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Day 337: How To End Rear View Mirror Living?

When you build something big, such as a house, there will (unless you are MacGyver or some other perfect individual) be mistakes made, things missed, points forgotten, or not considered sufficiently. I know because I have been there, it is not possible, or at least, close to impossible to build the perfect house, or the perfect what-so-ever. In the end, there will always be things that could have been better. For me, it has been sometimes difficult to come to terms with these mistakes, that after the house has been finished, each day openly and glaringly stares me in my face. The emotion is there, that deep urge, and desire, to be able to turn back time and make a different decision, the right one. And even though it is of no point to go in my mind go back in time, and consider these things, the experience driving this thought-process is an experience that it could potentially change something, there is that nagging experience, that maybe, maybe if I stick with it, and look at it once more, it will change.

This way of approaching life – which I coin Rear-View-Mirror-Living – is a real party killer. The consequences of ‘Rear-Mirroring’ (the verb conjugation of my new word) is that I will not give the necessary attention to my life HERE, I will not focus on improving and pushing my daily living forward, but my thoughts, and my considerations will remain in the past – LIFE here will become but a empty narrative – bereft of substance – because all of my being will be in the past. The main problem thus is that no CREATION will happen as all attention is gathered on what has already been created – and the faults/mistakes of that particular creation – it is a form of regret. And we, sane people, can all agree that living in regret is no way to live, though few of us are able to use that regret, the Rear-Mirror-Living, as keys to self-expansion and building a better life for ourselves. In other words, making the enemy our friend.

What we see in our rear view and that bugs us will be consequences created by aspects of ourselves which we are able to change in the present. Unfortunately however, what we see in our rear view, such as regrets, will often end up as an emotion a – a state of dissatisfaction and a point that we continuously go back to in order to ponder – only serving our mind and not our physical creation. Hence, what is missed in that state of pondering about the past is that we can instead look at HOW we created the particular situation that is now a point of regret within us; What about our character was responsible for creating the situation/point we now experience a regret towards? Because, if we are able to see HOW we created a particular point in the past, we can identify where we are creating the same in our present reality, and thus how we are able to assist and support ourselves to change, and realign, to NOT recreate the past.

A part from us being able to shift the tendency of Rear-View-Mirror-Living into a present and future oriented CREATION living – what is important when it comes to stopping our ‘looking back phenomena’ is to dare to NOT think – having the courage to simply STOP. I have noticed that at times, I have felt compelled to think about something, and oftentimes the illusion is that I am able to reach some form of conclusion or state of release by thinking, thus making me anxious of stopping my thought process, because what if I then miss out on this great realization I am apparently about to have? However, I have realized that, thinking about these things, without exception, always leads to an even more unstable and conflicted state of mind. Release only comes through letting go of the process of thinking, and that takes some courage, because it implies letting go of the problem/issue/experience that is the foundation of the thought pattern. And because we let go of a foundation, we now have to create our own self – our own direction/movement/future – that is why it is so scary – we are entering into the unknown.

Let us look at another perspective on this point: When someone goes of rambling about mistakes they did in the past, it is easy to attempt and try to comfort them by telling them that things are not as bad as they think. This however is not an efficient way of approaching the Rear-View-Character – what instead should be brought to their attention is that by looking at the mechanics of HOW their past moment was created – and HOW those mechanics are still a part of their present life – and as such – they will be able to stop themselves from recreating their past. Hence their focus and effort should be placed on aligning and changing these inefficient traits, memes and quirks (their current self-mechanics) so that they can walk into a better future. When we look at the past pro-actively – it can be a GREAT source of knowledge that we are able to use to get to know ourselves better.

To sum it up. Rear-View-Mirror-Living (do I have copyright on this term now?) is in its essence an addiction to thoughts – we want to think about our past – feel good or bad about it – continuously assess, value, pinpoint, and define with our minds. This is a LIMITATION – because by existing in a Rear View State – we miss out on CREATING our life HERE. This brings me into the solution – which is to CREATE: CREATE our future – CREATE our character – CREATE our skills, abilities, our integrity, our state of mind, our WHO WE ARE – and NOT leave anything to to chance. In that process of CREATION – we are able to use our inner Rear View Mirror to LEARN about ourselves – to see where we need fine tuning, and to understand, what consequences our characters and patterns have the potential of creating. However – the Rear View must never become a purpose in itself – we USE it to expand – not to be in a constant state of looking back.


