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2012 Greece is the Proof that a Debt is a Fuck-Up

About two years ago the European union and IMF gave Greece a 45 € billion bailout loan, and some 110 € billion followed shortly after. After this a series of other attempts, such as writing of debt, and further bailouts have followed – not just in Greece but in other euro zone countries as well – in order to stall the country’s national debt; and obviously these loans have not been given freely. Greece has been forced to accept harsh austerity measures in order to receive financial support.

Looking at these numbers and abstract financial terms, it’s difficult to see how it influence the actuality of the daily practical living for an average Greece citizen – yet it’s within looking past the numbers, and instead at the reality of things, that one truly come to grips with the stupidity, and ruthlessness of a debt-based money system; a system which is the very reason as to the bailouts, and austerity measures to begin with.

As an example, many Greece mothers that have been shut out from the public health system, due to unemployment, are now unable to give birth at public hospitals, because of the required fee, which is 900 €. That amount of money constitutes about three month’s rent for a normal, average Greece citizen – money that most do not have

As for pensioners – this is quoted by Nikita Kanakis, president of the NGO Doctors of the World: “Lots more people are being shut out of the national health system because they are unemployed and uninsured and they can’t pay, or because their income has been slashed—as in the case of pensioners—and they don’t have enough money for medication,”

Further – there is a rise of children, born in such conditions that their family can’t even afford to give them the most basic medical needs at the beginning of their life, which includes vaccines. A soon to become mother said the following as to the developments in her country: “I now realize that finding the money to cover the cost of giving birth was the easy part. The question is how are we going to survive after that? I wonder what kind of protection my child will have after it’s born.”

What can also be seen is a rise of children being left by their parents due to poverty. Before the austerity cuts and the recession, the main cause for children being separated from their parents was drug and alcohol related addiction. A priest that works at a support centre for poor people in Athens shares that “requests of this kind were not unknown before the crisis – but that he’s never until now come across children being simply abandoned”.

Parents have no choice but to leave their children, as there is simply not enough food (or is there only a lack of money?) – a woman, Maria, that has given her child away shares the following:  “Every night I cry alone at home, but what can I do? It hurt my heart, but I didn’t have a choice,”

She spent her days looking for work, sometimes well into the evening and that often meant leaving her eight-year-old child alone for hours at a time. The two of them lived on food handouts from the church. Maria lost 25kg.

In the end she decided to put her child into foster care with a charity called SOS Children’s Villages.

What I’ve shared above are real situations, with real people, that experience real suffering – due to a fake, imaginary, and made up money system – with the fictional idea of debt as it’s directive principle – debt is not real – starvation is real – children being left by their parents is real – a child without it’s most basic medical needs attended to is real – but debt is made up.

Debt exist in the mind’s of men and women, it exists as a memory and a promise to pay, it exists as a fear that without being able to control the actions of another through indebting them – one will not be able to survive – debt exists as greed, and desire to have power, to feel superior, to have slaves, and to be more than another – it’s not a actual and real practical object that can be touched – experienced – and seen by all – it’s fake!

The situation that has developed in Greece exposes the ruthless nature of a debt-based money system – there is no humanity – there is no compassion – there is but debt that must be repaid – believing that the only way to structure a effective community is through debt, slavery, fear, control and threats; while there obviously are other ways!

The situation that has developed in Greece also exposes the uselessness of economists, politicians, and the over-all administrative establishment of our current system – they are all completely brainwashed, and subdued into looking at numbers, looking at rules, looking at what is wrong, and what is right – instead of doing what must be done, which is to end this debt-based money system once and for all!

For to long this madness has been allowed to go on – debt has been accepted and allowed as the very basis of interaction between human beings – without considering that a debt-based system always entails a winner and a looser – a master and a slave – a fulfilled and a starving – these conditions and consequences are implied within the very nature of a debt-based system – through demanding interest on loans, constantly creating a under-supply of real substantial money – all money is in-fact debt – raising those in control of the money supply to the skies, while the rest become food for the maggots.

