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Day 353: Self-Forgiveness On Fears In Relation To Money and Employment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more money you have the more valuable you are

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that rich people are more valuable than poor people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that rich people are more intelligent than poor people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that poor people are stupid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that having more money means that I am successful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that owning a lot of things, having a lot of money means that I have done something good and worthwhile with my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my clarity and direction become clogged and limited, due to the desire to have more money – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have more money so that I am able to feel safe and secure in this world – not seeing, realizing and understanding, that the only way that security can be created in this world, will be through giving ALL people a dignified and proper life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to strive towards and desire to have my life become more through having more money – and in this forget and not care about what others are going through – and how my desires and wants influence and ripple into this world – creating consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I cannot possibly create and have a comfortable lifestyle, only for myself, and then not care at all about the rest of this world, as fact is that, I am part of this world, and on a deep level within myself, I will always be aware of and know the atrocities committed on a daily basis, and that in order for me to find peace, I must will myself to act

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to create and give myself a purpose that involves more than only myself – as I see, realize and understand, that this way, I will be able to truly let go of my fears, and my personal desires, that only creates more consequence than pleasure, and that I can thus find peace in striving to create something for the many that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the system for granted, and completely trust the system to work, to be there for me, to function, and that as long as I am loyal and give myself to the system, then I will be rewarded and given the necessary resources to survive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being loyal to the system in fear that the system is going to exclude me and that I am not going to be allowed to be a part of the money system – and have access to money – to stuff, products, entertainment, things that I can use to pass my time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust the system and distrust myself – to believe that the system is more powerful than me – and that in order to survive – I must devote myself to the system and give myself – my future – my life to the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being devoted to the system – in fear that this is going to be seen and that I will be rejected and pushed away from the system – excommunicated

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear money – and to believe that money is more powerful than me – and that I must serve money loyally or it might strike down upon me with a vengeance

When and as I see myself going into, and experiencing a fear towards the money system, as in fear that I will become pushed away and excommunicated, I take a breath, I stop myself, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this fear within me is holding me back from living fully – that I am not allowing myself to trust myself and live and create as what would be best for me – thus I commit myself to breathe through my fear – and then push myself to live my full potential as what I see is best for me – and best for all – and stick with my self-honesty and self-trust – and not accept and allow myself to loose my direction and deviate because of fear

When and as I see myself going into fear towards my superiors, towards someone in my environment with a higher position in the system, I stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that I am limiting myself, holding myself back, and accepting and allowing irrational believes to control me, not seeing that I am equal and one – that there is no difference between me and someone with a higher position in the system – and thus I commit myself to push myself to live equality – to stop fears and anxieties and express my genuine being and self-expression – and to not accept and allow myself to suppress and hold myself back due to fear

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The Greatest Presen(t)ce Anyone can Give to Themselves

About a month ago I moved to a new apartment – a two-room apartment. The plan was to move in together with my partner, as alone I do not hold the financial power to maintain a two-room apartment. Due to reasons unforeseen and unplanned the agreement, relationship, ended and as such I was now in a precarious situation in relation to paying my rent – or at least it felt like that.

So, I went into fear and anxiety, as I wondered and worried how I was going to keep myself afloat and maintain my financial position, and as such all the various points that go hand in hand with ones financial security in this world.

I had to find a solution, and that I did through deciding to take in a tenant, giving up one of my two rooms to be rented out. This was also a point that caused major anxiety and worry within me – as now I had to bring a unknown human-being into my home, exposing all of my possessions and the interior of my apartment to possible theft, or destruction. Several nights I lied in my bed and experienced the anxiety and worry as the thoughts, vividly showing ‘the end of the world’, ran rampant in my mind.

Though, in terms of my experience in relation to these points, there has been a major difference comparing myself now and myself from three years ago, at the time in which I still hadn’t found Desteni. The change lies in how I handled my experiences; because eventually I managed to stop all fear, anxiety and worry too instead live here as breath – something I would never have been able to do three years ago. Back then I would have become possessed with my fear, I would have checked out my bank account several times a day, to make sure I have enough money, probably never dared to let a tenant live with me and I wouldn’t been able to sleep as a child – even though my reality was unstable and uncertain.

Because through writing out my experiences, through looking at my thoughts in self-honesty – I managed to pinpoint the insecurities that created my experience. And through self-forgiveness in combination with breath, common sense and self-corrective actions I was able to delete my disease as fear – reprogramming myself with a new starting point, one of common sense and in alignment with the mathematical nature of reality.

This is the power of the tools of Desteni; self-forgiveness, self-honesty, breath, common sense and self-corrective action – applying these tools there is no situation to hectic, intense or overwhelming one can’t face and still direct oneself within stability, silence and clarity. Because our inner reality mustn’t be a slave to our outer, our experience of ourselves can become what we want it to be – as we end our automated reactive behavior with it’s origin in external stimulation. We are able to become the stimulator of ourselves and as such, remove all the experiences and behaviors that aren’t supporting our world or us to live effectively.

