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Day 416: The Concrete Floor

Because I still have my holidays I have had time to commit to a couple of carpentry projects on the farm where I live. Some of them, I am really satisfied with, others, I am not. A few days ago I completed one of those projects which I am not satisfied with, at all.

The project was about casting a new concrete floor in the carpentry cabin on the farm. The floor was definitely in need of a remake, because it had a big hole in one section, a oil spill in another, and looked generally, quite rough. On my mothers initiative, it was thus decided to recast the floor. And I was on board and excited about the project, because I have never worked with concrete on my own before.

However, this excitement, and throwing myself into the project, was also, partly what caused me to in the end, be dissatisfied with the results. Because, without doing much research, my mother and I bought some bags of concrete, and without doing much research – except for making a few calls to check in with a couple of retailers – then I threw myself into blending, meshing and throwing the concrete.

The first thing that happened, was that we had not bought enough concrete. Hence, we were only able to cast roughly one fifth of the surface, and then we had to wait for a couple of days, until we were able to buy more concrete. Because of this a part of the new floor got a different color compared to the rest, and a slightly different height. Obviously, I was not very satisfied with that.

Then, the rest of the floor, because I had not done my research, it got a rough surface, not the floor-like, normal surface that I am used to. Further, the floor height was raised about 25-30 mm which made the height of the ceiling, in some areas, too low. All this because, I did not consider, reflect and look on the point beforehand. It was done impulsively, on a whim, and the results were equal and one to that.

When I looked how this happened, how I got carried away, I see that it has to do with the excitement I was experiencing in relation to the project, and also, a form of anxiety/fear of not being productive. The excitement point, well that is easy to understand, I was excited to get started and begin working. The anxiety/fear of not being productive, has to do with the belief/idea, that what counts is the finished product – and the physical labor that is put into creating that physical product. I have seen that my mother has the same belief. And the consequence of following/living according to this belief, is that the process of consideration/looking/preparation/planning will take a backseat – and the ‘doing’ will be placed in the forefront – causing unnecessary consequences – such as in this case. Because if I would have slowed down, and meticulously planned the point, undoubtedly the results would have been a lot better.

That is the lesson to be learned. However, instead of simply learning, and moving on, I got stuck in a loop of judging myself, where I thought that I could have known, that I should have slowed myself down, that I should have pushed myself to do the necessary planning. It was a form of torment within myself. When I looked at the point I realized that the origin point of this judgment was actually not that I was dissatisfied with the result – but that I had caused a ‘loss of money’ and time. According to the capitalistic mind-set, this project and the execution of it could be defined as a waste – however – for me it was not – because the process of walking the point – what I learned from it all – WHO I WAS within the execution – all of that is still with me – and that is not something that can be defined utilizing money or used time as a marker.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself, and to feel bad, and become obsessed within myself of thinking that I should have, and could have created a better result, if I would have prepared myself more and done things differently, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself this character, thinking that it was a great loss, because I lost money, and I lost time, and apparently, I need to utilize these two resources to produce and manufacture, and create monetary value, so that I am able to survive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use money and time, and see money and time, as things that I have to be careful with, because I might waste them, and think that what must be done with this resources are to generate more monetary value into my world – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become fearful, anxious, and judgmental, when I perceive that I have used these resources to something ‘unnecessary’ and something that did not produce the necessary ‘monetary value’ that I believe is important

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not learn from my mistakes, and then empower myself through this learning, and do that without judging myself, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I learn better, that I learn more, that I learn faster, when and as I am judging myself – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, that no, I do not learn more only because i judge myself, this is an idea that I have created, and in-fact – I do not need any emotional experience within myself to SEE, UNDERSTAND and move on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become carried away by a rush of wanting and desiring to complete and produce and see the final results – instead of pushing myself to remain methodical, structured and calm – to slow down – and to allow each point in the process to take its time – to see, realize and understand that the value of life/living/expression is not in the finished product but in the process of movement/application/walking – and within and as WHO I AM in the moments of life/living/expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that from my mistakes, I can learn a lot, and I can do that without judgment, simply by seeing and recognizing what I am dissatisfied with, and then taking that with me, and changing myself – hence – it does not have to be – in anyway a emotional or reactive point – it can simply be me learning and then moving forward to apply what I have learned