Thus – what we see developing today in Greece is only the beginning – humanity has indebted itself to such an extent that today – only a very few people in-fact are free from debt – the rest are slaves, forced to work, forced to produce, forced create – even though the creations that spring from this enforcement, as fear of survival, are as useless as the debt-system itself; who needs more clothes, who needs a Ipad 3, who needs the latest hair-style? This is all just useless shit, which one desire to buy only due to the extensive brainwashing in the form of commercials that is lurking in each corner of the world!

Consumerism has failed – capitalism has failed – debt has failed – private banking has failed – economy as we know has failed and the proof is everywhere, and Greece is but one tiny example of the suffering that has been born from this debt-based money system – I haven’t even mentioned the animals – the third world countries – the plants – the oceans – fuck! This world is entirely fucked; due to this debt-based money system and its time that we wake up and see this, before it’s too late!

What is happening now in Greece bear similar signs as what happened in Germany during 1933, as the beginning of what was to the become the second world war, as the rise of Nazism; that was caused by the severe austerity measures imposed upon Germany, by the winning parties of world war one, which in turn made the people angry and open for anything – even if this would mean war!

Thus – when people become desperate, and their very survival is threatened, violence and war is never far away – as is proved by the riots in Greece – and is this the world we want to create? Is this the world we want to give to our children? I say – no! Its absolutely not – and as such I refuse to accept and allow our current money system as it exists today, I will not stand idly by and but watch this unnecessary abuse of life, yet I will neither take to violence and revolution – I together with the Desteni group propose a new money system – a system wherein everything is given to everyone, so that all needs are met – a system wherein children can grow up with their families, and the fear of survival become a thing of the past – I suggest that we create an Equal Money System.

And this system must be created through lawful means – democratically as one man one vote – we must in-fact agree with each-other, and educate each-other to understand how and why we must change our current debt-system – and implement a new system that is for the benefit of everyone – and not just a few.

Thus – let the re-education begin – and it always starts with self; a new world begins with self-change, and not through blame – let’s live by example and not by wanting others to change before we do; and as such we move until this is done – and survival, debt, fear and fake economics have become a thing of the past.

Sources:

http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2011/12/21/greek-hospitals-have-turned-away-expectant-mothers-who-can-t-pay.html

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-16472310

 

De-constructing my Money-Construct Part: 3

During one point in my life I decided I was going to make money. At that time I had gotten home from Thailand and I didn’t have anything in particular to do – thus I decided I was going to travel to Norway in order to make myself money.

Thus – I placed myself on a bus heading to Norway. I got of and I ventured to my hostel and I placed all of my baggage on my bed. During the following two weeks I would experience the most intense anxiety and fear that I’ve ever felt in relation to money; to the extent that I couldn’t sleep at night, simply because, I had no place where I could live and I had no job to get a steady flow of money coming in.

The moment I came to Norway, more specifically in the town of governance called Oslo, I started to look for jobs and apartment. Before I had arrived I had prepared myself through calling people in relation to getting myself an apartment and a job. Thus – I started to visit all the places and people that I beforehand had made contact with in order to make my time of living on hostels shorter.

I felt very uncomfortable to live in a hostel and at the same time have no job. Because the hostels where expensive to live in and as I had no job, everyday the money I had with me got less and less. The fascinating thing is that, at this time my savings was quite substantial and I had a family with substantial economic “power”, thus there was no actual danger in relation to my life. The danger was to loose my money, which was only that, to loose my money and not be able to anymore sustain myself in the city of Oslo – even though there was lot’s of possibilities for me if things would have fucked up completely.

During two weeks I walked around in Oslo to go to job interviews and to get myself an apartment. Yes, you heard right – I walked! The reason as to why I walked was to save money and it’s totally ludicrous because as I said, I had my savings and I would theoretically have been able to live in Oslo with the money I brought for several months. Though, I completely failed to see the mathematics behind money and only acted in regard of my emotional experience of anxiety and fear in relation to loosing my money.

Thus – I walked around for about two weeks in order to get myself a job and apartment. To get a apartment went faster than to get a job.

