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Day 405: Changing Perspective

In my life lately I have had some conflicts related to a contractor and the work that he has done. In summary – he did not do his job properly and I have been trying to come to an agreement with him on how to proceed. It did not work out – and I decided to move on without him. The entire situation has been a learning experience. At first – I viewed everything from my own individual stance. In that sense, it felt like I had been unjustly treated, harmed and that I held a right to be angry, frustrated and resentful towards the contractor. However – I worked with reactions and as I did the point of wanting to see and understand the greater pattern opened up – how this tendency of conflicts between contractors and consumers exists in society at large.

In my line work, I see this problem a lot. There are many problems that can arise when buying cars, houses or when you are building your house and hiring a contractor to do it. Massive faults and errors can occur shortly after the purchase. And oftentimes the only way for the disfavored party to get some money back is to sue or threaten to sue. However the court procedure is awfully ineffective and very expensive. Lawyers cost a lot of money and a good case does not necessarily mean that you are going to win. Hence – you are thrown into a form of casino.

I looked at why this pattern exists and I could see that the contractor is motivated by his own self-interest and fear of survival to take on as much work as possible, even though he is not qualified, and even though he might not have the time or interest to do it properly. The money system as it exist also push the contractor to be dishonest and make sure he or she receives the most amount of money for the least amount of cost/work – which then also create a imbalance towards the consumer that gets lesser quality compared to the value of his money. The consumer on the other exist in the different spectrum. Because of the money system and the survival mechanisms it exists within, the consumer will push the price as much as possible, so that he can get as much value as is possible for the money he puts into the purchase. In that sense, the consumer is equally trying to harm the contractor. It becomes a game of winning and losing – and sometimes you are on the winning side and other times you are on the losing side.

The consequence is that distrust and fear is created between people in the system. Everyone thinks that nobody cares about another – that it is every man for himself – and then they act the same. The fear of survival is a dangerous experience that cause people to act without integrity or humanity. And still we believe that fear of survival and the competition it creates is good for the economy – that it is good for economic growth. Nothing could be farther from the truth. For the average man on the street, this competition creates the world into a casino, where every larger transaction can either become a failure or success.

In a system where money would be ensured this problem would not exist. Imagine having no fear in the world that the contractor would not do his job to the best of his ability – and imagine being reassured that even though something went wrong – you would have plenty of help. In a system of true care and support – the situation that someone is left to their demise would not exist. And such a world is possible. We do not have to be satisfied and content with what is currently here. It is possible to create world that is best for everyone – where the contractor would have no fear of survival and express himself because building is his passion – and where the consumer has no fear of survival and plenty of money to support the contractor to become the best that he can be.

Thus – what I have learned is not to blame or get caught in the individual situations that occur in this world system – because the problem is always much bigger – it is systematic in nature. Looking at things as an individual limits us from seeing what is best for everyone – and from seeing solutions that will benefit everyone. It instead puts us in a state of survival – where we will do everything to win – at all costs.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at the system from a individual perspective – and the points that open up in my life as ‘my problems’ and thus react in blame, fear, anxiety, distress, anger, and want to win and fight for my existence – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a step back and view the systematic error – to look at how the problem has been created and what is the actual cause and how it can be changed into a support for everyone – and thus approach things within oneness and equality instead of fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught in blame because of the perceived injustices in my particular case, where I feel like I have not received that which I paid for – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become dissatisfied, angry, and resentful, and only see things from my own limited perspective, instead of expanding my perspective, to view everything from a perspective of oneness and equality and what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught in blame and resentment because I feel like I have not been respected properly, and I have lost the game of the money system, and now I am the loser – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put the focus on me personally, to take it personally, to react personally, and forget about the other party, forget about the small situations and decisions that led up to this point, to not look at the system in its entirety and how it is designed to create situations as this one, because it is not built to facilitate mutually beneficial human relations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react towards and define the word loser as something bad and negative, and react when I perceive myself as being a loser, thinking that it is something shameful and bad, and that I have to immediately take back the ground lost by attacking and moving myself fast to destroy the opposition so that I can feel like a winner again – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind myself that winner and loser, these are human concepts, based on the notion of competition and that it is possible to put a value on someone based on the outcome in the competition – however in reality we are all equal in flesh and blood – and we are all of the one and same substance – the dirt of the earth – and thus the idea of a competition and the notion of a winner and a loser is a mind fuck