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see myself becoming carried away, excited, and wanting to move ahead to the execution phase in a project, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that a project is not only about the execution, that I have to see the entirety of the point, slow down, look at it, consider, prepare, and plan – that in physical reality, when doing things that I have not done before – things will move a lot smoother, and without as many problems and issues, if I give myself time to consider and look at it – and thus I see, realize and understand that each point has its time to be created – and that there is no meaning or point in trying to stress and force a project to move forward – thus I commit myself to take the time required and needed for me to walk a point of creation with the necessary attention to detail and preparation that is required for me to be able to walk the point effectively and manifest my vision into creation – there is nothing wrong about something taking a lot of time to create – in-fact all things of value and substance do take time to put into creation

When and as I see myself judging myself for having made mistakes, for having moved to fast, without consideration, I take a breath, I stop myself, and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand, that I can learn from my mistakes without judging myself, and that it is not ‘the whole world’ that I loose money and time because of mistakes and things that could have been avoided, its simply a consequence, and I can learn from it – and hence the time has not been wasted, the money is not wasted – because it is all about WHO I AM within and as the project/expression and what I take with myself


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Day 301: Making Decisions In A Rush

Lately, a couple of events have played out in my life of a similar theme. This theme is making decisions in a rushed state, which leads to consequences. Let me begin with an example from my life. At the moment I am in the process of building a house, and as such, this requires many decisions to be made. One of these decisions have involved whether or whether not an old staircase should be removed. Initially, I decided that it was to be removed. But some days ago, I started to think differently. And this is where it started to get interesting.

During the course of a morning I changed my mind, I now wanted to keep the staircase. Looking back at my line of reasoning, it was based on but a few of all the relevant dimensions to take into consideration – and this happened because I moved too hastily in my decision making. Though, the idea of wanting to now keep the staircase came up fast within me, and I jumped on the bandwagon. Without sitting down to consider the point and look at it more deeply, I decided, and then started to look for ways to implement my decision. What is fascinating is that this decision was made within and as a rushed state. I felt like I had to make a decision immediately, and then push it into creation as fast as I could; I felt that else I would potentially loose out on something. Hence I contacted the workers, and shared the new set of directions.

All good, until the next day, when I started to consider removing the staircase. Also this time, there was this rush in me, to immediately make the decision. Though, now I could see how irrational this decision making process was. In just the span of two days I had felt a rush, and impatience to make two complete opposite decisions. How is that even possible? Fact is that it is not practically possible, and that makes sense because this rush and impatience is not practical – it has nothing to do with the actual decision to be made. Instead, these experiences are behavioral patterns that I have created in relation to decision making, and these sabotage my ability to make clear, well-researched and sound decisions that are best for all. Because the latter decision making process requires that I slow down, that I for a moment stop, silence myself, and look within me, to in this process investigate the pros and cons of the point.

The solution that I see with regards to this point is to apply patience, and to slow myself down, to allow decisions to grow forth and take the time they need – because it takes time to look at and consider all dimensions of a decision – it does not and cannot happen in the blink of an eye. And if it does happen fast, well, most likely important aspects and dimensions has been overlooked. What I see that I can do to help me with slowing down in my decision making process is to sit down with a piece of paper, and write the pros and cons of the decision I am looking at. Perhaps, make some coffee for myself, and make it a moment of meditation, where I can also challenge myself to look at as many dimensions as possible – hence allowing for decision making to become a process of expansion.

In terms of the initial example I gave, I can see that if I would have allowed myself to sit down, and consider all the dimensions of removing, or not removing the staircase, I would not have had to go through the entire experience of rushing, of running to various persons and changing my decision. Instead, I would have looked at the point once, and then established, what is the best direction that I can take, and then stuck with that.

So, really, what I can also learn from this is that taking things slow makes things go faster in the long run, as I am that way able to avoid many mistakes and errors that I might have otherwise created for myself. Hence, do it once and do it properly, instead of doing it incompletely five times.

 

Day 300: Living The Word Thorough

I have now pushed myself to live and apply the word thorough for about a week. During this time I have realized that living thoroughness is about pushing through in the small moments, in those moments when I would like to ‘just move on’ – ‘to get done’ – ‘to leave it as it is’ – and instead, then,  give that little extra of myself to finalize and complete the task at hand so that the result is not only good, but the best that it can be.

