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Day 307: Longing For More

About two years ago I started planning my future when it came to career, living arrangements, and what type of future that I wanted to experience in my life. In this process I was able to reach a few conclusions, such as for example: I want to live on the country side and I want to be able to have a career in which I can be flexible and steer my working hours in a way that fits me. Now I am at a stage where I have realized parts of my plan, and where I have come to see, that the assessments I made two years ago where in many ways correct. My plan has worked out in many respecs– and I should be happy. Though the fascinating thing is that, I am not.

Because, here I am, having reached my goals, finding out that things are not the way I imagined – and with that I mean – the way I perceived that they would feel. For example, in living on the country side, what I perceive to be amiss in my environment now is ambition and career-driven people. And then further, I feel that the small city which I live close to is to small, not enough people, it is too plain, and boring. Instead of being satisfied, my mind is moving towards a future in one of the bigger cities – something that I have planned to avoid due to the various inconveniences that go with living in a bigger city; such as housing prices, infrastructure, transportation, living costs etc. Hence, I find this development within me fascinating. And what I have realized is that this tendency of wanting what is not here, of seeing that is over there, and the bad that is here, it is a tendency I have had for some time – the inability to settle down and be content with what is here – and thus – work with what is here instead of trying to escape it.

Instead of appreciating what I have and the positive aspects of my reality, what stands out is the negative, what stands out is what I do not have, and what I feel that I should have. And this has been a theme in my life, mostly I have felt that my life is somewhere there, in the future, my life will begin in a year or two, my life will begin when I get over there, and in that process of projection, I miss the life that is HERE. Because I have seen, that it is not so much about WHERE you are, it is about WHO you are – WHO you are determines EVERYTHING. You can live in the most perfect of worlds, and still, if you are not stable and settled within yourself, there will still exist a restlessness deep inside, a want to get out, to experience something different, to not be here, but to get away.

What is then the solution?

The solution is to realize that projections into the future indicates what is amiss in my expression and practical living HERE – and hence – the projection is a coping mechanism – because through projections we are able to feel as if we are some time, some day actually going to reach our goals/dreams/wishes – however – we will not – because that projection only exists in the first place because we are not living that experience as ourselves.

For example, with me, what I now long for is a bustling city, filled with opportunities and momentum – and hence – a place where I can feel challenged and where I still have security and stability – and I also see that my projection contains a touch of fulfillment and completion – it is as if I will only somewhere in my future be able to realize myself as fulfillment – and feel utterly at ease with myself – no longing. Though this is as well an illusion – because fulfillment and completion can never come to me from my outside world – it can never be something that I find out there – instead these are words that I must live – that I must bring to life through living on a moment to moment basis.

Hence, when projections of the future come up, this can be utilized as a support, through asking oneself; what does these projections show me about myself? What is is that I have not created and lived HERE for and as myself that I am still projecting into the future? Thus instead of trying to reach my projection – I can instead bring my projection HERE – and make that desire/want/wish/preference that I see out there – a part of my living reality HERE as how I live – how I stand in thought, word and deed. This is the key to being able to create anything – because suddenly we are not bound by space and time – we are bound by our own initiative, push and drive – and how much we will ourselves to create ourselves.

Day 241: Existential Anxiety

Do you feel stressed? Do you have this experience of stress because you feel that you must ‘use’ life to it’s maximum, yet the time just seem to be slipping away from you? Do you feel like life is moving away day by day and no matter how much you try to retain the time, be effective with it, and do the most; it just streams downwards, days becomes weeks, weeks becomes months, and months years, and so it goes through the years?

existential_anxietyI define this type of experience that is described above as ‘existential anxiety’ – which is basically the understanding and realization that life on earth is limited in time – though instead of seeing that as a fact it becomes a point of conflict. For me the conflict exists within my desire to do and achieve things, versus the point of not being able to do so (aka death). Thus, the misalignment that exists here, and that is the cause of this existential anxiety, is the point of me defining myself according to what I want to do and achieve – instead of walking in this world but not being OF this world.