After the second day I got in contact with someone that supplied small rooms, it was perfect and precisely what I needed in order to settle myself into the new country. Though, the price! The price was to high I thought and in my mind I started to run rampant as to how much money this would cost me. What would be my expenses How much savings would I have left?! To add here is that, at the moment it was quite difficult to get an apartment in Oslo – thus when this opportunity opened up I was very content as I realized that I could finally get a place of my own instead of having to live in a hostel, in the same room as many others. But, I said no – the price was to high! I must be able to get something better I told myself.

And actually, one of the reasons as to why I said no was that I had another apartment with a cheaper monthly rent “on the hook” so to speak. Thus – I said no to settling myself in a comfortable room and instead continued to live in a hostel, which isn’t very comfortable at all.

The next day I got to hear that the apartments I thought was “on the hook” was not going to me. I was without a home! Anxiety, anxiety, anxiety – why didn’t I take that other room? Those where the thoughts/experience within me as I realized that I had now given away a perfectly fine opportunity to get myself a comfortable place to live in, that was cheaper than a hostel, in order to save money – which anyway, didn’t happen!

Thus – I experienced lots of anxiety at this moment as I realized that I would have to stay at the hostel even longer, the hostel being almost as a hotel and thus having quite a high rent. That night I slept hardly nothing, I don’t think I slept very much any of those nights which I spent in the hostel – in expectation and doubt as to whether I would be able to settle myself through getting a job and a apartment or not. Would I be able to settle myself in the time frame that I had? Which was the savings I had brought with me.

Fortunately I was able to get a room some day’s later. Within this I experienced a sense of ease and stability as I had finally managed to get a stable point into my life. The stable point being a small room in which I could place all my belongings and now that they would be there as I came back and I also had a bad and my computer there. Everything to make it comfortable and relaxed for me, which I didn’t at all experience in the hostel. Where my stay felt very unstable, as if I at any day could loose my bed at the hostel and if I placed my belongings on my bed others that lived in the same room would easily be able to steal from me whatever they wanted. To get an apartment was very nice and I could finally let go some of my anxiety. But now came the second task – getting myself a job!

To get myself a job took almost two weeks. In which I each and everyday worried that I wouldn’t be able to get a job and that I because of this would loose my newly gained apartment.

During this time I walked everywhere in order to save money for busses. And fuck! I walked miles and miles and miles! All within the experience of satisfaction within the realization and knowing that I was saving money.

I remember that I in the beginning found a job as a day-care teacher. It was a job with fucked up conditions, but I took it anyway. I wasn’t a very good day-care teacher and so I got fired after 2 day’s – LOL! That brought up ton’s of anxiety within me and I pleaded to the manager to take me back. LOL! Nope your gone son! Nobody wants to have you back here.

At one point I found two jobs at one time – in which I experienced tons of anxiety. The reason being that I got one job with a lower pay confirmed, this job was mine, at the same time I awaited response from another employee in relation to a job with a higher pay than the first job. Thus the anxiety! Should I say yes to the first job and at least secure myself a small income? Should I wait for the other employee to call me and hope that he will give me the job? What am I going to do?

Eventually after lots of bullshit I got a job I felt saved – I felt like a big stone had been let of my chest. Now only came the worry to keep my job! But at least I had a job, a steady income and a small room. I could survive! And my savings was still with me! I still had my money.

This entire process took about two weeks I think – in which I basically was in total anxiety the entire time and I asked others if they experienced what I experienced. They said yes, they where also in complete anxiety. I could see it as I was walking around and interacting with people that shared the same house as me, in the house in which I had my little room. We where all completely possessed with fear and worry and it’s a fear and worry that never ends, if you don’t stop yourself that is, because each month you are always dependent upon being accepted by the system to make your ends meet. And if your ends don’t meet you will be in great trouble and end up in a position in which you will have an even tougher time to “get yourself back”.

It’s really fucked up – that all the time there is this uncertainty in relation to money and if you are going to get it or not. There is never certainty in relation to money, no matter how financially stable you get – there is always the possibility that you are going to loose it all.

