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Day 371: Chilling Out

Some time has passed since I finished my studies and got my first job – and in it has been a process with some changes. One of the biggest shifts has been that I have had a lot less time while working compared to when I was studying. This change took me by surprise and a couple of times, especially lately, I have reacted to the point that I do not have more time to my disposal. Instead of embracing the my life at moment simply does not contain the amount of leisure time that I had access to before, I have tried to handle it within the starting point of making myself more efficient. I do see that such a application is a cool way to tackle lack of time, however, it is also important to make sure that the decision to practice time efficiency is not based on fear or a reaction towards not having as much time  when compared to the past.

Last week I really pushed time efficiency, though afterwards, I could see that it was from within and as a starting point of fear – because I scurried about trying to do as much as possible without really getting anything done – and as I woke up the next morning – I could literally feel in my body how I had been moving myself too fast the day before. Another point that I could notice with how I moved myself was the way I prioritized the different activities/tasks were not effectively aligned. I felt pressured to continue certain tasks, that when looking at them objectively, were not in any way as urgent as I made them out to be.

Thus, there is a difference between being efficient with time and being stressed/uptight about time. The latter way of relating to time is when we believe that we should strive towards getting as much done as possible. Obviously, getting a lot of things done does not in itself mean that our life will be effectively organized and directed – because for us to be effective in that regard as well – we must be able to prioritize, to see the big picture, and ascertain as well as specify what order activities/tasks should be walked. When we are able to do that, as well as being efficient with our time, then we are making real progress.

However, just scurrying about trying to do as much as possible, that is not only inefficient, it also puts a strain on the body. The body should always be considered in any type of schedule. If we do not make space and time for the body to recuperate and rejuvenate from labor we will not be effective and in time our body will show physical symptoms of our disregard. That is why time efficiency does not imply ‘doing things as fast as possible’ – rather – being efficient with time is to know the limits of the physical, to plan and organize effectively, and to prioritize, and not become stressed/anxious/worried when there simply is not enough time for certain tasks/activities. If that happens, it is better to simply let them go, and then when time opens up another day, to then pursue the point.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become winded up when I notice that I do not have enough time to do everything I have planned, and then try to force the execution and creation of my plans into reality, not seeing, realizing and understanding, that I am by doing that creating consequences for myself, I am harming myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to force my plans and visions into creation instead of walking breath by breath – HERE in the physical – not accepting and allowing myself to attempt try to skip steps and move to fast – but to see, realize and understand that my movement and creation of points will be efficient – when I walk HERE – in the physical – not trying to do more than – or less than – but remaining in the physical – doing things breath by breath – moving points breath by breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not move myself in balance and equilibrium with my external reality – and to within this see, realize and understand – that when I try to force points from within and as a starting point of stress – I am creating consequences for my human physical body – and then – further – I am creating consequences in the sense that what I do is usually not done very effectively – because I rush through it – trying to complete it – not seeing, realizing and understanding that for an expression to come through nicely – I must invest the time and effort required – and that cannot be controlled by my stress and urge to get points done now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt and try to force the creation of time, to force getting and having more time on my hands, and to go into an emotional turmoil and conflict when I feel that there is not enough time to do what I have planned – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not the time that I push and change, it is rather my planning, my organization and my priorities – and also see that when I attempt and try to force points into creation – prematurely birthing them and placing them into this world even though the prerequisites for such a creation is not here – then I am creating consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not chill out – to allow myself to let go of the need, the urge, to complete certain tasks – to asks myself in self-honesty whether it is in-fact as important to complete this point that I am looking as it seems and feels inside of my mind – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath, to bring myself back here to and as my human physical body, and to move with breath, to move with the physical, to move one step at a time, and to assess in each moment if it works, if I am moving myself effectively – and if I am satisfied with how the point is playing out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate getting things done with a positive feeling – to think that it is positive, it is good, it is beneficial the more things that I get done – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question this premise – because why would it be good the more things I get done? There is nothing within getting things done that in itself creates a better me, or a better world, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that I have been indoctrinated into a ‘productive’ mind-set – where the production is what matters – the amount of products produced – and not the presence within that production and work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value quantity before quality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is a value in how I get things done – to see that it is not only about producing and showing a product – it is also about who I am in the making and creation of that product – because if I am running around in a state of stress – then what does it really mean to be able to create a lot of things? Because I am not really HERE anyway – I am not really living anyway – so what does it then matter that I am able to produce and create a lot of things?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practice comfortable and easy-going – chilled out – movement – to move myself breath by breath – from point to point – getting things done in a steady and consistent pace – not accepting and allowing myself to become rushed – and then attempt and try to rush the completion of what I am doing so that I can get to the next point – no – I move myself breath by breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I will get things done – maybe not now – but if I stick to the point and I move myself consistently – little by little – day by day – then I will move the point into completion eventually – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have this expansive way of viewing my reality – where I see the entire timeline of a creation stretched out into the future – and I do not accept and allow myself to become zoned in and possessed with wanting to and trying to finish and complete something HERE in this moment

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that I am rushing myself, forcing myself to move to get as many points done as possible, I take a breath, I bring myself back here, and I stop myself, and I see, realize and understand that being efficient with time, also implies moving myself consistently, with a comfortable pace for my body, taking breaks and moments to support my body – being realistic about what can be done, prioritizing and making sure that I pursue the most important tasks first and organizing and planning my time – and also having an overview – seeing that some projects and tasks will take longer to complete – and that it is nothing wrong in itself – it is simply what it is – that is how physical reality operates – certain points takes time; thus I commit myself to move myself breath by breath – and when I get stressed or I notice that I jump in my thought processes between various projects – I take a breath – I ground myself back here – and I continue to move myself in a comfortable pace with the ONE project I got going HERE