For example, one of the points that I want to manifest in my life is to become a lawyer; now this is a point that takes a lot of effort, and patience to bring into physical manifestation – many years of work. In order to walk this point you’ve to dedicate yourself – though this hasn’t really been the issue – instead the conflict has arisen in relation to me wanting to do other things with my life as well – not only lawyering. And because the point of creating a career takes up lots of space in my schedule, it becomes difficult to make time for other goals that I also wish to have manifest in my life.

Thus, conflict ensues, a conflict that has it’s roots in the unrealistic mindset of “I want/can to do everything!” – because obviously: This mindset of “I want/can to do everything” is NOT in alignment with physical reality and time – because in this world you do have a certain amount of time, and with it you can only do a set amount of things. Hence you can’t do everything you want to do, you must make some DECISIONS and then prioritize your time – and within that come to peace with the fact that you will unavoidably “miss out” on other life paths that you could’ve taken.

So, life as it’s currently set-up forces you to make decisions, to decide on a hand, and play that hand – now – this is unavoidable – and due to the nature of time you can’t play with more cards than what the rules allow – you are forced to make a decision. This is reality – THOUGH – the real question is – must we react to this reality? Must we exist within this experience of existential anxiety? Do we have to run around chasing time for us to be able to do as much as possible, and constantly feel conflicted about not doing enough?

The answer is NO – and here I will give the solution and key that we can live to transcend existential anxiety: The solution is to in our daily lives walk according to the words/phrase “be in this world but not of this world” – so, what does this phrase imply?

Well, it means that we walk in this world, we make our decisions, select our path, and our direction, and we create our reality to be a certain way – where for example I will probably experience my reality in the role of a lawyer – BUT – this role, this position, the life I lead – it doesn’t define ME – it doesn’t limit ME – instead I stand with myself, in breath, and in every moment I make sure that I express myself, which is something that I can do everywhere regardless of what circumstance or situation I find myself in. This point of expression isn’t limited to my circumstances – because expression is WHO I AM.

Thus the key is to walk, and participate in this system, yet understand that what we do in this world can’t ever define the entirety of WHO WE ARE as beings – for a moment we play a role, and go into a position, and we live out a certain life – even still – WE ARE HERE – and regardless of what I do, the most important relationship that I have to tend to and direct will be that with myself – and this will not change REGARDLESS of where I am – the questions I ask myself will always be the same: Who am I? Where am I? Where am I going? Why am I? – And these can only be answered effectively one moment at a time through me being self-honest with myself.

To summarize: Existential anxiety is something we create through defining ourselves according to what we do, and believing that we have to limit ourselves as being dependent on what job we have, what purpose we’ve given to ourselves, and what general direction we’ve decided to walk into – but the truth is that – we don’t have to limit ourselves. We can walk, and be IN this world but not OF this world – meaning that we walk this lifetime within the understanding the physical reality has certain unavoidably limitations – yet we don’t accept and allow these limitations to define who we are as beings, and how we exist within ourselves, and how we create our relationship with ourselves.

Day 239: Feeling criticized

Today I am going to open up a physical reaction that came up today as I was barbecuing.

Now, basically, I was standing by the barbeque, tending to the meat – and then another person enters into my environment. This person began to speak, and utilized a piercing tonality, where the words came out almost as punches, and very fast – no pauses and no natural rhythm. The words were in relation to the way I was cooking the meat – and the person had various suggestions as to how I could cook it – and what I should and shouldn’t do. Later on, the person began to share information, lot’s of information, for example historical facts, or considerations, and yet again the tone of the voice had this punch, and almost aggressiveness – and there was a rush in the pace.