1.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my savings are going to run out – to fear taking the bus – to fear taking upon myself more expenses than incomes in fear that I am going to loose my money

2.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety and fear when I don’t have a place to stay, as a apartment

3.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety and fear when I realize that I am wasting more money than what I am bringing in – and that if I don’t manage to turn this around, eventually I will be broke

4.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t get a job, that I won’t get stable income, in fear that my money is going to run out and that I am not going to be able to sustain myself

5.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a place in which I can protect my belongings, in fear of loosing my belongings

6.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having a stable point in my reality, as a apartment, as a place which I know I will be able to go to if I get cold, or experience myself physically discomfort able

7.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone in a big town without having any money

8.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the uncertainty that exists in relation to money, the fear that I won’t have enough money at the end of the month to make ends meet

9.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my relaxation and ease within the dependency of having money and having a stable place to stay in as an apartment and having a stable income as a job

10. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a state of constant anxiety and fear when I don’t have the ability to generate a sufficient income for me to be able to sustain myself

11. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will loose my job and that I will become evicted from my apartment and that I thus will find myself to be at the lower end of society

12. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having any savings – in fear that I am going to spend more money than what I’ve been able to generate, in fear that I won’t be able to sustain my current way of living as having a comfortable apartment and food to eat

13. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a constant state of anxiety and fear when I don’t have enough money to sustain my current way of living

14. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a constant state of fear and anxiety and not be able to sleep – when I see that I have more expenses than what I have incomes

15. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a constant state of worry and anxiety that I won’t have enough money to sustain myself with food, with clothes, and that I will loose my current protection in society in the form of a apartment and a job

16. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t be able to have money to protect myself with against society and against a life of being a outcast

17. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to do anything and everything in order to save as much money as possible in order to prevent me from facing my fear of becoming a outcast and a faceless person in the system

18. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t be able to protect myself from the brutality and harshness of this world – as the disregard that exists for people that has no money

19. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will loose and not be able to win, and get the money I need in order to sustain my life and protect myself from this world

20. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in constant anxiety and fear that the world is going to harm me, abuse me and place me in a position of physical hardship

I am here.

I live here, I allow myself to stand with no fear and no anxiety whether I have money or whether I don’t have money. I don’t allow myself to become influenced and controlled by having money or not having money. When I see that I go into fears and anxieties and start to take decisions based upon my fears of not having money – I breath, I let go, I apply self-forgiveness if necessary, I let go of my anxieties.

De-constructing my Money-Construct Part: 2

So – taking a part more of my life in relation to money. How I decided to live and apply myself because of money.

After I was done with my high school I decided that I absolutely didn’t want to have any part in our current society. I didn’t want to have a normal 9-5 job; I didn’t want to become the John Doe slaving in the system for the rest of his life. Thus, I decided to get myself an interesting job – a fun job. I decided I was going to escape from the money system.

What I did was that I took courses in diving with the purpose of becoming a dive-master. I did this through believing that if I was able to get away from Sweden, to a hot tropical country – I would end up in some rural location where there was no money; where I would be able to live my life only diving casually and having fun. I dreamt that this place I would be able to locate myself at as a dive-instructor would be free from the capitalism that I saw in my own country, as I had at that time realized how absolutely meaningless and pointless life had become in relation to living in the matrix. All and everything in the matrix I realized was a prison built up around money and so I attempted my escape.

During this time I was planning my escape as I was learning to become a dive-instructor to reach a life of self-independence from the money system. A point of independence from survival, where I would be able to let go of my fears and anxieties in relation to survival and only enjoy me. During this time I held extreme amounts of fear within me in relation to money – even though I had quite big amount of savings.

It was these savings that my parents gave me which I used to embark upon me quest for independence, I didn’t at that time see how I was through embarking upon this quest of becoming a dive-instructor actually placing myself in a position of even more dependence to my parents in relation to money. I didn’t see and realize that me becoming a dive-instructor would mean that I placed myself in a position of hardship and slavery, as that is the reality of those that are paid a low-wage. In which category the dive-instructors happen to be in. Thus, at this moment in time I was still very naïve as to my relation to the money system, I actually believed that I could escape that harsh and brutal reality of the money system, that I could escape my future of slaving for money, through getting a “fun, creative, adventurous” job. Man, I came to see that I was very, very wrong.

