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Day 364: Developing Self-Reliance

The most recurring experience as of late has been fear – mostly fear of survival. I have been working diligently with the point and made some notable progress, there is however still a lot to be walked. One aspect of the fear that I have yet to transcend is that of fearing authorities and superiors that in some way have power to effect my ability to survive. Because they are able to influence, for example, my access to money, the fear seems to be justified and reasonable when it arise. Obviously, I am aware that this is not the case, though the fact that this experience exists within me does reveal an interesting point; that there exist a hope/desire to be taken care of and supported by authorities.

If a negative experience exists, which in this case is fear, then a positive experience will exist as well, and in this case that positive experience is security and feeling backed. Hence, for me, authorities have become a means of substantiating my own lack of self-reliance.

Apart from forgiving the fear, the solution I see is to develop self-reliance. For example, that could be done through pushing myself to take active responsibility for my work and career – and not in anyway accept and allow myself to rely upon my employer to secure my influx of money – but to make sure that I am a effective, that my skills are superior, that I am professional and able to offer a service that is needed. Thus I take charge of my own self-creation, planning and access to money, and remove the variable, of needing my employer to stand behind me as a point of security.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely upon my superiors and authorities to handle my life for me – and to blame them when things does not go the way I want – and to feel good and love them when things do go the way that I want – instead of placing reliance back where it belongs – with myself – and thus making sure that I do live in such a way where I direct my life – I create my life – and where it is not about relying on someone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of being abandoned and judged by my superiors in fear of loosing my access to money and security, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, to when I am able to please my superiors, to feel secure, safe and well cared for – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate within a polarity in relation to my superiors, and the system, where I on the one hand love it, and on the other, fear it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the solution is to stand equal and one with and as the system, with and as my superiors, to understand that in order to be stable within me, I require to take full responsibility for myself, my future, and my direction, and my actions at work, and to make sure that I am walking and creating my life in such a way that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to be able to handle my own survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the system to deal with and secure my survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am not strong enough, or developed enough, or ready yet to take responsibility for my survival – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for a parent and someone to care for me in the system – to seek for someone to be there for me and show me the way – instead of me taking full responsibility for myself and the direction of and as my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see and define myself as inferior to the system, inferior to my employer, inferior to survival, and thus believe that I cannot rely on myself, but that I need the system to stand beside me and support me – to be there as a father figure for me because I am not able to do it by myself – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear developing a real and sound reliance within myself – where I do not assume that things will work out and be alright – but where I take the appropriate actions to ensure that I move myself in a direction that is best for me and others in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the system, my superiors, when things do not work out in relation to my survival, when I make mistakes, and fear arise, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, that I have created the pattern within me, that I have made the decisions and that it has nothing to do with the system, my superiors, my employers – in-fact it is a pattern I have developed where I fear taking active responsibility for myself – and I place my reliance out there into something else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on money to care for me, to support me, to be there for me, and to make my life secure and easy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on money to make my life comfortable, to give my life direction, to move my life in the ‘right’ direction, to secure my life – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that money is in-fact a dead object – that it is not something that can save me and my future – that is something only I can do for myself – and thus fact is that money is a tool – something that I can use that support myself – however that support will only ever be as effective as I am within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on money to ensure my future, to rely on money to walk my process, to rely on money to take care of me, to rely on money to make things work for me – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how this belief that money will take care of everything – it is just that – a belief – and fact is that real security, real safety, real direction and care will only ever arise from my own decision and movement to stand as and live those words actively within and as my life

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see myself going into either a fear or desire towards money, within the context of the belief that money can care for me, money will solve all problems, money will support me, money will ensure security and safety, I take a breath, I stop myself, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this is an illusion that I have created for myself – that in-fact money is only as effective as I am within myself – and that if I am not clear – stable and directive – then money will not support me – and thus I commit myself to take back directive principle – to take charge of myself and my life and actively move myself to care for myself, to solve problems, to support me and to develop security and stability in my life – as who I am – and more concretely – I commit myself to do that through continuously pursuing to make the best of my life – to look for and act on opportunities when they do arise – to push my writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application and my in the moment correction – to develop a stability that stands through the difficult times

