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Day 383: Structure – A Key to Freedom

Structure – the word I have been practicing in my life now for a while. I thought it would be a good idea to share some of my findings and insights when it comes to living structure.

Initially I related the word structure to schedules, almanacs etc., and did not view the word as particularly useful in any other context. I also felt that structure was something that limited my creative expression – and that it took away freedom. Thus I have had a bit of a conflictual relationship with the word. Similarly I have had to walk a process to be able to walk in this current money system without reacting towards it – and feeling like the stiff structure and routine of the system pulls me down into a state of too much structure.

At this stage however I feel comfortable with the word – and as I walked the process of understanding it and integrating it into my life – I have realized that structure is everywhere and that is supportive. I have seen that having a structure allows for self-directed creative freedom, while having complete creative freedom without a structure invites lack of direction, loss of overview/focus/movement; it becomes expression without a foundation – and in most cases the results are not good.

Let us take the example of cooking. If I start to cook without a structure – for example – I just haphazardly mix the ingredients and I decide to roast them all in the oven for the same duration of time – I will not be able to create an effective meal. Cooking is a perfect example of a physical expression that rests heavily on a structured foundation – the physics of taste/texture/nutrition – and yet – it is an expression that allows for a wide array of experimentation and creative freedom.

It is the same with music. If I am unfamiliar with the instrument or musical theory it is going to be very difficult for me to improvise or compose my own songs. And sure, I will have complete freedom to play the instrument in any way I desire, but what is the use of that if I am not able to create pieces of music that I enjoy? With a basic structure, knowledge of the instrument and the notes it can produce, it is going to be different. I can now create melodic music yet still be creative, explore and investigate what new sounds and expressions I am able to produce.

Thus, used rightly structure does not quell creativity – it instead supports and enhances it. However there has to be a balance. Too much structure will lead to rigidity. Structure is in its nature predefined, constant, and impermeable to whims of the moment. Though oftentimes it is those spontaneous outbursts that bring through the flavor, the individuality, the joy and pleasure. Thus structure in itself is not the aim – it is the means. It is a stable support from which I am able to move into new expressions and experiences – the ground that I am able to get back to when I have lost myself in the boundlessness of creative freedom.


Day 382: How To Be Creative In The Mundane

I have always enjoyed expanding myself. If I take on a new hobby, I want to bring it to the next level. Usually I am not satisfied with keeping my skills basic – I want to find ways to improve and move beyond what I initially foresaw.

I experience this drive to move and expand as an excitement and exhilaration. What I have found is that I oftentimes channel this expression into the mind. I will then create various plans, visions and dreams as to how I want to expand in the future. It can for example be that I want to read a book, or I want to take part of a course. Before I had children, I could sometimes realize these plans, because I had the time to do so. At the moment however, I have little time on my hands, and when these expressions come through, I seldom have the opportunity to act on them through one of my hobbies or interests. Sometimes I do not even have the time to channel the energy into my mind and make up plans about what I am going to do.

Because of this I have found and experimented with a solution for a week now. When the expression of wanting to expand comes up within me I now channel it into my daily living, into what I am doing HERE in my life currently. I have realized that there are several aspects and parts of my life where I am not as developed as I could be. For example, doing the dishes. How many of us put extra effort into learning how to wash dishes? I know that I have not. Washing dishes is something that I want be over and done with so that I can proceed to do something that interests me. I have started to question this mentality as well – why should my interest in things determine the amount of effort I put into an activity?

Back to the point. When I feel the desire to expand, I channel the desire into developing/creating an aspect of myself that I am busy living here. I have thus channeled this desire into cleaning up after I have cooked or doing the dishes, or simply walking. There are many ways that I can walk. If I walk without presence and effort I tend to slouch. If I put effort into walking, pushing myself to walk the best way I am able to, I walk with presence and direction. There is a completely different feel to myself and my human physical body. The same happens when I put effort into doing the dishes or cleaning up after myself. When I do it with attention, direction and presence, I experience myself differently, and the results are much better.

Thus, what I have realized is that the desire to expand is best put into practice into daily living. When the energy is used to build visions and dreams of the future it can easily become castles of sand – and no solid and physical expansion is ever manifested.

Hence – for all parents out there that feel they have too much creative juices and no time to channel it into their passions – this method can be useful.