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Day 242: What is real evolution?

What is real evolution? The general accepted view of evolution is that of external shifts in form, techniques, and designs – and mostly the word is connected to survival – and from the human point of view – evolution is most often seen in the context of career or spiritual awakening, aka enlightenment.

2000px-Human_evolution.svgLooking at my own definition of the point it’s clear that evolution has been connected to moving away from my parents, and ‘creating’ my own life, getting my own apartment, and my own first job, and standing on my own two feet in the world system. This is something I’ve come to define as being a freedom as well, because being away from my parents, I’m apparently free to create my life as I wish – and I can now do whatever I want to.

Interestingly enough events have opened up in my life where I know find myself living with my mom again, on the farm were I once grew up – on the farm that I used to define as extremely limiting, that is positioned in a small rural town that I resented in my teenage years for not being hip, and revolutionary. I wanted to get away from it, live in some big city, and ‘experience’ life – and I used to consider the people that stayed behind as being the biggest losers, because I thought that they were missing out on life.

And now, I find myself in that position that I before used to judge, and resent, and the fascinating thing is that – on a physical level – it’s great for me – the country side allows for a expansive, physical, and creative lifestyle, with lot’s of contact with animals and nature. Compared to living in the city, the farm offers a more calm, serene, and easy life – put plainly: There is not as much shit on the countryside. Though, on a mind level – I have had conflicts emerge – residues from my past conclusions and assumptions of the country life – were I defined this lifestyle as BORING.

Thus, I am now presented with a clear perspective on the irrational nature of the mind, because in the mind, we evaluate points on the basis of FEELING and EXPERIENCE and not from a starting point of PRACTICALITY – and this is obviously a big problem. So, from the minds perspective, I have seemingly regressed by moving back to the place were I grew up, and I have missed out on my evolution through not getting a place of my own, but instead opting to live on the same farm as my mother. In the mind’s eye this is a complete failure, because I am not out there in the world, exploring, having adventures, and acquiring knowledge through meeting and interacting with new points.

Though, is there anything that says that I am conditioned to not explore, to not experience, develop new skills, and new abilities while living on a farm together with my mom? Is there anything that says that I am physically more limited to create my life when I am living on the countryside where I used to grow up, compared to if I was living in a town, far away from my place of birth? The simple answer is NO – and here we get into seeing the REAL expression and definition of evolution.

Because the fact is that REAL evolution is not limited to the external reality, in terms of where we live, and the people that are in our lives, our jobs, etc. Real evolution is a decision we make, to in the confines and limitations that do exist in this physical world – regardless of where we live – move, express, and drive ourselves to expand – and this expression can come through in all places, in all contexts, in all situations – because it’s about WHO WE ARE.

For example, I live on a farm, with literally thousands of opportunities to start exploring various relationships with nature, animals, agriculture, construction, machinery, and so forth. Thus, even though I am living where I once grew up, it by far means that I know all parts of my physical surroundings, and it by far means that I have investigated all the various parts that together make up the thing we call country-life – such as for example: Gardening, driving a tractor, organizing equipment, caring for and supporting the various farm structures – the fact is that there is an entire existence before me that I have yet to delve into.

Though, what happens when I am in my mind thinking that expansion and self-creation is somewhere out there? Where is my focus? Well, it’s obviously OUT THERE, and in that I miss the opportunity of self-creation that exists HERE – the moments of self-expansion, and self-movement that are opening up HERE – those points are easily glanced over when the mind is set out to build something in the future.

Thus, the correction to this point, is to bring the world evolution back to the present, to see, realize and understand, that self-expansion, self-movement, and self-creation are words that can only be lived HERE – that no town, job, or career in the world can give me these words – I must give them to myself – and I must live them in my daily life – I must make them part of myself – and push myself to be present and aware here to see when a opportunity for self-expansion open up, so that I can walk into it, learn, experience, and evolve myself – develop myself.

To summarize: Regardless of where we find ourselves, with whom we live, what job we have, and what our circumstances are – WE have the power to expand, develop and evolve – we have the power to CREATE ourselves and make the best of what is here – that is UP TO US – nobody can do it for us – it is a decision that we make to participate and be aware of every breath, of every move we make – because only then are we able to recognize what is in front of our eyes, and walk into the opportunities that do unfold every single day.