Because, would it have helped me to sort out the situation in my world if I had gone into fear and remained as fear? No, I wouldn’t have been able to make clear decisions, based upon mathematics, as the certainty of accumulation, that 1 + 1 will indeed become 2. Simply common sense to see that I require to get a job, I require to rent out my room, and within these realizations having no experience of fear, anxiety or worry – instead seeing the concrete, actual, physical reality and what is necessary for me to do in order to stabilize my world.

So, I used the tools of Desteni. I stopped my fear, worry and anxiety and I came back to the physical. I slept as a child and I gave myself direction; this is the simplicity and effectiveness of breath walking, a skill and ability that everyone is able to give themselves, the greatest presen(t)ce anyone is able to receive.

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Pregnant Woman Fired From Her Job

A newspaper reports the following:

A women got pregnant while working at a movie studio – her boss then attempted to remove her from being a full time worker to part time worker = she refused. Her boss then, according to the newspaper, attempted to freeze the women out from the social community of the workplace.

The woman was then fired – the reason given by the boss – she was embezzling the company’s money; while the woman say she was fired due to her pregnancy, because her pregnancy would cost the film studio money. The woman has now proceeded to sue the company – as it’s by law forbidden in Sweden to fire someone only due to their pregnancy.

So – what is the origin within this situation? What does this entire drama stem from? Can you see it? Lying in the backdrop of each action, word and thought acted out be the woman as well as the boss. Oh yes, MONEY!

Let’s look at the situation of the employer:

The employer as an entrepreneur is under constant pressure to earn money. If he doesn’t earn enough money he will not be able to support himself with the necessary commodities needed for survival. When as such, a woman becomes pregnant, that is to have a right to take long leave from the company yet still be paid – this means loss of money for the entrepreneur.

Thus – he acts out his fear, he attempts to save the money he is loosing, as his ability to support himself in this world through the measures explained above. He’s doing it in order to survive. Can you blame him? Is it his fault? Or, is it our collective fault as a humanity, due to having accepted and allowed ourselves to be subject to a money system that is ruthless and brutal in it’s nature – forcing you into submission and survival.

Would you have done the same as him? What would you have done when you had no money? How long would you go to protect your money? Can we – with the play-out as presented above actually say that children, and life is supported in this world? I mean – here is an obvious, literal example as to how that which is not a source for profit becomes disregarded and rejected – in this case – a pregnant mother. The moment you are not able to fulfill your role in the matrix as a effective source, and battery for the creation of money – you are disregarded. Such is the fucked-up reality we face people.

Let’s then look at the woman’s position:

The woman is about to have a child – she is about to enter a period in her life in which she will be very vulnerable, and she will need much assistance from those around her – in order to have childbirth be effective and supportive.

As she announces her childbirth all support, as money is withdrawn from her world. She is fired from her job, as she no longer represents a battery and source for money. Nobody cares of her, nobody cares of the baby she is carrying – in our current money system – the actual birthing of a new being in this world is valued less than money. As such – the women will probably become afraid, stressed out, nervous – not having access to money, and so her childbirth and her first moments with her child will be contaminated with fear of the future – will she have enough money?

Not only the first moment of the child’s experience with his mother – but his entire life-experience with the mother will be in the context of survival, fear and pressure – as the mother won’t have sufficient comfort, stability, and calm to interact effectively with her child – she will all the time be worried about money.

Look at the enormous role that money plays:

Our relationship with money shapes our life, it shapes our relationships, it shapes our food, our experience of ourselves, our experience with others – it shapes our childhood – where our parents wealthy and calm? Did they spend time with us, or where they all the time working?

How many parents loose it? Snaps, screams and lash out on their children due to the pressure the carry of bringing money into their world?

People – let’s look at the situation here:

We have an abusive system – we have a system that doesn’t support parents, or children, or moviemakers. It doesn’t support creativity, it doesn’t support enjoyment, it doesn’t support sincerity, it doesn’t support caring, it doesn’t support assistance, and it doesn’t support anything –BUT – fear, fear and fear. The hunt for survival is what the human race has become, and has always been. The fear and pressure always existent on top of our shoulders to bring the necessary money into creation each day – so we will be able to survive.


This is not a worthy way to live, and this is not a necessary way to live. There is another world that is possible. There is a world that is heaven for all possible. We do not need to live in constant fear, pressure, anxiety and competition – there is a world of mutual joy and care possible! All we need to do is – realize that such a world is possible!

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So – open your eyes to a new world. A world where people are not fired from their jobs when they become pregnant – where employers are not living in fear of having their company loose money – where no-one is being forced into scarcity, but all are given in abundance.

A world of abundance is possible!