Day 348: Living What Is Best, Practically

Today I looked at the following question within me: What does it mean to really CARE about life and LIVE what is best for all?

I looked at myself, my life, and my considerations in terms of future, particularly when it comes to money, and career, and I was able to see, that even though I have at times told myself that I am walking a certain direction, because I care about life and what is best for all, within me, there has always been that undercurrent of desire/greed/self-interest. And what I have realized as of late, is that this underlying positive energetic movement is fueled by negative experiences, primarily fear. Thus, this is why I have looked at the question, what would it really mean to live what is best for all?

And here I want to clarify, both for myself, and the reader, that doing what is best for all is not a selfless act – because SELF is part of ALL – and hence – BEST for ALL is also BEST for SELF – though in consideration and with regard for everyone else.

What is best for all is also and always PRACTICAL – for the simple reason that – unless something is practical – then it must be forced and when something is forced – compromise will be created in some form or another. An example would be a how it does not make sense to force a puzzle piece into place where it is not meant to be, as that might damage the piece, and the puzzle will not be at its full potential. Another important word with a similar definition is COMPATIBILITY. A solution that is best for all is always compatible – it is aligned with and designed to improve and support the participants involved.

However, only because something is practical and compatible does not mean that is best. It is surely practical to keep our lives small, repetitive, and isolated, it makes us more apt at surviving and dealing with our small lives – however – it is not optimal – it is not our full potential. Hence, another aspect of living/creating what is best, is that the decision/direction must improve, support, expand, and enhance – it must bring out the best in ourselves and those around us.

One way of taking this principle into practical application is through doing what we like to do, in a way that is best for all – as that combines the point of practicality (doing what comes easy to us) with support and expansion (doing it in a way that is best for everyone). An example would be the following. Let us say that we really enjoy making music. Then we could devote ourselves to that hobby, and at the same time integrate an aspect of sharing ourselves with others, through let’s say, giving away free lessons in learning how to play a instrument, or supporting newly formed bands to find a place to rehearse. Thus, what this shows is that Living What Is Best is not limited – it is a principle that can be brought through everywhere – and the more we utilize our creative abilities and think out of the box – the more we will be able to expand this way of living.

This also goes to show another point, that living what is best is not confined to only one part of our life, or, to only our external reality. We can apply this approach to our own minds – and ask ourselves when a thought comes up: Is this thought practical? Is this thought supportive? And if both of those questions are answered negatively – we know that the thought must be removed.

Thus to conclude – what does it mean to live what is best for all? – It means that 1) We live/decide/move according to what is practical, and 2) We make sure our decisions are supportive/enhance/expand everyone involved.

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Day 343: Fear of Loosing My Freedom?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define thinking, imagining, fantasizing, as freedom, to think that it is through using the mind that I am able to be free, and that it is through the physical that I am stuck

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming stuck, locked into, and defined by the physical, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear, giving up the mind and embracing the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up fantasies, in the fear that I will become limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up thoughts, projects, and imaginations, in fear that I will become limited without them, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to believe that I can be dis-empowered by the physical, and that the mind empowers and strengthens me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear silence, quiet, and darkness, to fear being without a constant chatter within me, where I look at things, believing that it is freedom, to constantly move around within and look at different things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is freedom, freeing, and fulfilling, to constantly be busy with things, and believe, that the busier I am, that the more fulfilling, enjoyable, and great my life is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of my mind in the belief that my mind makes me free – and that my mind makes me flexible – and that I would die, shrivel, and loose my vitality without constantly being in my mind, and using my mind to think about things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up and stopping my tendency to think about, imagine, and fantasize about the future, in fear that I will limit myself, and confine myself, and loose the experience of freedom that I feel I am having when I am participating in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being earthed is being isolated and locked down – that it means that I cannot express myself – that I cannot look at things or expand – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate expansion, looking, movement, freedom, with my mind, instead of living these words as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold myself back from living freedom

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate freedom with looking at my future in my mind – looking at what I am going to do next – looking at my opportunities – looking at what might arise and come into my life next – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath – bring myself back here – and see, realize and understand, that freedom as a real expression – does not yet exist in this world – that freedom is something to be created on a global level through changes in the world system – and that freedom does not mean being able to fantasize about things in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel secure when I am able to fantasize about what is going to happen in the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel comfortable and at ease when I imagine and fantasize about my next move in the future – and to believe that existing and expressing myself HERE is a prison – because then I am not able to visit far away places in my mind – then I am locked down and defined within my body to only be here – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, that I do have the potential of living and creating myself as the word freedom – that this is nothing I need to wait for – and that living the word freedom in the physical is a lot more powerful than only experiencing it in my mind