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not find a solution that benefits everyone – and to even though there has been many ripples, conflicts and emotions, to find a way out that is best for all, a direction that works – and to use this as an opportunity to practice my ability to forgive, to embrace and to let go – because I see, realize and understand, that I can only ever hold something against myself

Self-commitment statements

I commit myself to embrace the world, to embrace the fucked up situation that exists when it comes to contractors and consumers, to embrace and forgive, and move in this world, but not of this world – and to find solutions that works and that brings through the respect for life that is equal in everyone – and thus I commit myself to stop taking things personally – to forgive and let go – and instead build on solutions that are best for all

I commit myself to make decisions in stability – to not accept and allow myself to become worked up and haste – but to slow down and to find solutions and ways to go about the situation that is effective and that creates a mutually effective outcome that is best for everyone involved

Day 360: Certainty Must Come From Within

Purpose and clarity as to what I am going to do, who I am going to be, what direction that I will take on and live, what future I will create, that is a desire that has arisen within me frequently over the last years. In-fact, it has been a recurring point since my teenage years – the urge and desire to have a clearly defined path for myself.

I am not sure exactly when it began, however I have since long had a tendency to want one point that I can aim to accomplish – one interest – one hobby – one part of my life – that I want to bring to its full potential and master so completely that I know it by heart. I used to be comfortable doing things for no particular reason but that I enjoyed doing it, though slowly that  changed. For example, when I started playing computer games, it was because I enjoyed it a lot. In-fact I found it amazingly fun, and I would play game after game. Then, something changed. I began to deliberately focus on becoming ‘good’ at a particular games, and ‘better than’ others. Competition became part of my gaming experience, and now it was not anymore a question of me enjoying myself, it was now about taking it to the next level, so that I could win. I did this with many games – I continued to play them even though I did not necessarily like them, because I was good at them, and I wanted to win.

The same happened with other interests, usually they began as unconditional and innocent projects that I would take on and enjoy with all of my heart – then – they would change and become a way to achieve victory.

As I have progressed through life, this tendency of becoming obsessed with one project, one movement, one drive, has morphed and changed and spilled over into purpose, and have thus become a way of achieving certainty. This metamorphosis has definitely been fueled by the world system, where there are continuously stories promoted about people that seemingly only have one point of purpose in their life, that they follow religiously, and are through that able to achieve success. Making sure that we have a fixed route, we know where we are going, we know what we will do, for me, that has become a way of creating stability and certainty, believing that I need to know my place in my external reality to be stable, and to know myself.

Obviously, this idea of life and purpose is limited. It is limited because in placing our focus and attention on the external reality, we miss that it is not our external reality that determines who we are, it is us that determines our external reality – it is us that decide who we are – and this WHO WE ARE is in turn reflected by our external reality. That principle is the key to any form of creation – it is the key to understanding why our creations sometimes falter, why they other times work out perfectly, and why our life looks the way it looks.

Thus – I see, realize and understand, that my focus, instead of being placed at developing my external reality, first and foremost must be placed at developing/creating/refining my inner reality – and from that will naturally flow a direction as I stand stable within myself and move in breath. Life cannot be predicted beforehand, it must be lived and directed in the moment. Life can only become a certainty, when we stand with certainty within ourselves – and hence there is no point to look for a purpose or clarity out there – unless we have established that for ourselves. It all begins with self, every time.

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Day 350: Writing, The Way to Fill Life With Purpose

It is not strange that many feel purposeless and lost. This tends to happen when we loose touch with the physical reality, with our genuine self-expression, and our focus becomes more and more zoned into what happens within our minds. I have noticed, for myself, that the experience of being purposeless and lost goes hand in hand with my own relationship with myself – and interestingly enough – this relationship has been very much dependent upon writing.

Some weeks ago I made a decision to write more for myself. I have usually written about once a week, though now, I decided to write once every day or once every other day. The effects of applying this decision were immediate and positive, especially with regards to how I experienced myself in relation to words such as purpose, direction and movement. Because in when moving, working and living within the system on a daily basis, it is easy to forget what matters. If we do not nourish our relationship with ourselves properly, soon enough we will begin to feel empty and lost. And that is when it is easy to believe that we need a energy to feel alive and on track – that we need some form of personal reinvention – for example – a new hobby, a new car, a new girlfriend or a new job. However it is never about what to do, experience, achieve, get, own, out there – it is always and only about ourselves.

When I started to write more regularly, I noticed that my mind became more quiet, and the experience of being without purpose that had been stirring within me for a while, it was not there anymore. I was surprised, because I initially thought that I had to establish some form of direction in relation to the world system, to direct my experience of being without purpose. That was not the case, because purpose, is not something that can be achieved out there – purpose is something that we live within and as ourselves – it is all about who we are.