Day 212: Self-Creation

Today I had a fascinating point open up in relation to the point of self-creation – and taking my life by the horns and designing it – instead of waiting for things to calm in the palm of my hand.

So, the context was the following: I’ve decided to move back to the town where I grew and settle in with my mother on our family farm – today I had a thought come up in regards to this prospect that contained this moaning – drop – experience. The essence of the thought was: “What if it’s boring to live there?” – and the energy experience that accompanied the thought was a sense of dullness and weariness.

What I could see was that this point is in-fact a form of self-sabotage – because what I do in participating with this thought and emotion – is that I blame my environment for not being as stimulating and satisfying as I want it to be – and I thus expect my environment to create me – I expect my surroundings to facilitate and develop me. And this is obviously limiting – because here I will forever search for some perfect environment that will fulfill my ideas – and I won’t push myself to actually create that point of interest – to ask myself – what gifts DOES my world hold? What is it here that I can learn? That is just here before my eyes, and that I can take with me?

For example with my mother, and living on the farm, there are tons of things I’m able to learn – I can learn more about animals, more about handcrafting, and being practical, dealing with more physical labor, I can learn cooking, baking – and I can do more outdoor things living so close to nature. Do when I approached the point from the starting point of a emotion – this dullness and weariness – I couldn’t see those gifts – see the cool points and opportunities of self-creation that was right before me all along.

Thus – a correction that I am now going to apply – is that when I notice I judge my environment or surroundings for apparently not facilitating my self-creation and life – I stop – and I ask myself instead – what are the gifts here? What can I CREATE with what is here? What are the potentials, the opportunities, the prospects that I can expand and move? So, instead of seeing my world in the color of emotion – stopping myself – and looking at what is the gifts? What are the potential of creation?

And this I would say is the core of what it means to create yourself – it means to take active responsibility – to work with what is HERE and to CREATE with what is here – to stop hoping that the future will bring anything, stop hoping that my environment will move points into my world, stop hoping that my life will come to me – and instead actively CREATE and BUILD it – that is real self-empowerment – and that is real JOY – to live as a creator – and create life in real time.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge living with my mother, and living on a farm as being dull, mundane and wearisome – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge this aspect and part of life – instead of seeing what potential there are for self-creation – what potential there is for life to be birthed – what I can do to enrich my life and the lives of others HERE – looking at what I can push – how I can move and direct myself to create added value – instead of expecting it to turn up on my door step

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother, and the farm for causing this experience in me of dullness and weariness – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how this blame is locking me into a state of not seeing that I am the creator – and that when I accept myself and my general self-experience as being dull and weary – then that is what I am going to create – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not move myself out of this experience – and push myself to create my life – to enhance my life – to create added value – to see the potentials and the gifts that are here – and thus not anymore remain in a state of blame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take charge of my life and my future – through asking myself how I’m able to substantiate and build my life HERE – and thus not anymore look at my environment or my future to bring me this state of fulfillment and added value – but realize that I must stand as that point – and that I’m able to align myself with this point regardless of where I am – that it’s not a matter of where I’m but how I approach things – how I see things – and that I can actually train and practice myself to see the gifts and the potentials of a environment or relationship – and then push myself to create these potentials

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how this experience that comes up within me – that something is limited, or that something is too small, and insignificant, and doesn’t offer me enough challenges, or moments of expansion – to not see how this is self-sabotage – because in-fact I’m responsible for my own growth – for creating my life to be expansive – to be enjoyable – to be fascinating – to be creative and to walk the potentials that open up in my life and in my world into creation – and into actual fulfillment and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself – through holding unto this belief that apparently my world should change and offer me that point of creation – not realizing that I must actively stand as – and will myself to ask – what is the potential here? What can I create here? What can I build, form and shape here? And how can I add value to my own life and the lives of others?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for my life to open up, to wait for opportunities to unfold, to wait for a process of creation to begin, to wait for life, instead of me actively willing, and creating my life – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how my life can become so much more – when I accept and allow myself to see the opportunities and the gifts that are here – and what I can create, pursue, and build with my life here – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not open up my eyes and see that gifts that are right in-front of me – and embrace these gifts – walk them and create them into the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I’m able to give myself some very cool points of direction in my life that will assist and support not only me – but also others in my life – and that thus – I don’t require to wait for things to unfold – but I can instead take direction and push for points to come into creation – to design my own life manifesto of who I am – and where I am going – in the personal – interpersonal and existential level of creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace the decision I’ve made to go to the farm – to embrace this decision and walk with the point unconditionally – to not attempt and try anymore to fight it – but rather walk with it – and make it mine – and make it mine through actively looking for gifts and potentials that I can create and manifest through this adventure – to look where I’m able to learn – where I’m able to contribute – where there are gifts that I can develop and expand upon – and thus instead of wanting and wishing to be somewhere else – make the absolute most of what is here in my life in this very moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my process of creation must take place HERE – that my process of building and shaping myself in my life must be walked HERE – that I can’t wait for life – I can’t hope that life will unfold – I must create it – I must will into the physical and thus stand as the point – as the searchlight – that constantly looks for new ways – new paths – where I can expand – where I can move – where I can direct myself to add value – to enhance and to gift life to myself as well as others

