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2012 A Nerd For Life

The nerd symbolizes the personality traits of being held back, introverted, highly skilled in a particular field, insecure, and as an outsider. The nerd is normally regarded and seen by the general populous as something inferior, a laughingstock, somebody that doesn’t know what’s in, what’s hip and cool – and how you impress the ladies. Yet, it is this generally accepted view of the nerd as inferior real, and true? Or is it yet another scheme of a system that in every way attempts to cripple, and diminish actual greatness, and integrity from being birthed in this world?

I remember when I grew up, I particularly enjoyed to play computer games, play with small cones – I equipped the cones with small wooden twigs, which then became the weapon of the cone, and then I waged grand-scale cone wars, having my twig-equipped cones ravage each-others sand houses, and fight each other out, and that game I really enjoyed. Yet, it was never something that I would tell any of my friends that I enjoyed, as I was about 12 years old and still played this game with myself, while the popular guys in school, now had decided that playing games wasn’t anymore cool; what was cool now was instead smoking, having sex, and drinking alcohol.

So, why did I fear so much to show to others who I really was? What I actually enjoyed and found fulfilling to do? The truth is that I feared to be an outsider, and I feared to be called a nerd, and so I gave up upon myself as my nerdy sides, I hid them from the world and instead desperately tried to fit myself into the various “cool” things that was suggested for a “cool” and “normal” guy to do. Obviously I found all of these “cool” things to be utterly boring, yet I still did these things, only in order to fit in and hide myself in the masses, so nobody would see that really – I was actually a nerd.

A real nerd wouldn’t have done what I did, a real nerd would’ve stuck with his hobbies and interests, and in the face of a crowd of people all doing the same thing, saying the same thing, thinking the same thing, the nerd would’ve stood out as a complete freak of nature – as someone that has an interest that isn’t one of alcohol, sex, drugs, money, or “being cool” – as someone that really is a actual being, and not a copycat.

Living in such a way, wherein you stick with what you enjoy to do, and continuing to stick what the interests that stimulate you, that is actual integrity, and such a way of living is in every way superior to living as a copy, attempting to impress other copies, that you’re the best and most popular copy. Nerds are in-fact people that have chosen to walk life in a way that isn’t mainstream, and for this they are judged, bullied, and shunned – while in reality they should be saluted as courageous human-beings that dare to stand by a principle they themselves have designed, and not by a principle that someone has given to them, saying: do this and you’ll be cool.

And while the popular people walk through their school years focused upon sex, alcohol and being cool, a nerd walk through his school years taking part in the education that is offered, learning new things, reading, exploring this reality for himself, getting to know himself, and being content with himself. As such a nerd, as someone that dares to stand on his own, that lives not from the fear of being disliked, and shunned, but from within his own interests and passions, truly expands, and develops himself in the school years, while his peers remain stagnant in the search for popularity.

It’s fascinating that the general and accepted view of nerds is that they are inferior; while truly they are very effective beings, with a self-image, that isn’t based upon what others think of them, but upon what they like to do.

In order to truly understand the greatness of a nerd, I suggest that you listen to this interview – as it explains, from the perspective of a nerd, how he instead of getting caught in the matrix of partying and sex – instead decided to use his youth in order to educate and develop himself, and enjoy himself within playing video games. That is real integrity, and real popularity – as your doing something for yourself, and as such you make yourself popular to yourself – and that is real courage, as daring to stand by yourself, when everyone else around you give in to the addictions, and the accepted ways and woes of this world – that is being self-honest.

Thus – I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become a nerd once again, now standing here pursuing in life that which I find enjoyable, and meaningful, and not that which others tell me is enjoyable and meaningful – and within this I’ve come to appreciate myself, and be content with myself – seeing and realizing that most things that are termed enjoyable in this world, are truly bullshit – and that the only real way to live, is in-fact living from within me, within this getting to know me – the actual nerdy me.

Casey Heynes and “Standing Up Towards Bullies”

Casey Heynes is the name of a youngster that has become famous for “standing up” to his bullies. The fuzz around this subject originates in a youtube video – in which Casey Heynes takes his bully in a wrestlers lock, brings him up into the air, and then slams him down into ground. The bully at this point looses his ability to bully – as he is basically bashed so hard that he is near to loose his conscious.