Yet, why is it that writing is such a powerful tool when it comes to establishing purpose? I see it the following way. Purpose, which is a clear sense and understanding of what I am doing here and to what end, is dependent upon inner clarity, that is the ability to see ourselves and our life clearly. And writing is one of the most effective tools for establishing clarity, because when we place down words before us, and through that with awareness design our understanding/seeing of reality and ourselves, we create clarity. Seeing clearly is thus a matter of having a clear and solid vocabulary, with which we have clearly defined and made sense of the world we interact with on a daily basis.

Writing is how we investigate, expand, move and create ourselves and our lives. In placing words, we design ourselves, and that brings through clarity, which in turns enables us to live with purpose. And purpose is simply to be clear on what we are doing, live with a reason, and have a clear direction – and with writing – we are able to establish that direction – re-focus our attention on what we want to create/expand/move/direct. That is why writing is so important, and why everyone interested in finding stability and purpose in their lives should use writing daily to expand their relationship with themselves.

Day 310: Reinventing The Wheel

Ever heard of the expression ‘There is no need to reinvent the wheel!’. For those that have not, this expression implies that it is completely unnecessary to come up with ‘your own way’ of approaching and directing a specific point if a solution has already been found – thus also implying that there is no value in coming up within things yourself – the value is instead in the solution itself and the practical outflows that comes from applying that solution.

I want to write a blog about this point because it has recently opened up in relation to my job. Basically, this is what happened: I had been given a task to write a piece on a specific topic. I sat down and started to sketch out how I would approach the point, only to realize that, there were some things off with the topic. I began making my own inquiries, and sat for some hours doing research. After a while I was satisfied, and also proud over myself that I had found that answers I was looking for. In my mind I imagined myself receiving some sort of praise or recognition from my superiors.

Later during the day I approached my boss and showed him what I had been working on. To my surprise he said; ‘Oh yes, that kind of problem, we deal with it like this, you can do the same here’ – whereupon he showed me an existing template of how the problem could be directed. I experienced a sense of disappointment, because I had hoped that my efforts would be rewarded with praise and attention, and now, it seemed that all my work had been in vain. This led me to ask myself the following questions: ‘Why did I not ask for someone’s perspective before I started to dig into this work?’ – ‘How can I avoid repeating this mistake in the future?’ – ‘How come it is that I place receiving attention and praise as a priority over practically getting things done in ways already tested and trialed?’.

In looking at this point I realized that the reason as to why I wanted to reinvent the wheel was because it would make me special, unique, and more in the eyes of others – through it I would be able to differentiate myself as more than. Though, the consequence of this was that I put in several hours into something that was not required, because the wheel was already invented, I could just have asked, and then solved the task within a matter of minutes.

Hence, this stands as a fitting example as to why wanting to be special, unique, new and the first is a limitation – because in that we are not working with COMMON SENSE – but trying to realize a dream/feeling/hope. And this feeling of being special, it is not even real, because physical creation is but that – it is a physical practical creation – and who created what or when – that does not matter to physical creation. For example, does it matter to a house or those living in the house, that the carpenter who built that house came up with and applied a new idea? Most likely no. And further, being special limits us from copying and using what is good and effective in the way others live their life’s – because we do not want to be a copycat. Though, what is wrong with being a copy cat when what is copied works and is of benefit to everyone?

Instead of wanting to be special, what should be the primary focus is to be of utmost value to ourselves and others in our life – and to be that it is not required for us to be unique – however we do need effective living techniques and in the process of establish such we can learn a lot from others. Hence, the solution that I see for myself when it comes to my job is to develop communication, openness, and also, completely let go of the desire to be special, and replace it with the desire to be effective/of benefit to myself and others. To instead of striving to be recognized, strive to do the best work that I can do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be special instead of equal with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be more than others and be recognized as special – and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss out on myself – where instead of my focus and direction being to create what is best for all – to be of benefit and support to others in my life – my direction becomes about wanting and desiring recognition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire recognition – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself and my physical reality in order to achieve recognition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practice self-recognition – in the sense that I recognize myself as being of value and a asset to others and myself – and push myself to stand as such a force in my life – where the purpose of myself and my future as such is not to become someone in the eyes of others – but instead to become a trustworthy companion that is able to walk this physical reality and give and share what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to invent something unique and out of this world – to want to do something nobody has ever done before so that I can feel special and good about myself in what I am doing – and hence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let this desire take the drive within me – and want it to push and drive me through my life – in the belief that I require and need this something – to make a mark in my life – to have done something with my life.