And – I commit myself to develop the skills of prioritizing, planning and organizing – to as such develop an overview of my life – and also learn what is important and what is not – to understand within this that to produce is not what matters – what matters is who I am within that – and that I am creating a life for myself and others that is effective and supportive in all dimensions and aspects of living


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Day 192: Facing Uncertainty With Boldness

Boldness is a trait and characteristic that oftentimes is connected to war, the strive for success, the ability to take risks, and move in the face of fear – though to be bold is not only that – being bold is something that we’re able to use and live in our daily lives – as we face those daily points that come up within us – emotions, feelings, thoughts – being bold would imply moving into a new direction – it would imply going for that change – and standing – walking into the unknown without hesitation.

Now, I’ve been working with this point of boldness for a while, and I’ve realized that living boldness is one of the solutions to the experience of fear and anxiety towards the future. Because one of the issues with my way of approach fear and anxiety have been that I’ve not yet replaced it with a creation – with a correction and a new way of living that I see would be more supportive and effective for me – and compliment me and the life that I am living – here boldness comes in as a word that I able to live.

The point of boldness further opened up when I was listening to a interview with the attaché to a second world war general: The attaché explained that his job was to make sure that the general – which was a contentious and hesitant one – did his job and gave the orders that were required for the army to move forward. He explained that what a general was supposed to do was to make the decisions and then stand by them – and this resonated with me – because this is the exact point that I’ve been facing. My very problem and issue have been to make my decisions and then boldly walk into them and face the consequences of them – instead I’ve made decisions – become worried and nervous about the decision – then re-made the decision – and repeated the process again.

Thus – one aspect of living the word bold as I see it – is to stand by my decisions – to dare to face the consequences and playouts of my application and movement in this world and not be deterred or impeded by failure, mistakes, contingencies, and unforeseen events.

The same goes for walking process – and walking my self-change – it’s a process that I can’t foresee the result of – I am not able to know exactly what is going to happen – exactly what I should do and how I should go about it – yet – in walking this point of being bold – and walking with my decision and pushing through regardless of what I am facing within – no problem can hold me back – because I know that regardless – I will push through – and I will establish solutions for myself – and I will direct and move myself through challenges and difficulties.

This particular point of being strong and having the ability to push through and walk regardless of the difficulties was also brought up in this interview – where in essence – what is shared is that in order to walk process successfully and establish change for real – you require to give it your all – and not stop in the face adversities and predicaments – but rather hold unto and push through within that knowing – that I will not give up – I will not give in – I will do what I came here to do and that is to create myself.

Thus – living boldness is something that I will practice in my day-to-day living – and in particular I will apply this boldness when fear and doubt comes up – to then exclaim within myself that: I am bold – I move myself into the unknown and without certainty – because I trust myself that whatever issue or difficulty I will face – I am going to direct it into a solution.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand within and as the word of being bold – and live as boldness – wherein I will walk into uncertainty, and the unknown with self-trust – wherein I will move into the future – and move with my decisions – and face the consequences – knowing that whatever I am going to face – I will stand within myself and direct the point into and as a solution

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not when fear, anxiety or doubt comes up within me in relation to the future – or decisions I’ve made – to stop – take a breath and bring myself back here – and state within myself that I am bold – and that I boldly take the step into the next moment and face whatever might come my way – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate – to fear – and to go into self-disbelief – instead of sticking with my decision – sticking with my initial intent and what I set out to do – and not accepting and allowing myself to be deterred – impeded or hindered – but that I instead push through and do what is required to be done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to approach my future in hesitation, in worry, fear and anxiety, self-disbelief, and inferiority – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to change this – I must change my approach towards the future – my outlook – my way of seeing myself in relationship to my future – and within this I see, realize and understand that living boldness is a solution and something that’ll assist and support me to move forward – and to create myself in my life in such a way that I see is supportive and assisting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not immediately when fear arise within me – stop – take a breath and bring myself back here to what I am doing – and what I am walking – and what I am creating – to bring myself back to that certainty that regardless of what – I will find a solution – I will move myself forward – I will not give up or give in – but I will rather create myself through living boldness – through approaching my life – and my future – not within fear – but rather within being creative and playful – going into and towards the unknown and the uncertain – and not accepting and allowing worry and fear to dictate my expression – but rather that I dictate and move myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that fear indicates that I don’t trust myself – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not through repetitive action – consistently prove to myself – that I can trust myself – that when I face difficulties – when I face points that I don’t immediately know how to direct and move – that I will find a solution – that I will find a way through – and that I will not give up upon myself – not give up upon what I’ve set out to do – but rather push through

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that fear, angst, worry towards the future – or decisions that I’ve made comes up within me – I stop – I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand this fear comes up because I don’t yet trust myself – I don’t yet stand as my own backbone in being stable and firm – steadfast and motivated to push myself through any and all obstacles – find the solutions – establish and create my life regardless – and thus I commit myself to live boldness – to boldly push forward even though I can’t predict the future – and even though it’s uncertain – to realize that life is in it’s very nature and essence uncertain – and living in fear of that is meaningless – and through living boldness I take charge of myself and push forward to make the most of my life and in this realize – that when challenges and difficulties emerge – I will direct them – I will find and establish a solution