What I have found in this process is that the number one enemy to thoroughness is stress, impatience and laziness. Being thorough is closely connected to patience, and patience cannot come through when I stress. Because living thorough means taking a point through, from beginning to end, walking each part of the creation into completion, not jumping ahead, or skipping steps, but walking all steps as is required to fulfill the creation. And when I stress, that is not possible, as I will try to gain time by jumping ahead, by moving fast and without precision, and that means I will miss steps in the creation process. Thus, not walking each part of the creation into completion.

To effectively live the word thoroughness, what is required hence a silence and stability within and as myself. Without that silence and stability, thoroughness is very difficult if not impossible to embody, as my thoughts will jump all over the place, and my mind will not be able to focus on the creation process that is HERE and right before me. And this is yet another key to living thorough – FOCUS – because in being thorough, there is a attention on this moment here, and the part of creation that is walked here – as such the attention cannot be split into the future or past at what could and what could have been – that will compromise the creation taking place in this moment. What comes through in the sound of thorough is – THROUGH heremeaning that is through being HERE that creation can be taken into perfection.

This hit me today, how much of our lives we do on auto mode, and how much we miss because of that. Consider for example, how few people get really good at cooking. Yet still, this is something we do nearly each day. What differs those becoming really good from those that do not? One thing is presence and awareness, those that learn and evolve in a particular skill are ACTIVELY engaging with reality – actively pushing themselves to learn more, enhance their skills and abilities – and as such they are FOCUSED on reality – and thorough – making sure that they are aware and attentive of each step in the process of creation. Hence, living thorough is a way of getting to that point within self of actively participating and engaging with reality, where things are not left half-done, or average, but where each step is pushed and finalized; as they say – The Devil is in the Details.

Day 166: Wasting or Saving Time?

I will write about time, and my future today – in particular the fear of wasting my time.

So, today the following occurred, my partner asked me to assist her in removing a tick from one of our cats, and I said yes – but within me I was reluctant, and I didn’t really want to do it – the reason being: I felt as if this project of removing the tick was a waste of my time, the time I could’ve instead used to make sure I survive – doing ‘important’ work things.

The same point of fear of wasting time comes up when I decide to go out for a walk to support my body, or practice pilates in order to support my back – I fear that I am wasting my time, because each and every second of my day isn’t spent at making sure that I survive and that I make a living for myself.

It’s interesting, because due to my fear of wasting time, that stems back to fear of survival, I will compromise points in my life that supports my body, and thus my survival, such as going out for a walk, cooking a wholesome meal for myself, or taking care of my body – and I will as well compromise the wellbeing of others, such as the wellbeing of my cat, because I feel that it’s a waste of time to spend some moments removing a tick.

What is wasting time? Isn’t wasting time not using time properly? I mean, using my time to do something that isn’t for money, that can’t be wasting my time – that’s rather using my time, but doing something else with my time than protecting my continued survival in the system. Thus, the definition of wasting time, I’ve currently connected to the point of wasting money, loosing money, and not getting ahead in the system, but that’s not a clear and common sense definition of wasting time. An effective definition of wasting time is rather, to spend time in my mind, thinking, fearing, worrying, or feeling – being separate from my body and my world, and reality that is here – that is the very essence of wasting time – that is to say: not being PRESENT and HERE with myself in time, and with time. Thus, the most important point is not WHAT I do with my time, but WHO I am within what I do with my time, because that is the point that has real weight, and answers the question as to whether I am wasting my time or not.

Though, its obvious that I do require to spend time on survival, and money, because without that, my life can’t function – though – I see that this point doesn’t have to be walked in a state of stress and fear, that unless I am spending time on survival, I am wasting my time – Instead I can look at what requires to be done, how much time it will take, and then do it – then when I am done, I am done, and I’ve thus used my time to direct my responsibilities, and I can move on and use my time for other purposes.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value my time according to how much money I am able to make in that time, or how many skills I am able to develop within that time that will allow me to make money, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define to value of myself and my life according to money, and believe that unless I spend my time on making money, or pushing myself to survive in this world, than this is time that I’ve wasted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly think about how I am spending my time, and whether, or whether not I am spending my time wisely, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this constant questioning comes from within and as a anxiety, and fear of wasting my time, wasting my life, and not doing or creating something productive or visible with my life, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don’t need and require this constant anxiety, that I can instead simply look at what requires to be done, and organize, and plan my life to suit what requires to be moved, and then move the points accordingly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this anxiety exists within me, because I perceive that I am not doing enough, that I am not creating, or moving enough, and that I must do more in order for me to be effective, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ask myself what it is that I am able to do, and whether I am doing what I can, or whether I can do more, instead of accepting and allowing this worry, and fear to remain on a abstract level, where I just feel like I am not doing enough, but wherein I haven’t actually schematized for myself exactly how I am using my time, and also asked myself, what I want to use my time for