When and as I see myself going into future projections – and I feel comfortable/at ease/free – I take a breath – and I stop myself and bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that real freedom is freedom lived and experienced in the PHYSICAL – not an experience – not a thought – real freedom is something that cannot be imagined – and thus I commit myself to instead of thinking about freedom in my mind – practice CREATING real freedom in my life – through living FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION – which is a real and substantial freedom that I am able to grant myself

Day 285: Grounded In My Responsibilities

One thing that I am really good at is being creative, imagining things, experimenting, finding new ways, and finding solutions to problems. It is a skill that I have developed through my life and that has also been inherent since birth – I have always been this way. Now, this skill, of being flexible and fast in my thought processes also has a downside – and this is hence a weakness that I have had through most my life – the ability to remain grounded and steadfast.

An example of how this polarity plays out is the following. During my weekends I have several responsibilities to attend to. Most importantly is cleaning, and then also tending to the chickens at the farm where I live. Though, what tends to happen is that my imagination starts running, and I concoct several other things I would also like to do; projects I would like to complete, things I would like to build, stuff I would like to investigate and research, etc. I then tend to become worked up about my imaginative ideas, which seem to be so much fun, and then my attention/focus go to these. What consequently happens is that I am not sufficiently grounded/stable in my reality, and because of this I forget responsibilities, I down prioritize things that are important and that should be given priority, and I become absent-minded and forgetful.

The problem as such is that I am not enough grounded in my physical body, not sufficiently steadfast in sticking with my responsibilities, which leads to unwanted consequences. Hence, what I want to change with myself is this point of me accepting and allowing myself to become carried away in imaginations and future plans – and replace this tendency of dreaming myself into states of exhilaration with a stability and sense of being grounded in my physical body. In order to be effective in this life I require having a balance – thus it is no solution to be constantly grounded in the physical, and never accept and allow my imagination to run, to see what possibilities there are for expansion and movement, and it is no solution to be constantly imagining new things, starting new projects and not following through on them.

Imagination and inner projection can be useful when they are self-directed, and when they do not get in the way of my responsibilities here in the physical. Thus something that I can practice, is for example, to give myself a moment each day where I ask myself the question: “Okay, what can be improved, what can be expanded, what is it that I can create in my life that would be of benefit?” – and then otherwise throughout my day, as I am tending to my responsibilities, to practice remaining grounded in the physical, and present with what I am doing. That way I will be able to create a balance in my life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become overly active in my imagination, where I create these grand plans, and projects, and I feel really exhilarated, not seeing, realizing and understanding that when I compromise my already existent responsibilities, projects, and commitments when and as I accept and allow myself to exist in a state of constant projection, imagination, and forward motion towards something different than what is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practice being grounded and steadfast in my decisions, projects, plans and responsibilities, to push through the temptation of imagining other things I could be doing, or other things I could be experiencing – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the solution is for me to embrace repetition, and routine, and understand that these words are an important part of creation in this physical reality – that to build and create something – one have to walk the same or similar actions many times over until the point that one wants to create stands here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that being grounded here in the physical in itself offers opportunities of discovery, and adventure, where I can for example notice new things, or develop my skills in what I am doing in that moment, become more specific, and expand myself in someway or another, which I would not have been able to do if I instead was in my mind dreaming – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace myself as a physical being – understanding that exhilaration, adventure and excitement are words that I can live within exploring and walking this physical reality here – and that I do not need my mind to stand as and walk my life within and as these words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to dreaming and imagination, and believe that this is the only way I can experience exhilaration, and excitement – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not experiment with living excitement and exhilaration in my physical reality with my physical body – to see how it is that I can experience these words for real and not just as energy in my mind

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see myself going into imagination, projections, and a inner excitement, exaltation, because I can create things in my mind, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that when and as I accept and allow myself to venture into the realm of imagination, I forget what is here, and I do not pay sufficient, and enough attention to what I am doing here in the physical, which leads to me compromising responsibilities, and commitments – and thus I commit myself to remain grounded, physical and steadfast when I am walking through my day – to practice walking with one feet in-front of the other and being aware of every step and movement that I make