When and as I see myself going into either a positive or a negative experience in relation to an event to concerns my superior, as either feeling safe, secure and cared for, or feeling that my survival is threatened, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this polarity within me indicates that I have not yet developed self-reliance and self-standing within me – in particular in relation to survival and money – and that I still want someone to care for me – and thus I commit myself to stop – to breathe and bring me back here – and instead – in the moment – look at how I am able to improve, expand, develop myself and move – how I can learn from mistakes to become more efficient in survival and moving myself in my reality – and what I can further strengthen and improve that already works – to thus take active charge of my self-development and utilize my failures and successes to guide me forward and to improve myself


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Day 341: Hierarchies and Money

Deeply embedded in the human conscious we find some strange ideas about life. One of these is the belief that earning a lot of money equals that we are valuable and important as a person. Money, and having a job, throughout the ages this has been the determining factor as to where in society we will be positioned/valued. If we are poor and have a job of no significance or importance, we will be considered as less valuable, and if the opposite is true, we will be an example for humanity to follow.

This brainwashing that we accepted and allowed has some pretty serious consequences. First off, we have a far to lenient approach to with regards to respect for property, and the right for each one of us to pursue our happiness. The fact is that we have a many that are too rich, and that horde, causing widespread poverty, because their money had to come from somewhere. And we cannot blame these rich, apparently successful people, because we have created them, and secretly, we all hope for the same thing, to hit the jackpot and that we will make some serious money. That is why we continue placing our respect in money, instead of respecting ourselves, and determining our value on the basis of how we live.

The interesting thing is that we have created a completely dysfunctional society, mostly because we are too busy creating our own lives, protecting and building our lives and utilizing money to do that, while not caring sufficiently about each-other – and instead of coming together to build a flowing society where all are cared for, we create enormous structures of control. Though the solution is not control, the solution is not more work, more education, the solution is that we as humanity come together, and look beyond our own personal interests – and see what we are able to create that is best for all.

This pattern of only looking at ourselves, it recurs again and again. A while ago I read an interesting article about coral bleaching. In the article it was discussed how massive coral bleaching had now reached the great barrier reef, and for those that do not know, coral bleaching is bad stuff for corals. What was interesting to note was that the Australian authorities had been aware of coral bleaching since the eighties, though because it had not reached the great barrier reef, no one had really taken note of the danger. Instead the Australian authorities had seen coral bleaching as someone else’s problem, simply because it was not there at the moment. And then, a couple of years later it happened, and now it was too late. And during all this time, the solution had been known, to decrease emissions of fossil fuels on a global level.

The insight here is that in a world that is connected in a multitude of ways, there is no such thing as someone else’s problem. When we have issues with the usage of fossil fuels creating inconsistent weather patterns, then we cannot think that only because those weather patterns are not yet threatening the piece of land we live on, that it is okay to continue a practice that is clearly creating consequences. Because any consequence in this world will directly or indirectly impact us. And this is one of the great things about globalization; we are now able to see with a lot more clarity how our actions ripple throughout the world – and how in a global economy – it is not possible to protect one’s own country from global instability.

Another striking example of we how we tend to only care for and consider ourselves is the refugee situation. Particularly in Sweden this is an interesting topic to explore. Because it is public knowledge that number one reason for people becoming displaced is war. And interestingly enough, Sweden has a big and prosperous arms industry, and it is ranked the third largest arms exporter per capita after Israel and Russia. In Sweden we have a lot of refugees and it has become a big problem. Thus we are now starting to see the consequences of our arms industry, as the victims of war is trying to create a safe life for themselves – and this consequence is now not only out there in some foreign country – no – it is right here at our porch.

Back to the issue of people being rich and poor. What I want to point out here is that when we accept and allow this extreme separation in society, between those that have made it, and those that have not, we are creating consequences, not only for those that are poor, but also for those that are rich. Poverty is a breeding ground for crime, diseases, lack of education, drug abuse, etc. If we want to have a life and society that is efficient and works for everyone, without unnecessary consequences, the acceptance of the rich and poor must be erased, and replaced with a motivation to care for all equally. It is not possible to control consequences, they will slip through the cracks, as is the case with the refugees. Consequences must be prevented at their roots, the original issue must be directed, else we will end up going in circles.

