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Day 116: My Reason For Living

Today I am going to walk a point that is in relation to the “present” – which means that it is a point that I am actively opening up for myself and thus I am not waiting for consequence to direct me – I am instead making the decision to explore and open up a point – this is self-movement in practical application.

reasonforlivingAfter listening to the interview on Eqafe called Your Reason for Living – Quantum Mind Self Awareness I have decided to write about the fascinating point of purpose – and I am here going to explore what purpose I have in life currently.

Listening to the interview I had a chuckle because as the point of reason mentioned, I immediately went into a slight positive experience that could be described as a elevation taking place in my solar plexus, and in that experience I with pride exclaimed that my reason for living was to bring about a world that is best for all. To my amusement it was a moment later explained that this particular reaction to the word purpose indicates the ILLUSION and it is not one’s real reason of living. One’s real reason for living can be found through self-introspection – looking at what type of thoughts and backchat that one tend to be preoccupied with throughout the day.

I have for some days looked at what preoccupies me the most in my thoughts and I have found that it is primarily thoughts about having a career and as a close second comes thoughts circling around how I am able to build myself a economically stable life, which is very much in relation to the primary point. Thus my primary purpose for living is to achieve an effective career so that I can get enough money to feel secure – lol – that is extremely limited purpose.

Obviously I am not limited to living this purpose and I do have the power and ability to decide for myself a new purpose, which I will do.

The rest of this blog will be dedicated to applying self-forgiveness on this particular purpose of mine.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and create my reason for living as being to have a career and get an effective income so that I am able to feel safe and secure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throughout my day preoccupy myself with thoughts about career and how I can get a job that will give me sufficient with money so that I can feel safe and economically secure – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I am limiting myself when I am giving myself such a purpose – and that there can obviously be so much more to myself and my life than getting a career and having enough money to feel secure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not expand, create and direct my purpose in life to be aligned with what is best for all – with life – and with creating heaven on earth practically and physically – thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself through giving myself a purpose where I only see myself and my own life – and my own existence and everything and everyone else is left out and shut out as apparently not being relevant to my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to align myself with and as the purpose of trying to get a good career and trying to make enough money to feel secure and safe – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not challenge myself to make something more out of my life – to expand myself and realize that my life doesn’t need to have this limited and every isolated purpose where all that matters to me is myself – my career – and my money – but that I am able to expand my purpose of living to include everyone – to include life – to include the future generations of this earth – to include what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to change my purpose but that my purpose is something god given that is holy and that I can’t touch – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that a purpose nothing special – it’s merely words forming a sentence and within that forming a directive and a principle – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not will myself to create a purpose for myself to benefits all – that is best for all and thus best for myself – and as such dare myself to let go of this current purpose of mine as making sure that I have an effective career and that I make enough money to feel secure in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will require to create a new purpose for myself and will into existence through practical physical living – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire that purpose is something that simply comes to me, that simply opens up for me as a experience and a positive movement in my solar plexus – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I am effectively limiting myself when holding unto this belief that purpose should simply come to me – because I can instead make the decision to create purpose and have purpose be created as me – as such me coming to purpose and designing purpose to be effective for life as what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself in regards to what is my real purpose of living and realize that the positive and exciting experience that emerge within me as I ask myself what is my purpose – and the positive, fluffy, lighthearted and benevolent backchat that emerge within as what is my apparent purpose – that this is not my real purpose of living – but that my real purpose of living can be found in the thoughts that I accept and allow to preoccupy my mind throughout my day – and as such my purpose is not what I believe it to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and understand that my current purpose in life is based upon fear and anxiety – is based upon me wanting to survive above all else and that there is no consideration and regard for anything more but me surviving – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question this particular desire to survive and live to the next day – because what is this really worth when I do nothing to change the existence of abuse as it currently exists?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is really no purpose and meaning to life if I simply live out my days living in self-interest, going where it feels pleasant and nice, trying to create my life in such a way that I feel positively charged – there is absolutely no meaning, no substance, no real reason for such a life and living – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the desire to survive is really not valid – because there is actually no reason for living or surviving unless I am actually making the most of each day – pushing myself to move myself to my fullest potential – and within this not accept and allow anything less of myself than what I am capable of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that a reason as to why I tend to feel as if there is no meaning, purpose or substance in my life, is because I don’t stand by and live by a purpose that is of real substance, value and meaning – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself with a purpose that gives real meaning to my life – which is the purpose of birthing life from the physical – birthing heaven on earth – creating a life that is best for all in all ways and where there is no more mind involved in the living of men – but where all are HERE directive, principled and effective in their application of self-honest living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no meaning and purpose to exist when all I exist for and as is myself and my own pleasures, my own interests, my own desires, my own dreams and my own fantasies – as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make the aware decision to change myself and my relationship to purpose – to meaning – and to reason – seeing, realizing and understanding that in the current state of the world – there is only one valid reason for existing – and that is moving oneself to change both the inner and the outer – to direct both the inner and the outer – and to make sure that the abuse that is currently here does not become worse – but that I instead STOP here and make that directive decision and stand as an example unto others that it’s possible to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that one of the reasons as to why I’ve found it difficult to dedicate my life and living to process is because I’ve designed a particular purpose for living that is not in alignment with the physical, with what is of real meaning and value – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make the self-directed decision to change my purpose for living – and to make an effort – and will myself to physically change my participation and movement in life so that I do not anymore compromise myself in going into a limited existence of only thinking about me – only considering me – only being interested in me – but instead expanding myself to consider ALL and what is best for ALL