It’s fascinating; I arrived in Thailand by myself in order to take up the quest of unleashing myself from the shackles of the money system. Though, I was actually carrying the very money system with me, inside me, as I existed within anxiety that I was going to loose any of the money that I had brought with myself to Thailand. I was very afraid that I would waste my savings and I remember that during my trip in Thailand I during some moments experienced heavy anxiety, to the point where I brought up my notebook and started to sketch down numbers, which was my money. I sketched it all down until I got ease myself within the realization that; I had enough money to survive this day!

Anyway, I lost about ¼ of my traveling money during the first days of my adventure. I got ripped of and I got robbed. LOL – it’s fascinating how this possessed me to the extreme. As I lost the money which I had planned would sustain me for at least 2 months I went into a complete mental breakdown. I searched for some support and help as I was sitting and attempting to “make myself friends” with some total strangers, LOL, I just wanted someone that could protect me from this harsh and brutal reality, because I knew – if I don’t have money I am fucked.

Unfortunately, no one cared about me. LOL – Obviously, everyone only cares about themselves and their money, as I only cared about my money and myself.

After some struggles in my trip in relation to my money I finally reached my destination as the place in which I was going to complete my education to become a dive-instructor. What I saw as I came to this location was that – fuck! This is the same shit as I left back home. Everything here is built up around money; all this fucking diving is only an excuse to get more money. I saw the poverty that was everywhere around me in Thailand and I saw the ignorance, the blatant disregard of myself and the other tourists that came with money to have their dreams of freedom be fulfilled.

It’s really fucked up and still within this experience my highest concern was my own money. I changed hotels one time because I thought that the pricing was to high. Within this I went into anxiety and I yet again started calculating my money as I now had wasted money on two hotels during one day.

I spent one day at this diving resort, then I changed my mind and I left. Or it might have been two day’s. What was I looking for? I was looking for adventure, rural culture where nothing was tainted with money, where there was actual intimacy and enjoyment within the people and where there was no “masks” no deceptive behavior in relation to money. That was what I saw everywhere, these high-pitched tonalities and pleasing behaviors, everything to get money and I didn’t want to be a part of it.

I left to work as a volunteer in a school in which I was teaching English. This was where I found Desteni and looking at it makes sense that I found Desteni at this time. Anyway.

I stayed in Thailand for about 4 months, traveling around experiencing apparent adventure and freedom but I wasn’t free and there was no adventure. I could see everywhere around me how I was the elite and the abuser of this world, because I had more money than everyone else. I could go to a foreign country and live out my dreams, become a English teacher, buy myself new clothes, rent a scooter.

One of the reasons as to why I choose to travel to Thailand in order to escape the boredom and imprisonment of the money system was because everything was cheap there. I wanted to save as much money as I could save in order to keep the little apparent freedom I had, the little apparent safety I had, the little apparent stability I had. I chose to travel to Thailand due to money.

I chose to volunteer partly because of money, as I realized that if I was volunteering I wouldn’t waste any money!

I also remember that I was looking to get myself an education in Thailand so that I would be able to become a English teacher. I didn’t do that because of money, because my parents told me to not waste my savings and by god! I absolutely didn’t want to waste my savings. I was terrified to waste my savings. So I choose to go with the alternative that presented itself as a lesser risk in relation to loosing money.

I remember feeling more secure when I was doing volunteer work, as I at that time had access to a house in which I didn’t need to pay rent. This made me feel better, a lot better, as I then wouldn’t waste money!

It’s strange what extreme influence money has upon me, whether I am spending money, gaining money, loosing money. To loose money and be in a position where I loose more money than what I get, makes me uncomfortable. To be in a position in which I get more money than what I loose, makes me comfortable.

I’ve taken decisions because of this, where I will strive to take the less risky route in terms of loosing money. I will always make sure, no matter what I do, that there is a possibility for me to re-gain what I’ve spent. That I will not spend money so-called, unnecessarily, in which case I don’t get the money back.

Another fascinating thing is that, through me not wanting to get “caught” in this system, I’ve searched for alternate routes. Through going with these alternate routes I’ve actually set myself up to get “caught” in the system, through becoming one of those with no faces, through me not having an education and a stable income. I’ve corrected and realized the point and I’ve realized the importance of making myself a face in the system, through education and a stable income. I’ve also realized that I can’t stop at this – I must use my face given to me through the money system in order to stand up and be seen and heard, to change this system once and for all.