And why do we still hold unto this archaic and dysfunctional model of society? Why have we not changed? Because we do, secretly or overtly, want to hold unto to our current societal set-up, where we have a chance of becoming successful, earning a lot of money, and apparently becoming someone that is important. We still want to win and be rewarded for it. However, it is possible to compete and become successful even though such expressions and processes are not linked to property, money, and wealth. Optimally, competition and success should be used as bait, and motivation, for us to become better as people – so that we are able to realize our full potential in this life and share that with others.

The solution I see is the follow: We stop seeing money as the determining factor for value and worth, and instead make sure that money is a tool, something we utilize to practically create our lives, but where it is has no deeper importance or meaning – it is just money. And also to stop our fears when it comes to money, to as such make sure that we stop accepting and allowing ourselves to horde money, saving it ‘for a rainy day’ or to have ‘more money’. We have to earth our relationship with money and make it PRACTICAL.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value money more than people – and believe that it is money that makes the man

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify and hold unto the idea that a rich person is better than a poor person – and strive to achieve wealth so that I can feel better than others – not seeing, realizing and understanding that money is simply a practical point – something that we require to survive – however not something that defines our character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold unto a society where we are allowed to pursue our happiness regardless of the consequences it creates in the lives of others – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, how I am in-fact, creating unconsciously, a system that is not best for all, a system of hierarchies, because I want to feel like a winner, and for winner to exist we must also have losers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can become better buy having more money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am winning buy having more money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better than others when I have more money than them – or a better education

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel more important than others because I have a education that could potentially allow me to earn a lot of money – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to this belief that money makes the man – and that it is through getting more money that I can prove myself in this world system – and show that I am of equal value in comparison with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with others when it comes to money and earning potential – and feel inferior to those that earn more than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with others when it comes to money and earning potential – and feel superior to those that earn less than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a system of valuing people and things according to their monetary value – instead of seeing all that is here as equals – all made of the same matter and coming from the same source

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a inner system of evaluation where money is the most important factor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire and want to have a system of competition where the participants is evaluated according to money – so that I have chance of winning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I am creating long-term consequences by accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to competition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how my inner relationship with money, is connected to what is happening in the world system – and is connected to how points are currently functioning and operating on a bigger scale – where there is a huge competition in relation to money – and no common sense – where it is seen as justified and okay for one person to own as much money as an entire country – and where poverty, malnutrition, and all other consequences of not having money is then apparently okay

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an inner money system where it is seen as justified and acceptable to have a system of competition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify competition within me as good – because apparently it brings out the best in people – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how it in-fact does not bring out the best in people – but rather brings out the most shit in people – where we will do anything and everything to survive and win – and those any integrity and self-respect will go out the window

Self-commitment statements

When and as I become possessed with positive, or negative feelings in relation to money, where I compare myself to others, and see myself as either superior, or inferior, depending on whether I have more or less money than them, I stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand how this way of viewing and defining myself limits me, and that it creates consequences on a global level, because I am part in, and participating in a system of competition, where one of the consequences is poverty, thus I commit myself to stop – and to value me and others according to what we do to bring through a world that is best for all – according to our purpose and reason for existing in this world – as to what we give to this world as a whole

I commit myself to develop value as myself through giving to this world – living a life of purpose where I am giving of myself to create a better reality and world for everyone – and where I am thus practically living the word value – and not only relating value to an attempt to acquire and earn more money to feel better than others

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Day 150: Horrible, Horrible Creases

Another day at my work, and today I went into an paranoia in relation to having creases in my shirt, and what my colleagues would think about that. Several times I found myself looking at my shirt, or tucking in my shirt, or fiddling with my shirt, just to make it look more flat – and the basic fear of this point was: MONEY.

And I am noticing this about my fears, that they are almost every time in some type of relationship with money, wherein the most prominent point is the fear of loosing money – and my guess is that this is what most of humanity fears as well – loosing money.

