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Hiding – Part 3

Before reading this entry – please read part 1 and part 2

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the character of not wanting to face myself – existing within and as the belief that “I am so bad – and I am so fucked up – that I can’t do anything about myself” – as such creating a escape route within myself where I think that I am able to avoid this big task of in-fact facing/seeing myself – and instead escape from this task; instead of accepting and allowing myself to see/realize/understand that this belief that I am apparently to fucked up to face myself – it’s only a excuse and justification in order to substantiate my escape from myself – while I do in-fact see/realize/understand that facing myself is what I must do – and what will be the greatest gift that I’ve ever given to myself – as it will accept and allow me to birth myself as life from the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the character/living statement that I don’t want to face myself – instead of seeing/realizing/understanding that it’s stupid to not want to face myself – as the truth of myself is always here anyway, it’s just that I’ve hidden from myself – but that doesn’t mean that the truth of me is still here – and is creating my life and my experience of myself in everyway; as such I see/realize/understand that the obvious common sense is to face myself and get it over with – because that is much more simple than spending a life-time finding excuses and justifications and fighting the truth as myself as how I exist within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that it’s a thousand times more simple/easy to face myself than to hide from myself – and that hiding from myself is in-fact hard work – and something that must go on for a eternity; while facing myself is something that must only be done once – and then the fight/struggle is over because I am clear within and as myself – I’ve faced and corrected my shit and I can now spend my breaths living instead of fighting; as such I commit myself to stop this eternal fight and instead face myself – within seeing/realizing/understanding that it will feel difficult yet it’s what is best for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that facing myself is difficult – it’s hard – and it’s uncomfortable – yet existing within a statement/character of hiding is even more hard/difficult and uncomfortable – as such it’s easy to see that the best decision for me is to face myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever see/recognize hiding as a solution – not seeing/realizing/understanding the obvious common sense that hiding is never a solution but only a form of postponement – wherein I postpone the inevitable – as such I see/realize/understand that hiding is in-fact completely unnecessary as I will have to face myself anyway – as such why hide to begin with? Why not simply take the pain and discomfort and be done with it here?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within myself to such an extent that I am not able to see how stupid my inner characters of hiding are – as they do not serve any practical/physical value at all – I simply exist as these characters because I was shown to do so – and I’ve always done so – as such existing within and as apathy accepting everything as is thinking that it’s cool – because it’s been like this forever; not accepting and allowing myself to open my eyes and in-fact question what is here – to see whether what is here actually supports a existence that is best for all – and actually supports me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that I can’t avoid facing myself – that I am in-fact facing myself even though I am hiding from myself – but that I am just avoiding to see who and what I am straight in the face from a starting point of correcting myself – and placing myself in a position within myself of changing and re-aligning myself within myself to what is best for all – to what will in-fact support/assist myself to step out of my current mind-fuck and become a self-directed – self-willed being here in every moment of breath

I commit myself to face myself – and to see/realize/understand that facing myself will be the greatest gift that I’ve ever given to myself; and that there is really no such thing as hiding from myself – but only postponing the inevitable, which is to face myself head-on – to see who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become – and to re-create myself within and as oneness and equality here as what is best for all

I commit myself to face myself and get it over with – as I see/realize/understand that not wanting to face myself is merely postponing the inevitable – and is only serving to make me and my existence a living hell; and as such I commit myself to take this problem as me and move myself into correction/perfection/alignment with the principle as what is best for all

I commit myself to face myself – seeing/realizing/understanding that I will only have to face myself once – and then it’s done – while hiding is a project that I must walk for eternity – and is a struggle that I can let myself not go through – through simply facing myself here – and walking the necessary self-forgiveness/writing/self-correction to establish myself as clear – stable – and effective within and as my application of myself here as life

I commit myself to see/realize/understand that it’s a far more intelligent decision to face myself than to postpone facing myself – because facing myself will have the outflow of me living comfortably and relaxed within my human physical body; while not facing myself will have the consequence of my living in FEAR – which is a completely ludicrous thing to have myself go through

I commit myself to see/realize/understand that hiding is not a solution but merely a point of postponing the inevitable – as such I will/push myself to establish myself as NOT HIDING – through each day writing/doing my self-forgiveness/walking my self-corrective statements – until everything is out in the open and I am done

I commit myself to not accept my characters simply because I’ve always existed as characters – and because everyone in my world has always shown me the example of living as a character – but I instead push/will myself to question all my characters as to their purpose – and what outflows they create in my life/existence – to as such only accept and allow that which is best for all within me

I commit myself to see/realize/understand that hiding is in-fact a illusion – because actually I am always seeing who and what I am within myself – it’s just that I haven’t dared to place myself in a position of changing myself – correcting myself; as such I stand up within myself and walk self-responsibility – in taking charge of myself – and changing myself – as such stopping the idea/illusion of hiding within and as me

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And God Created Beauty

And god created beauty, he created ugly people and good-looking people, he created attractive woman and unattractive woman; now why did god do such a stupid thing?

Couldn’t god in his almightiness, in his omnipotence and all wisdom see that such a creation would become the origin of comparison, inferiority, superiority, discrimination and bullying? Obviously, if god do in-fact stand as all those above mentioned marvelous characteristics, he did in-fact see what he was doing, and what he was creating; which then gives us the conclusion that god was actually evil.

Because let’s look at what this creation of attractive and unattractive spawns in the minds of men, and we can take the example of myself, as I’ve grown up as a man in this world.

Now, it’s when you hit puberty at about 12-15 years old that you start to notice that certain people get more attention than other people. Usually this is mostly so with girls. And those that get the most attention hold one characteristic in common – they are apparently attractive. This means that their bodies are shaped in a particular geometrical measurement.

Due to this design of certain people, as having bodies gifted with a particular geometrical measurement, they’ll become the popular people of the school; liked and adored by everyone – having small gangs form up around their geometrical perfection.

While those with no such geometrical perfection given to their bodies will find themselves to be outcasts, or maybe in the popular group, but not given as much attention as the one holding the beauty.

What does this then create in the mind of man?

Obviously the fact that our bodies look differently, and are valued differently in society leads to jealousy, comparison and self-judgment; and in youth today we’re able to see the epitome of this beauty hype; as young females starve themselves, and young males spend their time on a gym, developing their muscles – as big muscles is apparently a geometrical measurement that is to be considered beautiful.

We’ve through giving value to our bodies, and comparing our bodies, defining certain bodies to beautiful, and certain bodies to be ugly, created a completely twisted view of reality; wherein the pictures are that which is to be considered of value, and the actual real physical reality is completely forgotten.

But consider the following – what is it that gives you the ability to live, interact and experience yourself in this reality? Is it your body, as the physical – or is it pictures?

It’s obviously your body, because without your body; you wouldn’t be able to speak; you wouldn’t be able to interact, or move yourself in anyway what so ever. Thus – a picture is not alive, a picture is simply light reflected into your eye, and then transferred to the back of your brain where a picture is created. You can’t feel a picture, you can’t touch a picture, and you can’t interact with a picture; thus – the picture is the lie and your human physical body, as actual real touch, communication and interaction is of reality.

So, the obvious point of self-correction for humanity, and myself is to stop this complete obsession with pictures; brown skin, dark skin, thin belly, big muscles, cool hairstyle, firm thighs, tight but – this is not what life is about! Life is not that which you see with your eyes, but that which you can feel with your fingertips; and to the fingertips all flesh is equal.

Thus – let’s return ourselves to our fingertips, and learn to use our eyes without becoming obsessed by that which we see – believing pictures to be the one factor that determines reality; while it’s in-fact our human physical bodies that do.

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