Self-commitments

When and as I see that I am participating in the purpose for life as getting a career and making enough money in my life for me to feel secure and safe, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that this purpose of living is worthless, it has no substance, no value and no meaning, it’s just a empty experience – as such I commit myself to re-align my purpose of living to be walking process and bringing change both on an inner and outer level as what is best for all

When and as I see that I am going into thoughts about career and making sufficient with money to feel secure and safe in my life, and protected, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that I am in this moment participating in a purpose for living that has no value, no meaning and no reason, that is in it’s very nature worthless – as such I commit myself to stop these thoughts – to breathe – and to bring myself back here – and re-align my purpose of living to instead be that of caring for life – caring for the birthing and development of life as what is best for all both on a inner and outer level

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Destonians The Godly Bloggers

I started my first blog in 2008 – looking at what I’ve written back then is interesting – and hilarious – as I was really quite an expert in completely immersing myself in various ideas, delusions and concepts – what’s that called with another name? Oh yeah – being a human! LOL –

Anyway – it’s four years ago now since I started writing my blogs, and it has assisted me immensely in getting myself out from my mind, and back into reality – and looking back at my first posts – it’s clear to see that I’ve changed fundamentally.

In the beginning when I started to write, making blogs was my point of lashing out and exertion – when I was writing I could go haywire and just let all of the nasty stuff out without no regard or consideration – though what I missed within this application was the fact that I am in-fact the words that I am writing – and I mean, if I write that I feel confused, lost, and delusional in 20 blogs following after each other, I mean it’s not strange that this is the way I will experience myself as well.

Thus – after my period of lashing out in blogs, and using them as my platform of simply going crazy, I started to direct the words as myself, and write self-directed – which means that I started to write myself out, and at the same time create myself as the words I was writing – if I would notice that I would experience myself as confused and lost, I wouldn’t simply write – “oh I experience myself so confused and lost!” No then I would push myself to look within me as to a solution to be lived, to end my experience of myself as confused and lost – I mean, in what way was I confused and lost? Was there some type of practical issue in my reality that needed direction? And then according to what I would see, as I asked myself such and other similar questions, I would place a correction for myself, and a direction as to how I would live from that point onwards.

To get to that stage of writing myself out took a long time, because I was a slow learner, and I didn’t write as much as I could’ve done – and also due to the nature of laziness that I’d developed, I never really took the time required to sit and write myself out properly, and correct myself, in the specificity that was needed. Though, after lots of mistakes and errors – I made it to the point of realizing the importance of writing self-directed.

Then – we arrive at the third stage of my development as a self-honesty author, which is the stage I currently find myself in, wherein I am now writing in order to assist and support others, and also to develop my understanding and insight in regards to how this current system functions – my maturing in terms of writing has been a process of accumulation, wherein I’ve in essence become less and less self-interested oriented in my writings, and more and more developed writing as a way of asserting myself as principle, developing myself as principle, and also expanding myself in my current application of myself as principle – so – I am at the moment still busy with this project of self-expansion, and will be for the rest of my life – none are free until all free.

Anyway – let me now get to the point, and the essence of this short article, and herein it will become clear why I’ve taken you through a short journey of my blogging adventures and realizations – see I didn’t walk this project of blogging myself to freedom alone – no I walked with a group – Desteni – and together we’ve pushed ourselves, developed, and expanded ourselves to become effective and self-directed individuals – able to write in a clear and comprehensive manner, for all to understand and enjoy – yes – we might actually be author-gods – *wink* – *wink*.

So – we’ve collected some of our best blogs in a book called Freedom Blogs – The Birth Of Practivism – Volume 1 – this is as such the book wherein you’ll follow the Destonians we push ourselves to expand, willing ourselves to put our fingers on that keyboard and write out that article – oh yes – it’s not easy to walk the process – it’s resistance upon resistance – point upon point – yet still – here we stand and show this book as the result of our labor – and I mean – this book simply can’t be missed out upon.

And I promise you that haven’t ever read anything alike that of the Destonian writings – it’s simply a new way of writing, and that isn’t very strange as we present a new way of living – a practical way – a way wherein all can be free – and hence the name of the book – Freedom Blogs: The Birth Of Practivism.

So – make yourself the owner of the book – click here – and enjoy some late nights in the bed following the adventures of the Destonians – as they push themselves no matter what – regardless – until it’s done.