I can’t escape this current money system, it’s everywhere. I can let go of my fear, my anxiety and stand up to make a difference.

1.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into total fear and anxiety when I don’t have access to money

2.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable when I am loosing more money than what I am gaining

3.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted towards saving money, in fear of ever being without money

4.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted towards having big savings, in fear that I am going to loose control over my money

5.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking decisions in which I am not absolutely sure that I will be able to have a steady income

6.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone with no money, and feel afraid and uncomfortable towards being alone having no money

7.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will become stuck in the money system and experience myself at a 9-5 job

8.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and feel uncomfortable towards people that deceive and place masks in front of their faces in order to get money

9.     I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to run away from the money system, to attempt to run away from slavery and what I’ve allowed myself to become as this world and as this current system

10. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety and fear when I stand the risk of loosing money

11. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety and fear when I notice that my decisions will make it so that my supply of money will decrease

12. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making decisions that will decrease the amount of money that I have – in fear that I am not going to be able to get as much money back

13. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear spending money in fear that I won’t get as much money back

14. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel more stable, more secure, more safe when I have a job and when I am able to get more money in than what goes out

15. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to have that which is the cheapest and less expensive in fear of loosing money, in fear of becoming a slave and a faceless being in this society

16. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ending up as faceless, as lost, as someone that has no money and thus receives no support and no assistance

17. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be resist and separate myself from the current capitalistic system

18. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike being in the current capitalistic system, because everywhere I turn people want to take my money, and I desire to keep my money

19. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to come to a place where I am able to receive more money than what I do currently, within the belief that this will make me feel safer and more secure within my application of myself

20. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and anxiety when I am not at home with my parents and suddenly I loose control over my money, in fear that I won’t be able to sustain myself and live as I planned that I would live

21. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold myself back from buying things that I see will assist and support within my expression, in fear that I won’t be able to get the money back

22. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed with saving money and with always making sure that I have enough money to make it to the next month

23. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear buying things, in fear that this is going to decrease the money that I currently own, in fear that I won’t be able to get a job, or find a way to earn myself more money

24. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t be able to find a way to have a creative, happy, and enjoyable life in this current money system

25. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making “big purchases” in fear of doing a purchase which I will not be able to get back in money

26. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into anxiety and fear when I am faced with the situation of not having any money and any friends from which I can get support in order to get money

27. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone in this ruthless and brutal world with no money

28. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend my life in order to attempt to protect myself from this world with money

29. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ever loosing my money, in fear that I won’t be able to protect myself from this world

30. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t have control over my money, that I won’t have sufficient with money to make it to the next month, in fear that I won’t be able to protect myself and seclude myself from this world

31. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing my money, in fear that I will end up in a position of having to live from month to month in uncertainty if I am going to survive

32. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won’t be able to live a life in which I can be creative, expressive, explorative, spontaneous, because I have to work all the time

33. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming lost in this world and not anymore being able to rely upon my parents supporting me with money, because I am lost and a nobody in this enormous system, left to my own devices

34. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being left to my own device in this system without being able to rely upon my parents, upon friends, upon desteni, upon anything separate from me

35. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel threatened and unsafe being alone in this world, knowing that my survival is solely dependent upon my self-movement

36. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always seek for the most cheap, the less expensive way, in fear that I will loose my money

37. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to do bargains, to seek to enlarge the money I already have with the purchases I make

38. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be able to make lot’s of money with the purchases I do, in the desire that I will be able to make my money more

39. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be able to expand my portfolio of money, in the desire to survive and be protected from this world

40. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire to make more money than what I spend, to desire that it will be certain that I make lot’s of money before I invest my money

41. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving, in fear that I won’t receive back

42. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear investing and fear moving myself with my money, in fear that I won’t receive any money back

I am here.

I allow myself to stand one and equal with my money in relation to practical reality. Thus I spend and I use money in relation to practically supporting myself as my human physical body and as the my responsibilities in my world.

I will myself to let go of any mind-delusions such as fears in relation to money, to make money only a point of practicality in my world and nothing more.

I am here