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that to give myself time, to for example watch a movie, or go outside and take a walk, that is not a waste of time, because giving myself such a point, I am actually nurturing and supporting myself, and strengthening myself to be able to walk, and stand, and continue to apply myself in this process – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not decide for myself what I want to do, how much I want to contribute, where I want to contribute, and how I want to design, and create my life, and accordingly my a schedule for each day of the week, so that there is no anxiety, there is no fear, because I know what to do, I know what to spend my time on, and there is no questions about it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a fear that I will not have enough time to spend on my business that I am walking, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a fear of wasting time, and fear that I don’t have enough time to put into my business, and due to this, my business will not move forward, and I will not be able to create anything for myself, in my life, because there is no money coming in, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as fear in relation to this point, instead of accepting and allowing myself to plan how much time I am to give to my business, to plan how much time I am to give to my process, to be specific, and make some decisions within myself, so that there needs to be no worry, because I know what I am doing, and I know how I am doing it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this fear of wasting time, and this anxiety I experience, is actually very undefined, and I realize that it partly arises because I haven’t given myself a clear direction, and defined for myself what it is that I want to complete, and create, and move each and every day, and each and every week, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make clear directives for myself as to what it is that I want to create in this life, and then structure my time accordingly, and in my schedule, make room for me-time – where I for example go out and walk, and also make room for others in my life to come through, room for me helping and assisting them, room for being social, room for writing, and as such create my schedule and life in balance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a resistance towards helping my partner to take care of the cats, because I experience such a help to be a waste of time, something that will eat up much of my day – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this signifies, and shows, that I am in that moment possessed with and as stress, and with and as fear, and I see, realize and understand that no harm will come to what I am doing, or participating within, if I take five or ten minutes, to assist and support my partner with the cats – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be flexible with my schedule, to when I’ve decided to do something, also be able to stop doing that thing, and do something else, when that is required, without it causing fear or anxiety within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive and define helping my partner with taking care of the cats as being less important, and less valuable than me doing my studies, or me spending time on my business, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create these ideas, and perceptions of myself, and time, wherein I see time as this elusive and hard-to-catch manifestation, that I require to constantly have my eye on, and push myself to use as effectively as I am able to, because if I don’t, it will run away, and disappear in the cracks between my fingers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt and try to fight to hold unto time, and exist within and as a fear of loosing time, wherein I believe that if I stop fighting, and if I stop struggling trying to keep in time, then I am going to loose myself, and loose my effectiveness, and loose my momentum, and my life will come to halt, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath, and bring myself back here, and realize that time is here in every moment, that time is not something that I am able to loose, or miss, or squander, because it’s here – I simply have to decide to live HERE with and as time, and direct myself in common sense, in time – and as such stopping to look, or trying to save time – but instead live within and as the time I am given HERE

Self-commitments

When and as I see that I am going into stress, anxiety, worry or fear about the future, about my time, and that I am not using it effectively enough to stabilize myself in my life, and get my business, and other projects going, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that time is HERE, that time is not a elusive construct that I require to find, and save, and catch, and make sure it doesn’t run away – and as such I commit myself to take a breath and bring myself back here to and as my human physical body, and stabilize myself HERE – and walk HERE one and equal with time, and instead of fearing that I don’t use my time, direct myself as time – to make sure that I am living within directive decisions and that I am not living in fear of loosing time, or in worry that I am not doing enough

I commit myself to clearly define the goals of my life, to clearly define the priorities of my life, so that there exists no room for second-guessing, so that there exists no room for fear, or doubt, or anxiety, but that I know what I am doing, and why I am doing it, and how I am doing it

Day 26: Test-anxiety – The Results Are Back! (Part 15)

test resultsContinuing with test anxiety. Today I got back some results on a paper that I’d written, and I reacted in anxiety, fear, and nervousness – and as I opened the document to look at my results my heart began to race, and I felt that the blood in my body was pumping around much faster – revealing that I was within that moment possessed in fear.