As this person spoke I could notice that my body was tensing up, and I started to feel uncomfortable – specifically I noticed how my shoulders tightened and that my neck was bent slightly downwards – and the body shaped as if I was trying to crouch from enemy fire, dodging my head downwards as to not be hit. I also felt uneasy in my arms, I didn’t feel comfortable having them in any position, I didn’t know where the put them.

The thoughts I had about this person was judgmental in nature – I judged this person as speaking to fast, as being in energy, as being critical – and the way I responded physically was that I became more quiet, and I didn’t return to communication – the reason being that I felt forced to speak/agree/communicate in a certain way – and so not speaking was my way of trying to get back in control of the situation.

I can also see that I judged this person as being abusive, and not caring for his environment, and those around him – that he was all absorbed with himself, his own words – I can also see that I judged him as being smug and full of himself – pretentious and self-centered.

So – this event shows me a lot about myself – and what I can see is that this person is actually revealing many characteristics of my own, though I have them more on the inside – more repressed and hidden from the world – because I can see that I will in certain situations approach others within a smugness and pretentiousness – where I see myself as better than another. And equally will I at times speak in this almost aggressive, punching voice tonality – where each word is charged with a energy of rushing – trying to speak as much as possible in the shortest amount of time possible. Hence I can learn A LOT from this individual.

In the following I will apply self-forgiveness on the various reactions that I had towards this individual and direct the point utilizing self-commitment statements.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience resistance towards person X when he is my surrounding area – because I perceive that X speaks aggressively, in fast paced bursts of punching energy – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take this personally, to react and to feel as if I am threatened or diminished, and that I require to protect myself around X – through either talking back or cowering and hiding from these, what I perceive to be, attacks

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame X for making me feel attacked and aggressively treated, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the solution to this problem is that X leaves from my life, or that I shove him away, and do not interact with him anymore – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how this is not a solution, and not a effective way of directing the point, but rather a form of escapism – where I want to escape myself, and how I experience myself, through blaming my experience of myself unto another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame X, and believe that it’s his fault that I experience myself as attacked – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in the back of my mind think that he’s rude, that he is not pleasant to be around, that he’s not a very nice and courteous individual – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame X for the way he is expressing himself – instead of seeing, realizing and understand that the very fact that I have these reactions within me, indicates that I do have the same issues and behavioral patterns as is the case with X

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel threatened by X, and when X is speaking – take a stance within myself as if expecting the worst, and believing that at any moment, I will be vehemently attacked – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself around X and not express and share myself fully – but only reveal so much of myself that I believe is safe – and that I believe will not cause any major, bad and negative experiences for me, where I am going to feel hurt

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge X as being insensitive, and brutish, and without the ability to see how his words is affecting his environment – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold unto blame towards X, and feeling as if X has been, making my life more difficult than what it has to be, and has contributed to me feeling attacked, and criticized – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand – that the fact I am reacting this – shows that I am also accepting and allowing this type of program in my mind – where I accept and allow myself to not be sensitive to how my words influence and affect my environment – and where I instead just speak for the sake of speaking with no effective consideration and support for another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge X as being smug, pretentious and full of himself – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to person X –and want to remove him from my world, believing that each time he comes into my world, he will make me feel bad, start sharing information, and facts with this superior body language, and tonality, and try to make himself more than me – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am also accepting and allowing this very program to exist within me – and that person X is in-fact revealing to me how I am not yet effectively standing with regards to me approaching people, and situations, and sharing myself without ego – and without trying to impress upon others how effective I am with knowledge

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is obviously completely meaningless to judge X, and to try to push him out of my world – because the fact is that X is representing and showing parts of myself that I’ve not yet wanted to recognize and see – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that through interacting and being together with X I will be able to establish for myself where and how I exist as these patterns myself – and thus effectively work with my reactions of judgment that currently clouds my eyes – where I instead of seeing myself clearly – judge and suppress parts of myself that I don’t want to recognize