I commit myself to take time each day to sit down and look at what I can do with my life, with myself, and the resources I have at my disposal, to as such, each day push myself to expand, and see where I am able to create and expand myself and my reality – and hence I commit myself to direct this process of imagination and inner creation – and thus not accept and allow it to simply happen now and again – when I am not in control – and not specific about what I am doing in my mind

I commit myself to create a balance between imagination/projection/creating my future – and living HERE in the physical – understanding that when I accept and allow myself to venture into imagination-mode while I am doing things here in the physical, I will compromise myself and the moment that I am walking, because my focus and attention will be elsewhere – and hence I commit myself to be specific within myself when I accept and allow myself to go into ‘future-creation’ mode – to create it within myself as a decision and do this in moments when I am not compromising my relationship with this physical world

Day 187: Embracing Creativity

I will continue to hear open up the point of fear towards the future that I’ve worked in recent blogs – and this time I am going to look at the character that I’ve noticed myself go into in regards to the future – the “I-am-not-going-to-make-it”-character.

Now, this character is signified by a cynical and fearful way of looking at the future – challenges, difficulties, problems, and issues will be perceived in a negative sense – and what will play out within me is images and backchat where I walk through the worst case scenario and find myself standing without any direction or solution.

What I thus see is a solution ­– is to redefine challenges, difficulties, problems and issues – and see that they are not something to be feared or avoided – but that they represent opportunities for me to be creative – inventive – and where I can use my artistic, musical and expressive side to move through these difficulties and find a solution. Because for example when I make music – and I run into a artistic conundrum – I never hesitate, give up, or give in – I always push through – find a way – and look for the best possible solution to the problem – and I remain with it until I got it – and this side of myself is something that I see I am able to apply in other areas of my life as well – where I’ve not yet applied the creative force that I possess and which I am actually really good at bringing through and using to take the potentials that I see into physical creation and manifestation.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not utilize and bring forth my expression of being creative, problem-solving, and focused on finding solutions into all aspects and areas of my life – and see, realize and understand that I am in-fact good at finding ways to work with points – and to bring points to fruition – and to walk through challenges and difficulties – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must accept and allow myself to embrace this skill that I have and make use of it in all areas of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my artistic, creative, and inventive expression to only be in relation to music, writing, singing, and other artistic endeavors – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I am able to utilize and bring forth this expression and momentum in all areas of my life – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not when I face issues, difficulties, and points that I initially do not know how to direct – to immediately go into looking for solutions – looking at potentials – looking at what I am able to utilize and bring forth in order to get through the conundrum that I am facing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I face difficulties in my life in relation to career, studies, and money – to immediately give in and give up upon myself – and think that there is no way I am able handle – walk through and direct the situation that I find myself within – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this is not in-fact true – it’s just that I’ve never applied that skill I have to find solutions – to be inventive – to be creative – in those areas of my life – and thus I commit myself to bring that artistic side of myself into use in all areas of my life – and primarily begin practicing with the areas of money, career and education – and thus push myself to look for solutions – to find ways – to not give in but to work and push until I’ve found a way through

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that life is not very unlike music and artistic expression – that just as in music – life is a flow of events – as music is a flow of tones – and successful improvisation in music is to keenly listen at the tones and then accept and allow myself to submerge myself in the music – and live – be creative and trust myself that I will find the tone – the melody – that way that works and that is aligned with the music – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply this realization in all of my life – and in particular in the parts of my life that concern career, money and education – and understand that in applying this skill and ability I will be able to get through any obstacle – because I won’t give up – and I will push until I’ve found a way through

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that I am facing challenges, and difficulties in my life – in particular in relation to money, career and education – and I go into fear and giving up – I stop – I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I commit myself to then bring myself into that state of creativity and finding solutions – and thus investigate – make the research – and align myself within this point of self-trust – that I trust myself that I will walk through and find a way out – and not give in or give up until it’s done and I’ve directed the situation – and I am stable

I commit myself to not give up or give in to fear when I face challenges or difficulties – but instead push myself to trust myself and face the challenge head-on – and move myself until I got it – until I am stable and my direction ahead is clear – and I’ve found a solution to the point

Giving Up Your Passion For Money

There are many of us in this world that find ourselves to have a passion for something – a deep liking and fascination – it could be a action, or hobby that we enjoy immensely and for me I’ve found such a passion towards music – towards singing and playing guitar. For me this passion opened up as I first discovered blues and improvisational music – and as I let myself explore the guitar by myself – read books about various techniques and listen to music done by various fascinating artists – such as Jimi Hendrix, Stevie Ray Vaughn, John Lee Hooker etc. – and the more I immersed myself into this world of music the more passionate I became, the more I enjoyed it.