What I realized was that this fear experience didn’t happen in that moment – it’s an outflow of many moments, many thoughts, and my fantasies – that I’ve then accumulated in my mind – and then this dammed energy comes up in one moment as they are triggered by an event. Thus – what I am going to do here in this blog-post is to locate exactly what I’ve thought, and fantasized about in order bring about this particular fear.

Firstly – I see that I’ve for some days excitedly been awaiting the results, and I’ve acted this point out through going unto the web each day, and looking if the results had arrived – and this was actually one of my first thoughts as I wake up this day – to go and check my student-login and find out if the results had arrived – thus what I am able to see is that this particular pattern presents a hope, and a desire – which means that I desired a good result – and due to this I also created the polarity opposite of desire which is fear.

In looking at what desire that lies behind my reaction – I am able to see that it’s not really a desire for a better life, it’s not a desire for material possessions as in getting a good job later, due to having received very good grades in school – the desire is instead in relation to my name, my standing, and my idea of myself as who I am in this world – and I’ve defined myself to be a “intelligent person” – and thus my desire is to keep, and retain this idea of myself – and to be able to feel, and define myself as superior around other people because I’ve received “the best grade”.

Thus – I find it interesting – that the fear I experience is not even a fear that is in relation to MY LIFE so to speak – meaning – that the fear is really about what I’d like others to feel, and think about me – which is fucked up – as it implies that I am living, studying, and breathing to have others see me as I’d like them to see me – instead of me living my life for myself and not worrying about what others might, or might not think about me.

In a way – me getting a good grade on my studies is a way to suppress inferiority, and a state of social angst around people – because when I get a good grade I am able to take that point, define myself as it, and then feel slightly more comfortable with myself – because apparently this point of success make me become slightly more worthy than I was before.

Thus – the key points as living solutions is to live for myself – meaning – to make decisions without worrying what others are going to think about me – and to also – accept myself – and stop looking for others to accept, validate, and recognize myself – thus giving what I desire to myself and not anymore searching for it out there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being a intelligent, and intellectual human being, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride in, and feel superior to others – due to me feeling that I am more intellectual than others – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this definition, and idea of myself to survive in this world – to survive in social interactions – and to assert myself in fear that if I stand as myself – and simply breath – I will loose myself and not survive in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize an idea of myself – as me being effective, and good in school – in order to create a definition of myself – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cling to this definition, and idea of myself – and to think that this definition is who I am – and that I must at any cost uphold this definition – because apparently – if I do not uphold this definition of myself – I will cease to exist – and I will not anymore be of any use in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self-definitions are limited – and that self-definitions are based in fear – the fear of being limitless and without any form of self-created jail – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become comfortable, and take a liking to my self-created jail – as the definition of myself – that I am good in school, that I am intelligent, and that I am intellectual – thinking that this idea, and definition of myself protects in my world – and makes me safe – instead of accepting, and allowing myself to see – realize, and understand – that this definition isn’t real – but merely some memories that I’ve put together within myself – and used to designed a Frankenstein – a dead beingness put together with dead memories – thinking that this is who I am – instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that I am here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without confirming this idea of myself as being good in school, effective, and intellectual – that I will not anymore be able to live, and exist in this world – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself so completely that I believe that I need a thought – and a memory to exist – not realizing that I have the proof here in every breath that I don’t require a thought – and that I don’t require a memory to live, and to express myself – but that what I require is ME to be HERE with me and not lost in my mind and all crap that comes up in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed with and as fear, and anxiety of loosing my idea of myself as being something special – which is really what it’s all about – that I want to be special, and that I use my education as a way to fuel this idea of myself, and definition of myself that I am special – and within this I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted, and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand – that desiring to be special – and thinking that I am special – is a jail that I’ve designed for myself – a trap – and a complete stop – wherein I am not anymore allowing myself to expand, and to move myself out from a state of fear – and into my flesh – and into real physical – breath by breath living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not dare to let go of my self-definition of myself as having a special purpose in this life – and of the definition of myself as being a winner – and as being something more than average – because I see that this very definition of me is limitation – and even though it feels good to think that I am special, and a winner – what hides behind everything is fear – is the fear of being looked at by others as useless, and worthless – and as less than – and thus the search for specialness – reveals to me that I’ve not yet accepted myself – and decided to love myself regardless of where I am in this world – or who I am in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understanding that searching to be special – and searching to be a winner is in-fact self-hatred – and self-bullying – wherein I am implying that I am not good enough before I’ve managed to show to myself that I am a winner – and that I deserve my love – and that I deserve my acceptance of myself – and within this I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to say – enough is enough – now I will stop this inner rat race and finally accept myself – and allow myself to loose – because the beauty of loosing is that I can then focus upon being with myself – and letting myself live – because that is the problem with trying to win – that in doing that I’m missing out on life and living