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it’s actually from the persons that I resist the most, and that I have the most reactions towards, that I am able to learn the most – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that instead of viewing my reactions towards X as a problem – I can instead see them as being the start of something new, and opening up a new area and part of my life that I’ve not yet been researching and looking into – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that X is in-fact giving me lot’s of information that I am able to use in order to open more of myself – and thus trying to push out X from my life, or judging X for who he is – is in-fact completely pointless and doesn’t lead to anything beneficial

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that I am going into a state of and as inferiority, fear and cowering, because I perceive that another person is speaking aggressively, is speaking harshly, and with these very strong, and fiery words – I stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that any reaction I have, indicates that there are points I’ve not yet dealt with, and doesn’t in-fact say anything about the other person – and thus I see, realize and understand that my interactions with this person in-fact represents and opportunity for me to get to know myself – and thus I commit myself to stop, and to see that the words are only words, that they are sound and possibly contain energy – yet they can’t harm or hurt me – or define me – thus I commit myself to breath and let the words pass through me

When and as I see that I am sharing information with another, from a starting point of thinking, and feeling that I know so much, that I am really well-read and extremely effective – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this way of sharing and giving information to another is in-fact a form of ego, where I am being smug and pretentious, and going into a state of superiority, where I believe myself to be more than another – and thus I see, realize and understand that the solution is to share information with a stable tonality here, making information, facts and knowledge equal to all parts of me as the physical; and thus I commit myself to not change in my physical presence and expression when I am sharing information with another – but instead remain here and breath – and stabilize myself with my voice – practicing a stable voice tonality

When and as I see that I am judging X as being insensitive, I immediately stop myself I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that this judgment exists within me only because I am myself in moments living such an insensitivity, where I become the center of the world, where my energetic, feeling-experience because the most important thing that there is, and my world, and the experience of others in my world, in a way disappear, and everything that becomes important is myself, and my experience – and thus I commit myself to instead learn about myself from X – and to within this process – commit myself to when I share of myself – to be sensitive and aware of others and how my behavior and words influence them – and not take another for granted

Day 184: OUT-of-time or IN-time?

Today I listened to an interview called: “How do you see time?” – which covered ‘time’ – and I will not delve deeper into the specifics of the interview but rather share what I realized – and what I could see that I require to specify and work with further.

So – time – most of us – me included – tend to never be in-time because we’re mostly out-of-time – meaning: We’re not HERE in breath with time (IN-time) but somewhere else, struggling to create the future we want, or worrying that we’ll experience a future that we don’t want to have. This is because we tend to define the future, our fantasies, and wants within a positive energy charge – and our past within a negative energy charge – and because of that we strive towards the future and try to avoid the past.

Thus – what I will practice from here on is applying myself HERE – and pushing myself to remain IN-time – instead of OUT-of-time – to remain IN-breath – instead of being OUT-of-breath – and this is as I see it something that I simply have to practice and will myself to live until it becomes an automated state of being – and here I must will and discipline myself to really just be HERE and function with what is HERE – and remain clear within my principles and why it is that I am HERE in this life – why it is that I’ve decided to walk – live and apply myself in my life – and that I am doing it for LIFE and what is BEST for all – and in that principle – in my goals there can’t be any room for fear or desire – instead I must push myself to utilize each moment that arise HERE and make the most of my LIFE – and I am only able to make the most of my life if I live my life – and I can only live my life in this breath HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that life exists in my mind and in my future – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame time – and project my experience of myself as not being grounded and stable in the physical on time – in believing that it’s time that causes me to go into and as a state of being unstable – and wearisome in this moment here – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it’s not about time – and that it’s not about my life – it’s about who I am in relationship to and as my human physical body – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not pursue and practice me grounding myself in every moment in my physical body – and deliberately bringing myself back here when I see that I’ve gone into some projection in my mind – and realize that in order to live to my fullest potential I require to be HERE – live HERE – and apply myself HERE