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see myself doing something because I want to be special – something that is not really practical or necessary and where I am trying to reinvent the wheel – I stop myself – I take a breath – and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that in wanting to be special and get recognition I am compromising my effectiveness and my ability to contribute and give to others what is best – and hence I see that there is no practical value in being special – there is no practical value in being unique – and this physical reality does not care about who does what – and hence I commit myself instead practice being of value to myself and others in my world through practical living – where I push myself to take actions that make sense and have results – instead of taking actions in hope of being special.

I commit myself to practice the word simplicity – to embrace simplicity in my life – to embrace simplicity as myself – to see, realize and understand that I do not need to be special in my life – that I do not need to be someone or something to others – that all I need is equality – is to embrace and push me to stand as an equal participant – in that live value – live equality – live contribution – to push myself to be a giving participant that makes a difference through practical – basic – daily actions

Day 296: Redefining Purpose

Creating my purpose, which is a process I have walked actively for a while now. I have from time to time experienced myself conflicted in this process, and mostly this has been related to the feeling that things are not moving fast enough, that I am not getting through, that I am not getting the feedback, and response I would like. This in turn have caused me to start to doubt the purpose I have given myself, and wonder if I am doing something wrong, or whether maybe walking into the wrong direction.

I have decided to look more deeply into this recurring experience to see where it is coming from. What I have realized is that there is an undercurrent of desire existing in my definition and understanding of purpose, and that the conflict I experience is actually consisting of a polarity of fear and desire. Now, the desire in my purpose, is to reach a state of notoriety, to be famous, known and well-regarded. You know, like an expert speaking on the television, having the loyal followers, being quoted in books, and seen all over the world as a significant figure. An example of that would be Ghandi, or Martin Luther King – the epitome of a supreme and world known leader.

In analyzing and reflecting on this point I have now realized that having, and walking a purpose, is not real, unless that purpose is walked for a greater cause, something bigger than ME – meaning: A point I create and walk in my life because I see it is of benefit to OTHERS – to this WORLD – it is hence me GIVING of myself. Purpose is not about receiving, purpose is not about ME – and this is what I have not fully grasped. For me purpose has been about becoming someone for others so that I can feel purposeful.

And I cannot blame myself for misunderstanding this, because if we look at the world, and how currently define purpose, mostly it is connected to being ‘special’, ‘unique’, having some form of ‘god given talent’ – for example: I have rarely seen someone exclaim that it is their purpose to pick up trash, or to clean horse stables, or take care of weeds. Mostly purpose, on a world system level, is defined as this great feat of human creation and confined to special and heroic human beings that have lived special lives throughout the course of human history.

Hence, I will here relook at my definition of purpose – what is really purpose?

Current definition of purpose in the dictionary

1 The reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists: the purpose of the meeting is to appoint a trustee | the building is no longer needed for its original purpose.

* (Usu. purposes) a particular requirement or consideration, typically one that is temporary or restricted in scope or extent: state pensions are considered as earned income for tax purposes.

2 [Mass noun] a person’s sense of resolve or determination: there was a new sense of purpose in her step as she set off.

Sounding of the word












The direct translation from Swedish is End-Goal

Creative Writing

In the sound of the word, is the sound PURR – which is the sound cat makes when they enjoy something. When petted, they purr. Then we have the sound pass, purse, or pose – where posing would be a certain position you take.

So, combining these sounds and the meanings of them, we get that purpose is a pose/action/movement we walk which in some way tickles our fancies – meaning – it is something that gets our blood pumping and we purr – we cannot help it – just as the cat cannot help purring when its petted.

And then, the Swedish translation of the word indicates that purpose is also about an END-GOAL – a VISION – something we desire to manifest in this world.

Hence – the question when establishing purpose for myself should be – what makes me purr? What is personal and close to me that I am passionate about – that I can develop and take as pose – a position – in this world? And then – as well – looking at what the END-GOAL – what it is that I want this purr within me to create – how can I – PASS-I-ON this PURR to the world?

Then – we also have the sound combination POUR-POSE – basically implying that something is being poured into a particular shape and form – a pose – a force is being directed to take a particular shape and form. For example, water is being poured into a glass of water, the water then taking the pose of water in a glass.

