as a tool of life to bring forth change in this world – to leave mark behind – but not as something that I do for ME personally – but something that I do as a service to life.

I could see, that when I embraced, and stood within this starting point of looking at my life, my future, and my environment from a starting point of WE, there was no fear within me, there was not concern or worry that I would make the wrong decision, because really – that isn’t relevant – what is relevant is instead that I place, direct and move myself to have an impact that can be measured, not as something that I do for myself, but as something that I do for life – thus in that – there is no self-interest that can be lost – there is no time to be lost or opportunity to be missed out upon that would harm me personally – simply because the personal ME isn’t that which is important – what is important is instead the whole, the group, humanity – everything that is here is equally important and deserve equal consideration and care.

I realized that when I look at my life from this perspective it’s much more simplistic for me to make decisions, because it’s not anymore about what I can get out of life and the decisions I make, it’s not about what I have to loose or win – it’s instead about: What will this bring that will benefit everyone? What will this do that will serve the interest of all? In this the ME is not anymore the centerpiece of my attention – and thus – all the fears and worries connected to the survival of the ME are let go – and instead focus and attention can shift into that which is of actual importance – the WE – supporting and enhancing the WE – giving my life to the support of LIFE as everyone’s LIFE.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at my life, and the decisions in my life in regards to career and future from a ME-perspective, wherein I only look at things from what I can get out of it, instead of looking at my future and life from a WE-perspective, as in seeing what I am able to bring forth, and give in my lifetime that will be to the benefit of everyone – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to align myself within and as a self-interested way of looking at my life – and in this create the consequential outflow of fear – because in only caring about ME and MY interests – there is a fear that I will loose MY interests and the life of ME

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in relation to my career, and my future, to assess where and how I’m to place myself from a starting point of ME, from a starting point of looking at what I would be excited towards, what I would feel stimulated by, what I would feel happy doing, and in this only look at my experience, and exist in this small space between my ears, where it’s only ME that exists and there is nothing more – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not expand myself – and start looking at things from a WE perspective – start looking at things from a perspective of what I am able to give – what I am able to share – and how I am able to enhance life – the physical – this world – and leave a mark behind in this world that is not for ME – but for everyone as the WE

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the fear I experience is in-fact a cross-reference point that shows me that my living, my considerations, and my way of looking at things, is still more aligned to the ME than to the WE – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to align myself with the WE – to push myself to when I look at decisions, my future, what I am to do, or not to do, to bring in more considerations, more outflows, more details, how my actions will impact on a existential level, how my actions will impact those in my direct environment, what my actions will cause, and what the effect will be – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to live a peaceful life – I require to let go of the ME and embrace the WE – because only in doing that will I be able to lead a life without fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that where there is excitement there is self-interest, and that where there is fear, there is self-interest, and thus I see, realize and understand that I am able to use these experiences as references to see where I am still holding unto the obsession for myself – and the obsession of creating and manifesting MY life – and the ME – and making ME the centerpiece of this world – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question and ask myself why I have this tendency to glorify and go into a fog of self-obsession – wherein I am on a racetrack and I must reach the goal – not considering that there is much more going on here – and that when I am living my life only to pleasure myself – I am not a part of the solution – I am not a part of the new way of life – I am a part of the problem – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not dedicate my life to the WE – and let go of the ME – and realize that WE comes first – the group comes first and the individual comes second – that’s the only way to make sure that no abuse takes place

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that when I go into a fear for my own future, and my own survival, I completely disregarding and missing the fact that there are billions of people on this planet, billions of animals, and billions of beings, all of which I am not taking into account when I simply live to serve myself – instead of looking at how I am able to contribute with my life to a solution that will benefit everyone – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change – and re-direct my focus – from ME-survival – to WE-enhancement – and WE-consideration – wherein I instead of fearing for my own life – use that time and energy to live and create solutions for ALL

Self-commitment statements

I commit myself to direct myself to consider the WE in everything I do – and I commit myself to practice, and change how I look at my life, my future, and how I plan and make decisions, to take into account the WE – and thus realize that ME is but a part of the whole and that a effective decision must be made within and as the consideration of the WHOLE – the GROUP and everyone that are involved and affected; and thus I commit myself to let go of the obsession with the ME and start considering the WE

I commit myself to let go of the obsession with MY own life and MY pleasure and what I can get from something – and I commit myself to instead ask myself – what can I give – what can I contribute – what can I live that will assist and support life – and how am I able to use my skills and abilities to support and nourish life – and nourish the development of the WE – of the WHOLE