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the solution for my life exists in my mind – and in reaching for and fantasizing about the dreams I have in my mind – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the solution is here – with me – with who I am in relationship to my life and my mind in every moment of breath – and thus I push and will myself – and discipline myself to remain here – to stop going into projections in the mind and to live with and as every moment here

I realize that it’s not effective living as a dreamer – and trying to prevent a future that doesn’t exist – and I instead realize that it’s effective to live every moment to it’s fullest – to direct myself in every moment and make sure that I make the most of each and every breath

I commit myself to discipline myself to remain with and as breath – and immediately stop projections as they come up within me – to breathe through fear of the future – and immediately bring myself back here – and I commit myself to make this a automated behavior and something that I apply effortlessly

I commit myself to develop courage to walk through the fear of the future – and make the decisions that I resist – walk the decisions that I resist – and face the unknown – and walk into the unknown – and not accept and allow myself to cower and diminish myself – but instead straighten out my back – pull my cheek up and walk into the future – and face it

I commit myself to develop self-discipline – and stop fear and stress as it arise within me – and instead walk my decision fully and completely – walk not for myself but for humanity and for a life that is best for all – to remove self-interest and make me and my life an instrument of life

I commit myself to remove self-interest from my decision making and instead look at what is best for all – to remove the concept of ‘my life’ and instead make my life a WE – and instrument of the WE to come to it’s fullest and most optimal expression

I stand – I apply – and I will myself to change this point and not stop until it’s done and I live courage and stability and I walk and make the most of my life in each and every moment HERE

Clarifying Common Misunderstandings About Desteni

The following blog is originally a comment that I made to a review of the Equal Money System and Desteni that was shared on Quora – and you can find the entire discussion here.

First I will share the original review – and after this review I will show how this review is based upon many misunderstandings – and misconceptions – and that this have resulted from not thoroughly investigating what Desteni is really all about.

Review From Quora

This looks/sounds like a scam, and is very similar to that of Scientology (don’t sue me!).

Bernard Poolman, Desteni, and the cult’s followers have the following system:

  • Bernard Poolman, at the top of this scheme, recruits “managers” who recruit other “managers’ to the system, very similar to Multi-Level Marketing (MLM) and Scientology
  • After spending a certain amount of time and money at Desteni, you get to advance to the next level in “education and advancement”
  • In essence, there is no “equality” – all people at Desteni are trying to climb the ladder to the get more “educated” and spend more money in order to do so (similar to those in Scientology who wish to learn about the mysterious alien, Lord Xenu). It is rumored that some are paid commissions in order to recruit new members as well.
  • According to several reviews from past members I’ve read/heard about, none of the senior managers even know what the “Equal Money System” is and the phrase “Pyramid Scheme” will immediately get you banned from the organization

To me, it’s Scientology with a new twist that sounds more realistic: no aliens and thetas, instead filled with anarchistic goals of a communist planet where economic fact and reason are denied, and replaced with a system that will inevitably lead to destructive failure.

Edit: I just read on their materials and official site, aliens are indeed part of this system, and supposedly one of humanity’s greatest secrets. I stand corrected: this system is crazier than Scientology. Day 185: Are we Earthlings or Aliens? Secrets of the Human Race • Desteni – Group of people exploring Equality & Oneness principles

The reason I wrote this is because I see a lot of “Equal Money System” questions on Quora lately, likely sparked from managers within the group spamming to get Quorans thinking about falling bait.

I warn all Quora Admins to do their research on Bernard Poolman, Desteni, and this system, and be on the look out for spam. I also warn all Quorans, do not fall prey to this system – it is just another scam that preys on people who are facing rough times, those with sympathy towards equalism (though they pervert this idea), and young people.

For those wondering about Xenu (Scientology), here is what he supposedly looks like:

My Comment On The Review:

So – the first thing that can be pointed out in relation to this review is that it’s based upon assumption – and that there is no clear empirical evidence supporting any of the claims that is made by the author.