So, what i see is that purpose is about direction – about guiding energy, and movement. Purpose is a road map for what we do in this world, and do not do – it is the very REASON behind our movement and thus why we POUR our energy/life into a certain POSE in this world.

Redefinition of the word purpose

The reason and vision that moves a point forward

And when it comes to redefining it for the human experience – where focus is on ‘life-purpose’:

The reason and vision which drives me forward to pass it on to the rest of the world


Hence, when it comes to purpose, it is important to clarify what is the REASON for my LIFE. Meaning, what can I contribute and give the will make a difference and enhance the life, of not only mine, but also the lives of others? Into what POSITION can I pour my life and time?

Then, the VISION must also be established, what is it the I want to create, what is the END-GOAL?

Finally, what is my PASSION? Where and what of myself can I pass unto others that will benefit them? Where are my strengths, my secret powers, those parts of me that I see is needed in the world, and that only I am able to bring; because that is the point which is required for me to take responsibility for – hence – my purpose.

And here it is important to not that passion is NOT an experience. Passion is instead that which I see that I can PASS ON – meaning – that of myself that I see myself giving to the world; as such passion is about giving of myself and not about having an experience.

Day 116: My Reason For Living

Today I am going to walk a point that is in relation to the “present” – which means that it is a point that I am actively opening up for myself and thus I am not waiting for consequence to direct me – I am instead making the decision to explore and open up a point – this is self-movement in practical application.

reasonforlivingAfter listening to the interview on Eqafe called Your Reason for Living – Quantum Mind Self Awareness I have decided to write about the fascinating point of purpose – and I am here going to explore what purpose I have in life currently.

Listening to the interview I had a chuckle because as the point of reason mentioned, I immediately went into a slight positive experience that could be described as a elevation taking place in my solar plexus, and in that experience I with pride exclaimed that my reason for living was to bring about a world that is best for all. To my amusement it was a moment later explained that this particular reaction to the word purpose indicates the ILLUSION and it is not one’s real reason of living. One’s real reason for living can be found through self-introspection – looking at what type of thoughts and backchat that one tend to be preoccupied with throughout the day.

I have for some days looked at what preoccupies me the most in my thoughts and I have found that it is primarily thoughts about having a career and as a close second comes thoughts circling around how I am able to build myself a economically stable life, which is very much in relation to the primary point. Thus my primary purpose for living is to achieve an effective career so that I can get enough money to feel secure – lol – that is extremely limited purpose.

Obviously I am not limited to living this purpose and I do have the power and ability to decide for myself a new purpose, which I will do.