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2012 And How I Came To Fall In Love With Desteni

I had just finished the gymnasium and I was searching for something, I wanted there to be something in life more exciting than money – something meaningful – something that I could dedicate my life towards, and find true enjoyment doing; so far I hadn’t found anything that I could completely immerse myself in, I hadn’t found anything that fulfilled me – so I felt empty.

It was in this state of emptiness that I decided to travel the world too see if I could find what I was looking for outside the borders of my birth-country – I went to Asia – I found nothing – what was I looking for? What was it that was missing in my life? How come that nothing of what I did felt valuable, substantial, of any worth? How come I felt empty at all times? What was it that was missing?

I tried following my dream – to become an artist – I thought that maybe me becoming an artist would fulfill me? I managed to find a gig, I managed to play in-front of a crowd – I managed to get a couple of people to tell me that I was good at singing, and good at playing guitar – yet still – what is it that is missing? Why can’t I be satisfied with myself? Why does it feel as if there always something left be done, no matter how much do?

I wanted an answer – I wanted to be able to enjoy myself – I remembered my childhood clearly – I knew that when I was young I had experienced myself differently – I had been able to enjoy myself, and find the most simple things to be so utterly fascinating, and exciting – playing football with my friends – bathing in the lake – having a pet lizard, feeding it and looking at how it ate small worms – building villages out of sand, and then playing with the small sand houses – I remembered this time well, and I knew that as I had grown older – this ability of mine that I had possessed as a child, to be able to immerse myself in the movement of the moment, had gone missing.

Something had to be done – an answer had to be found – a solution had to be created – I couldn’t continue to live and experience myself as I did – I wanted to return to my childhood experience of myself – but how? Where was the answer? And why was I the only one that felt as I did? Didn’t anyone else feel that, as they came to grow and become older, they slowly but surely ran stale, like water once running freely and abundantly in a lake, but year by year slowly and almost unnoticeably drying out, until one day no more water remains – that was how I felt – like a fountain of water that didn’t anymore have access to it’s water supply – there was something missing.

I found spirituality – I found meditation – I found the belief in ascension – this made somewhat sense I thought and I tried to empty my mind, too breath and somehow change the experience of myself, and find some type of peace, or comfortableness – this didn’t work – I wanted it to work – I deceived myself into believing that it worked, but in essence I remained the same – still this same restlessness – this same unease – this experience of wanting to go somewhere, yet no matter how many times I got there – there was still another there to go to.

Then I found Desteni – due to my experience of myself, as having realized that I was empty, that there was something missing in my life, and that there was something fundamentally flawed and wrong with how I experienced, expressed, lived myself – I knew that that this was in-fact the answer I had been looking for – I was ready to hear – more than ready to hear – I understood that I had somehow, without me realizing, or seeing it died during my years of coming to age, and I knew that Desteni offered and shared the practical way of bringing myself back to life – self-forgiveness – self-corrective application – self-honesty – common sense and breath.

I was looking for my youth – for the ability a child owns of being able to enjoy themselves without any addiction needed to be fulfilled – no love – no sex – no weed – no alcohol – no dreams – no money – no success – no power – no ascension – simply living self-enjoyment here – no more and no less – this was what Desteni showed me – how this can be done – how the expression of living as the innocence of a child can be re-created and re-stored – this was what I had been looking for all along.

None of my friends understood or saw what Desteni presented – the reason – they were all to satisfied with holding on to their perceived experienced of satisfaction, created through the usage of various drugs – whether it be sex – whether it be alcohol – whether it be drugs – they simply didn’t want to face that inner experience of emptiness and pointlessness that I came to see and experience within me – this experience that I had for quite some time been suppressing with the usage of drugs and additives; but no more – I wanted to exist without additives – without a constant need of placing myself into an experience of fabricated bliss – that really was only me not being aware of myself anymore – but existing completely secluded from reality and how I in-fact felt.

Desteni presents the most important message ever shared with mankind – Desteni presents the way back to innocence – the way back to self-expression – the way back to self-trust – the way back to self-enjoyment – the way back to ourselves – we’ve all been children – we all know how it is to laugh because we so much enjoy expressing ourselves in the most simple and rudimentary ways – Desteni offers all that apply the tools presented the way back to the ability to laugh – too enjoy moments seemingly boring and uneventful – Desteni offers substance to fill the experience of emptiness we all carry inside ourselves – filling ourselves with ourselves – making ourselves to become substantial, practical, and physical beings.

Thus – I am the example that our childhood can’t be lost – it can only be forgotten – though it’s our responsibility to bring ourselves back to life – to end the existence of ourselves as lost in a mind – lost in thinking – lost in feeling – lost in perceiving – lost in believing – and first and foremost – lost in FEAR – though all of these mental delusions can be deleted – and what can be placed in it’s stead is actual self-experience, and actual self-expression – this is something that mustn’t be missed out on – though it’s up each and everyone – we all have free choice – we either birth ourselves yet again, or we remain stagnant until we finally run dry and die.

Life is waiting for you to take it upon yourself to bring yourself back from the dead – what are you waiting for?

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Ann Van Den Broek
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