I will go through all the points mentioned in this review point by point to as such exactly how – and why – what is mentioned here is fiction and not really what Desteni is about.

CLAIM 1.
Bernard Poolman, at the top of this scheme, recruits “managers” who recruit other “managers’ to the system, very similar to Multi-Level Marketing (MLM) and Scientology

Answer:
Bernard Poolman is not “at the top of this scheme” – Bernard Poolman is the founder of Desteni but he’s not the chief executive of Desteni – the reason for this is that Desteni is a voluntary organisation that function by the combined efforts of all it’s members – we are a democratic and logic-based organisation wherein the suggestions, and pointers of members that are the best – will receive attention and be implemented.

Secondly – Desteni is not a scheme – we are very open about what we are – we are a open and voluntary organisation that have a very clear objective – and that is to create a world that is best for all in every way – there is nothing secret about this and everything of this is already shared on the Desteni website.

CLAIM 2.
“After spending a certain amount of time and money at Desteni, you get to advance to the next level in “education and advancement”

Answer:
No – Desteni is a FREE and voluntary organisation – everyone can participate as much as they like without paying anything.

Though – Desteni offer certain educational courses and these costs money – which is nothing strange – universities costs money because giving a education to someone requires that you have a teacher and the necessary educational material – the Desteni education functions by the same principles.

As you complete the courses given by Desteni you will be able to go to the next stage – obviously – there is nothing strange about this either – and the same principle is used in all schools – you must first understand the basics to go to the more advanced level.

CLAIM 3.
“In essence, there is no “equality” – all people at Desteni are trying to climb the ladder to the get more “educated” and spend more money in order to do so (similar to those in Scientology who wish to learn about the mysterious alien, Lord Xenu). It is rumored that some are paid commissions in order to recruit new members as well.”

Answer:
Those that participate in Desteni are not there to climb a ladder – we are walking the courses by our own free-choice – and because we are genuinly interested in understanding ourselves, and how to be able to become more effective human-beings.We spend money in order to walk the courses – but as I’ve said – this is nothing strange – you spend money to get access to services in the system all the time – and it’s ignorant to believe that you’re able to give a high-quality education without asking for money in return – it’s simply not possible.

Yes – we are paid commissions in order to recruit new members – yet – this is nothing strange either – several organizations apply the same method – and most companies that are into sales will have a similar principle wherein you get paid by the amount of sales you do. It’s simply a practical point that have been implemented in order to motivate people to bring more people to study the courses offered at Desteni – completely normal capitalistic behavior.

CLAIM 4.
“According to several reviews from past members I’ve read/heard about, none of the senior managers even know what the “Equal Money System” is and the phrase “Pyramid Scheme” will immediately get you banned from the organization”

Answer:
This is misinformation as it’s completely false and doesn’t have any bearing at all.

Firstly – there are no “senior mangers” at Desteni – those that participate are all equal in that they participate by their own free will – and they do so voluntarily – though you will earn respect in the organization as you’re seen to place much time and effort into walking the message that the group presents – yet this will not make you more special, and it will not give you more access into the “secrets” of Desteni – simply because there are no such secrets.

The Equal Money System is shared on the Equal Money website – and everything that is written about the system there is what is the system currently looks like – thus everyone have access to see, understand, and research the Equal Money System for themselves – it’s nothing hidden at all.

CLAIM 5.
“I just read on their materials and official site, aliens are indeed part of this system, and supposedly one of humanity’s greatest secrets. I stand corrected: this system is crazier than Scientology.”

Answer:
Aliens are not apart of the Equal Money System – and it’s not a part of the practical message of Desteni – which is very simple – it’s to give as you’d like to receive.

Aliens have on the other hand been interviewed through the inter-dimensional portal – and they have given their perspective on the state of humanity – and also shared themselves. This I know is hard for many to understand and comprehend – thus – I will state the following: it’s not necessary to believe in the portal in order to apply the tools of Desteni.