Though – music hasn’t been my only passion in life – I’ve found myself enjoying myself within making films, theater, and acting – as well as writing, painting, building, and so on – I’ve found most types of creative expression to be fulfilling and fun – yet when the time came for me to pick a college orientation I didn’t pick a orientation that had anything to do with creativity or art – I picked a orientation that was directed towards getting to know the functions of society – wherein the primary subjects was history, language, and societal knowledge – nothing of which I was passionate towards at all – the question that begs to be answers is why I made such a choice; the reason is simple – I picked the orientation because I knew it would send me in a direction in society of being able to at a later stage claim a higher education – which would then in turn enable me to generate money – the decision I made was made from a starting point of securing an income for myself.

And so – I compromised my dreams for money – and this point opened up to me as I listened to a Life Review of someone that also compromised his dreams for money; he was born in a elitist family, and brought up and schooled from a young age to take over his families business – while his real interest and passion was art. He grew up fascinated with the great masters of the paintbrush, and he was discovering new techniques, investigating and learning more about the craft – until one day when he was 14 years old – this day his mother and father came into his room and told him that – that was it – from now on he’s to learn how to become a successful business owner and stop his obsession with painting; and they took away all of his art, paintbrushes, frames, art books etc. There was no fighting, he simply gave into the wishes of his parents – as he realized that if he fought he’d probably be disowned and live a life of insecurity wherein he wouldn’t have access to any money, and the surety of being wealthy – and so he compromised his dreams for money.

What I realized as I listened to this review was that we can’t in-fact live our dreams in this system as it currently exist – thus I saw that the solution for me to be able to live out my dreams and passion was not to give up upon my current education – or stand within the system and go and live out my desire to become a musician in the system – no because I saw and realized that the problem wasn’t that I didn’t live out my dreams but the problem was that in this current money system – dreams can’t be lived out at all – in anyway what-so-ever. Even if I’d chosen to walk the path of a musician, I would’ve still been forced to compromise myself and my artistic expression in order to gain sufficient with attention from others in order to make money – and then I still wouldn’t have been able to live out my passion fully.

So, I don’t regret myself for compromising my dreams for money – because money is in-fact essential in this current system, and without it we’re fucked – and because of that everyone’s dreams are compromised, as we’re all in a constant hunt and competition in order to gain sufficient with money to survive. Thus – that I compromised my dreams for money was a common sense decision, wherein I saw that the path of music was financially uncertain, while the path of walking a higher education wasn’t – which is a truth that can’t be denied – yet let’s not forget that this truth is completely fucked up and obviously no one should ever have to compromise their dreams for money – no one.

But in our current system no one can live out their dreams, no one can live their passion – as we’re all slaves to money – we’re all dependent upon money – we’re all caught in the game of money and if we don’t play along we won’t survive this world – as such a new economic system must be established for us to be able to live out what it is that we really find stimulating, interesting, fascinating and enjoyable – a system within which we don’t require to compromise ourselves for money in order to survive, but wherein we’re instead supported to pursue our desires to express ourselves in certain ways, develop our talents and passions, and truly live.

Thus if you recognize yourself in this, as you also saw within yourself as you got to know yourself in this world – that there were certain things you really loved to do – found utterly fascinating and enjoyable – but that you couldn’t pursue due to money – or rather the constant lack of money – then I really recommend that you watch this video – this Life Review – and realize that as long as we’re in a system that doesn’t support us to enjoy ourselves and follow what we’re passionate about – we won’t ever be able to truly experience and give ourselves to that which we love. We need a new system – a Equal Money System – were we’re all equal since birth – no one born in debt – no one born in wealth – but all equal – and where work is done for the pleasure of it and not because of survival – such a world is possible yet we have to create it – don’t wait for it to come, let’s bring it here!