When and as I see that I am defining myself as being special, and as a winner – and I seek to uphold, and assert this idea of myself through getting good grades in school – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize, and understand that I don’t need to feel special, and that I don’t need to think that I am a winner – and I don’t need a definition of myself what-so-ever in order to be here – and love me – and accept me; as such I commit myself to let go of the hunt for specialness – and to let go of my definition of myself as being more than average – and instead allow myself to love myself – and accept myself – and enjoy living instead of searching for the win

When and as I see that I am going into a state of hastiness – as trying to “get there” because over “there” I’ll apparently be able to assert my definition of myself as being the best – and being special – I immediately stop myself – I take a breath – and I bring myself back here – and I commit myself to BE HERE – with myself – and live here – to stop trying to get there – as I see that there is the biggest lie, and illusion that have ever been promulgated in this world – as it implies that I can only be fulfilled and whole in the future – when the only point that is real and actual is HERE as this moment in this very breath

When and as I see that I am going into a state of survival – as using memories within me to substantiate an idea of myself that I am special, unique, and a winner – intellectual, and intelligent – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize, and understand that – memories are not alive – memories do not show me who I am – memories are in-fact lies of the past imposing themselves to be me – while the fact of the situation is that I am HERE – and that I am not a memory – but that I am a living being able to make decisions and move myself by common sense here – and as such not in need of a memory-character to tell me who I am; as such I commit myself to live without a character – and without memories – and without a definition of myself – and push myself to stand bare as breath – as a new born baby in every moment of breath HERE

PossessionDemonic possession, psychokinetic control of a person by the Devil or other malevolent spirit

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FAQ Cars In An Equal Money System – Who Will Make Them And Who Will Get Them?

There will still be cars in an Equal Money System, yet there won’t be a array of different brands, standards, price classes and variations – there will be one single type of car – the best car available; the conscription force of the Equal Money System will be responsible of building the cars.

Whether each and every citizen of an Equal Money System will have his or her own car is still not certain, the question that will be asked, and answered in order to determine such a point will be, is it necessary? Is it what’s best for all? There won’t be the same urge in an Equal Money System for all to have their own car – the reason being that in an Equal Money System interaction, communication, and neighborly love between humans will expand – as such fewer will want to drive around in a car all the time, when there is more fun things to do.

Though at the moment, what’s certain is that there will be cars, and these cars will be located at various logistic points, where you go and get your car, when you’re in need of one. As such, you’ll get yourself the car you acquire, and then you’d be free to go where you wanted to go – around the world? Or too your mothers uncle in the neighbor town? That is up to you.

Obviously the cars with the least environmental damaging wastages will be used – and cars will be made to give the best protection possible to it’s passengers, as accidents will still happen, though in an Equal Money System, accidents will be less devastating – as all cars will be the best when it comes to protection.

Further, all alcoholic beverages will be banned – which will have a major effect on the car traffic; less people will die by the hands of drunken drivers – as drunk driving will be seen and understood for what it really is – attempt at murder – as you by your full senses, by drinking, take a decision that will decrease your ability to drive a car, and such rise the likelihood of you harming someone – that is murder if you then kill someone, or at least attempt at murder when you don’t.

Thus, in an Equal Money System, you’ll be protected from being harmed due to a decision that isn’t in anyway your own – such as a drunk harming you, or your family – through driving recklessly and without any consideration. You hade no part in the decision to drink – and as such the decision to drink isn’t a free choice, as it wasn’t free for all – but for those that become affected, and harmed by such a decision – they never made that choice. Alcohol will as such be banned as the devastating and dangerous drug that it in-fact is.

As for the choices to be done in terms of what role cars will play in our future – and how this point will become more specifically placed, this will be a decision made by the group as one – wherein humanity come together and make a decision upon the basis of what is best for all – considering all the relevant points.