What is important in Desteni is the message that is shared – and this is a highly practical and measurable message – that have effects which you can see in the behavior of the being that decides to walk and live the message – thus – this is what is important; whether Aliens share this message, or some other type of manifestation – it doesn’t really matter – because in the end it all comes down to self-respect and creating self to stand as a individual of integrity in this world.

CONCLUSION:
So – as you can see – there is MUCH misinformation – many misunderstandings – and lot’s of assumptions as to what Desteni is – and what the Equal Money System is – my suggestion is as such that anyone interested, or curious about what we do and represent – commit themselves to do a thorough investigation of the point and most importantly – keep an open mind because the message of Desteni is hard to understand and it will challenge you on many different levels – because a message like this haven’t ever been shared in this way before.
Lastly – Desteni is not a scam – and we are not dangerous – and we are not evil – we are simply human beings sharing a message that have actually been on this earth for several thousands of years already – the message was first shared by Jesus when he said do unto another as you’d like to be done unto you – and this is what we’re all about – really simple!

Okay – I hope this cleared up some points – visit our websites for more information:
Equal Money System
Desteni Website

Graduation Day! Welcome to the World of Bullshit!

Yesterday the third year college students of Sweden ran out from their schools, waving with their hands, shouting, screaming and consuming massive amounts of alcohol – they had done their time.

This event I find to be bizarre and completely delusional. What I find strange is that these college students run out from the school, apparently achieving freedom and having ‘their whole life ahead of them’ – being seen by society as the ‘bright new future’. While in-fact all that awaits them is 60 years of slavery in the system and then they die.

Yes, it’s sad but this is all that our world and the system have become. You go to school as a child, beginning at 6 years of age. There you stay until you are 19, when you are to run out from the college buildings and leave the slavery behind, because now you can apparently ‘choose what to do in life’. Or so they say.

In reality you will not be free, you will not be able to ‘choose what do in your life’ and you have no  ‘whole life ahead of you’ – this is but brainwashing, massive amounts of bullshit that has been thrown at you – to have you accept yourself as a slave. Nobody ever wanted to go to school, because it’s extremely boring and unsatisfying, so a dream had to be made up, a fantasy had to be built. And the rainbow fairy tale is that you are to become free and fulfilled when you push yourself out from those school corridors, thinking: finally it’s the end of this bullshit.

No, it’s not the end of this bullshit. Now you’re left by yourself in this ruthless and cold-hearted money system, where nobody cares about you, and you’re only worth as much money as you’ve got in your pocket. That is the life which awaits all those that graduate. The bullshit taught in school doesn’t give justice to the horror that our actual real system consists of.

The one point that hit me in the face as I quit college was that nobody gave a fuck about me, there was nothing in life waiting for me, there was no hope, and there was nowhere to turn. All around me was an endless desert of bullshit where the prime objective was money – there simply wasn’t any life, anything worthy of living for. Who the fuck wants to live only to earn money? There is no point in only living for money. There is no substance in money. You can buy food and shit with it but it can’t make you satisfied and it can’t have you enjoy yourself for real. For that you don’t require money or the massive amounts of possessions that come with it. Consuming is not a pleasure, it’s not real joy, it’s not real self-expression – it’s bullshit and should be banned.

So, this is why I see the event of these graduating students running out into apparent freedom as bizarre. Because there is no fucking freedom. There is nothing to be fucking happy about. Your running out into a world filled will suffering, slavery, depression, hatred, separation, demon-possession and violence. There is nothing to wave your hat around for.

Though, I suspect few will read and even fewer will agree with what I say. Thus we shall wait a couple of years, so that you might have some experiences as to what this world has become. And this goes for everyone. Everyone is going to crash at an individual level, until we understand that consummation and greed is not valid principles to live by. Until then – have fun!