The rest of this blog will be dedicated to applying self-forgiveness on this particular purpose of mine.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and create my reason for living as being to have a career and get an effective income so that I am able to feel safe and secure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throughout my day preoccupy myself with thoughts about career and how I can get a job that will give me sufficient with money so that I can feel safe and economically secure – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I am limiting myself when I am giving myself such a purpose – and that there can obviously be so much more to myself and my life than getting a career and having enough money to feel secure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not expand, create and direct my purpose in life to be aligned with what is best for all – with life – and with creating heaven on earth practically and physically – thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself through giving myself a purpose where I only see myself and my own life – and my own existence and everything and everyone else is left out and shut out as apparently not being relevant to my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to align myself with and as the purpose of trying to get a good career and trying to make enough money to feel secure and safe – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not challenge myself to make something more out of my life – to expand myself and realize that my life doesn’t need to have this limited and every isolated purpose where all that matters to me is myself – my career – and my money – but that I am able to expand my purpose of living to include everyone – to include life – to include the future generations of this earth – to include what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to change my purpose but that my purpose is something god given that is holy and that I can’t touch – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that a purpose nothing special – it’s merely words forming a sentence and within that forming a directive and a principle – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not will myself to create a purpose for myself to benefits all – that is best for all and thus best for myself – and as such dare myself to let go of this current purpose of mine as making sure that I have an effective career and that I make enough money to feel secure in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will require to create a new purpose for myself and will into existence through practical physical living – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire that purpose is something that simply comes to me, that simply opens up for me as a experience and a positive movement in my solar plexus – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I am effectively limiting myself when holding unto this belief that purpose should simply come to me – because I can instead make the decision to create purpose and have purpose be created as me – as such me coming to purpose and designing purpose to be effective for life as what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself in regards to what is my real purpose of living and realize that the positive and exciting experience that emerge within me as I ask myself what is my purpose – and the positive, fluffy, lighthearted and benevolent backchat that emerge within as what is my apparent purpose – that this is not my real purpose of living – but that my real purpose of living can be found in the thoughts that I accept and allow to preoccupy my mind throughout my day – and as such my purpose is not what I believe it to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and understand that my current purpose in life is based upon fear and anxiety – is based upon me wanting to survive above all else and that there is no consideration and regard for anything more but me surviving – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question this particular desire to survive and live to the next day – because what is this really worth when I do nothing to change the existence of abuse as it currently exists?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is really no purpose and meaning to life if I simply live out my days living in self-interest, going where it feels pleasant and nice, trying to create my life in such a way that I feel positively charged – there is absolutely no meaning, no substance, no real reason for such a life and living – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the desire to survive is really not valid – because there is actually no reason for living or surviving unless I am actually making the most of each day – pushing myself to move myself to my fullest potential – and within this not accept and allow anything less of myself than what I am capable of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that a reason as to why I tend to feel as if there is no meaning, purpose or substance in my life, is because I don’t stand by and live by a purpose that is of real substance, value and meaning – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself with a purpose that gives real meaning to my life – which is the purpose of birthing life from the physical – birthing heaven on earth – creating a life that is best for all in all ways and where there is no more mind involved in the living of men – but where all are HERE directive, principled and effective in their application of self-honest living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no meaning and purpose to exist when all I exist for and as is myself and my own pleasures, my own interests, my own desires, my own dreams and my own fantasies – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make the aware decision to change myself and my relationship to purpose – to meaning – and to reason – seeing, realizing and understanding that in the current state of the world – there is only one valid reason for existing – and that is moving oneself to change both the inner and the outer – to direct both the inner and the outer – and to make sure that the abuse that is currently here does not become worse – but that I instead STOP here and make that directive decision and stand as an example unto others that it’s possible to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that one of the reasons as to why I’ve found it difficult to dedicate my life and living to process is because I’ve designed a particular purpose for living that is not in alignment with the physical, with what is of real meaning and value – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make the self-directed decision to change my purpose for living – and to make an effort – and will myself to physically change my participation and movement in life so that I do not anymore compromise myself in going into a limited existence of only thinking about me – only considering me – only being interested in me – but instead expanding myself to consider ALL and what is best for ALL


When and as I see that I am participating in the purpose for life as getting a career and making enough money in my life for me to feel secure and safe, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that this purpose of living is worthless, it has no substance, no value and no meaning, it’s just a empty experience – as such I commit myself to re-align my purpose of living to be walking process and bringing change both on an inner and outer level as what is best for all

When and as I see that I am going into thoughts about career and making sufficient with money to feel secure and safe in my life, and protected, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that I am in this moment participating in a purpose for living that has no value, no meaning and no reason, that is in it’s very nature worthless – as such I commit myself to stop these thoughts – to breathe – and to bring myself back here – and re-align my purpose of living to instead be that of caring for life – caring for the birthing and development of life as what is best for all both on a inner and outer level

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OCD Will End In An Equal Money System

OCD is an abbreviation for obsessive-compulsive disorder, which is a mental illness that is signified through people having re-occurring compulsive thoughts. To exist in such a condition cause anxiety, which is channeled and suppressed through compulsive actions – such as washing your hands several times every hour, or switching socks 10 times a day; the point of these ritual is to decrease the anxiety that the thoughts bring.

As I’ve said already – this is a mental condition – wherein the affected will be unable to control his own thinking processes, and as a consequence become a delinquent in many ways – not able to exist effectively in this reality.

Such a condition will not exist in an Equal Money System – the reason being that: in an Equal Money System self-forgiveness, self-honesty, and common sense will become generally known and applied tools for all mental delusions. Those can’t effectively support themselves, will be helped by those that have already assisted and supported themselves – effective self-forgiveness will be shown – writing will be shown – and no mentally disturbed will be seen as a victim of a disease – but as a suppressed being, with the potential of standing up and living what is best for all.

Because in-fact – no mental disease is incurable – all thoughts, and inner experiences can be directed by self – it’s a process of self-empowerment to learn to direct ones inner chatter, yet it is possible – and in an Equal Money System – it will be common knowledge to everyone.

Thus – there will be no more ineffective psychology, and psychiatry that consider mentally ill as victims and inferior to their disease – psychologists and psychiatrists that as such end up not curing, or helping anyone – but instead furthering the delusion of those that believe themselves to be helplessly lost to the inner demon of backchat; though this is not true, as the inner backchat demon can be removed.

In an Equal Money System OCD will disappear, as well as all other mental diseases – as we will learn to live and stand as the directive principle of our inner reality.