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that I am going into a state of blaming my environment, and thinking that my environment is responsible for causing me to feel limited, and less expansive, and as having less opportunities to build a life for myself – I stop – I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that the real potential of creation and the real potential of creating a life for myself exists HERE – within and as my human physical body – within and as my physical world that is HERE with me in this moment – HERE are the potentials for self-creation – they are not out there somewhere in the future – they are here in my world – and it’s thus my responsibility to see them – to find the gifts – and then to walk the gifts into creation; and thus I commit myself to when this experience of blame and a thought of dropping – and standing back comes up within me – to then say NO – and look at what are the gifts, what are the potentials, what am I able to create for myself in this life, in this moment, where I am at right now? And thus walk the process of taking these gifts into creation

Day 79: Why is it an art form to live?

We as human beings tend to go through our daily lives without much consideration as to what it is where doing, and how we’re doing it. We simply take for granted as we wake up that: “this is going to be another day, and I will simply walk through it as all the other days I’ve walked through up to this point”. Though within this there is something important that is being forgotten. It’s actually not only important, it’s in-fact vital, it’s really the essence of what it means to live; and that is the principle of creation – the principle of bringing to life – to principle of determining ourselves, and our lives.

street_art_yarn_crochet_1What is fascinating is that this principle of creation is always here regardless of whether we’re aware of it or not – but as a matter of fact we’re all creating our lives in real time, in every moment of breath, and we’re in-fact the determining point in our world, and our reality. I mean, this is absolutely fascinating – because in taking a look at us human beings, it’s like we’re totally oblivious of this fact, and we’re just walking around believing that life is happening to us, when in-fact it’s us that are happening as our own life. What I want to get to here is the simple realization that we’re all creators – thus we’re all artists, and within this it’s easy to see that living is an art form. And not just any art form – it’s THE art form; because when we become effective in this skill of creating our life as the piece of art it is, the rest of our lives will unfold and become so much more rewarding, and effective.

But, obviously, as I mentioned in the beginning, what we as human beings have yet to understand is that each breath that we take is in-fact a opportunity for us to create art, and not just any art, the perfect art, as the perfect living, as walking within and as a principle that is best for all, as give as you’d like to receive; I mean, this is in essence the choice that stand before is in every moment – the question: “What are you going to create? What type of artist will you be?” – and the only way to answer this question is through real living application, as a living physical decision that I create myself here in physical living to stand as an example of what is best for all.

And it’s fascinating that instead of us realizing this fact that art is not something separate from us, but that art is really every moment we have here with ourselves, we’ve made art to be these isolated incidents of painting, or doing some acting, or playing some music – but that is a very limited understanding of art, and when we limit art to only exist as these very few points we compromise the rest of our lives that should as a matter of integrity be masterpieces as perfect art that we’ve created with meticulous specificity, and inexhaustible dedication.

Consider for a moment that we as humans would in-fact do this, and make sure that our life, and our every breath is a work of art that gives life – what would be the outflow of this on an existential level? Would starvation exist? Would murder exist? Can any problem possibly remain a problem when we strive for perfection in every way? I mean, obviously not – and thus – are you ready to take on the responsibility of being a real artist? Because realize that for any change to take place in this world – individuals must change themselves – and to do this we require to make sure that our life is an art lived that is worthy of life.

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