This youtube video has then received a lot of attention on youtube and elsewhere on the web; Casey Heynes is celebrated as a hero that stands up towards the “evil” children – the bully is on the other hand receiving hate-comments and lots of bullshit from people in general – this due to him being seen and accused by the public as the as the “bad” and “evil” bully.

Okay – so lot’s of bullshit and many misconceptions. First – let’s clear out the point of “standing up”.

In our world the expression of standing up has been abused, as it has always implied – within stating that I am standing up – that you stand up TOWARDS someone or something. It’s the point of standing up TOWARDS someone or something that is deception – instead of standing up within and as self – for self – as self.

Why is this deception then?

Because – if you stand up TOWARDS someone separate from you, this implies that you are in fact a slave to another, as you have to do something towards another to make yourself “Stand up” – and due to your action being motivated of and as the acceptance of yourself as a slave to another, you are not in-fact standing up; you are actually reacting, and living out the pattern of slavery – but in a different way than before – as before you accepted yourself as a slave to another, through allowing another to create the experience of yourself within yourself as being bullied. Now, instead, as you physically harm “your bully” – you are still accepting and allowing the experience of yourself to “be caused” by another – but your instead of going into submission, taking action within your experience, going into anger, hate and frustration – apparently then, “Standing Up”.

The kid, Casey Heynes didn’t “Stand Up” – he didn’t stand up “towards another” because that is impossible – he reacted and he accepted and allowed the experience of himself to be the subject of the movement and participation of another.

Thus – the action of physically harming his abuser is in fact an act of blame – wherein Casey Heynes, through lifting up and slamming his bully down into the ground as he acted out the experience he had within himself of feeling sad, bullied, excluded, harmed = refused to take self-responsibility and stand up within himself – which, on the other hand, is an actual and real expression of standing up; wherein you stop yourself from participating in, and defining yourself as thoughts, feelings and emotions  – too within such a stand and stop, realize and see, that the bully can’t actually harm you or affect you in anyway what so ever.

Thus – what Casey Heynes failed to see and realize; he is actually god – the directive principle of and as himself – responsible and in charge of everything that goes on within himself.

And so, to conclude: real standing up doesn’t involving harming other people. It doesn’t involve anger, frustration, or hatred. It doesn’t involve lashing out on someone. It doesn’t involve anyone in your world “paying retribution” for your experience of yourself, as you apparently stand up towards him or her and make him or her stop. No – it’s yourself that you must stop!

The next fascinating point that opens up in relation to Casey Heynes and his apparent expression of “standing up” – is the parents, adults, and the entire hype around the situation, which opened up due to the video of the incident being posted on youtube; wherein the bully is now the bullied, as people are sending him hate-messages, and being generally nasty towards him. What message does such a behavior convey? As we criticize, judge, demean, haunt and punish another for his bad behavior? That’s right, it’s bullying. Though now it’s apparently accepted, because it’s justified, as “The bully has been bad!” – “He deserves it!”

But is it really justified? This is the irony of justice – the irony of fairness. That the same bullshit-actions done to someone – defined and regarded as unacceptable by society – will now be targeted towards the one that initially abused or harmed another through bullshit-actions. I mean, aren’t we within such a schizophrenic statement as lived action saying that bullshit-actions are okay? They must only be justified, and then you can do whatever the fuck you want. An example is the death penalty, being given to those that have committed murder – doesn’t the state commit a murder just the same as the murderer? Is justice really real? Or, is it only a concept of the mind – created as a reason to why the desire for revenge is to be lived out?

This is the fuzzy logic of the system, and it shows clearly in the argumentation of United States as to their war against terrorism. Wherein terrorism as violence is unacceptable, horrible and wrong – but – war against terrorisms, as violence is justified, cool and nationalistic; “you do a good thing for your country!”

War, violence and abuse as in apparently standing up towards another aren’t a solution. It’s a mechanism of revenge, fueled through anger and hatred – not a solution where the violence and separation finally, and forevermore stops; this is only possible in and as self-forgiveness. Where the desire to achieve justice and revenge, through punishing another, as in “standing up towards” another = is let go of.

Thus investigate equal money, which is a practical action of forgiveness. Where the past as debt is let go off and the history of each man is wiped clean – so all have an equal opportunity to be here and enjoy themselves. Where the necessary education will be given to all – as to ensure that all are aware of their power and self-responsibility in terms of their internal and external experience of themselves. To show – that real standing up is done for self, as self, here as breath, with no harm, abuse, or revenge unleashed upon your environment.