I’ve opened up and walked this point before, yet here I am facing a new dimension of the point – the office setting – and me feeling that I am constantly being judged, analyzed and evaluated by my co-workers in regards to whether I am doing good or not – the fascinating point is that my co-workers at this particular job are actually very relaxed, helpful, and understanding – they know that I am new, and accordingly they don’t expect great things from me – instead they show me how the work is done, and assist and support in guiding me to the right conclusions. Thus, this mind-point is completely imaginary, and it only exists within and as my mind – there is really nothing to fear about me not performing as effectively as I think and perceive that I should perform.

Thus, I realize how fear is self-compromising, and how it leads me into a state of mind where I don’t appreciate my body, my breath, and the physical as it exists here – in-fact – I am not even aware of it – because everything that seemingly matter is my fear – my experience.

Another point that I noticed, was that I became hard on myself, disappointed, that I had this fear experience, because in my mind, I’d concluded that I was done with this fear point, I’d transcended and walked through it, and there wasn’t anything more to be done – yet – here the fear is again and I am still becoming possessed by it; yet – this is simply another aspect of the fear that I hadn’t yet considered, and that I am facing now, because I am walking into a new aspect and part of my life – so thus – I see that I must be patient with myself and walk through this fear, and let go of this particular dimension of the point – and as such not accept and allow myself to go into depression and apathy because I didn’t get it immediately – rather – move on – push on – and walk the necessary process to be walked – until it’s done.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and anxiety that my co-workers are going to judge my shirt as being creasy, and thus judge me as a person that doesn’t effectively care for his body, and within that draw conclusions about me that I am not to be trusted, that I am not to be recognized, and that I am not someone that is supposed to be in that particular environment – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that others are going to judge me and that this will cause me to in the end loose money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel and experience it as if I am constantly being watched, constantly being evaluated, and constantly being analyzed, and that my value, and my status, and my position is at stake in every moment, and that I thus must make sure that I push myself to the fullest of my abilities, to not in anyway be seen by others as being inferior, or not fitting in, or being strong enough – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and as fear, and anxiety, and exist in this fear and anxiety, perpetually, and constantly, and feel that I am standing on a scene, where I require to impress others in my world, instead of accepting and allowing myself to stop competing, to stop attempting and trying to survive through fear, and instead trusting myself in each and every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as if I am standing on a stage where each and every move that I make, each and every sound that I make, each and everything that I say or do, that this is going to be used against me, and that I am going to be attacked, and vilified, and loose my position the moment I make a mistake, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that in essence, the origin of this fear is that I don’t trust myself – and that I don’t feel and believe that I am able to handle myself in this world – and that there is somehow some grave mistake about all of me – and that I have thus no chance in hell to walk through this lifetime effectively and specifically

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and as fear, anxiety and worry in regards to my future career, and how that will play out, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a perpetual state of fear, and worry, wherein I feel and experience that each moment is a test where my ability to survive is measured – and that I as such require to fight through my life, I require to fight through moments, I require to fight through my existence and make sure that I better myself and become the absolute best that I can be – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am in-fact limiting myself, and holding myself back, because I am not accepting and allowing myself to walk in self-trust – to realize that there exist such a point within me where I trust myself – I depend on myself – I rely on myself – and I am able to stand with myself into infinity – beyond death – and there exist as such no fear of death because I know that I will stand by myself regardless of what I will face in this life or the hereafter

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and as fear, anxiety, worry and concern, and believe that I can only survive and make it through in this world, and in this lifetime through moving myself within and as fear, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is another way to move myself, and that I can move, direct, and will myself through this lifetime, within and as self-trust, within and as self-movement, wherein fear is not what drives me, but I drive, motivate, and move myself – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not move, drive, and motivate myself, and within this accept and allow myself to stand, and walk this lifetime without fear, but instead upon the basis of common sense, and what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself, and hold myself back when fear takes over, and that fear makes my life unnecessary to live, because what is the point of walking through an entire lifetime, if all that I do is following my fears? It would mean that I haven’t ever followed through on myself, followed through on what I see is relevant, and effective, and what I see it is that I am able to do and walk effectively in this world and express myself within and as – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself, to move and direct myself in each moment of breath according to what is best for all, and according to what I am able to see supports me, and supports those around me, and thus live as a beacon of life, and a beacon of expression, instead as of a beacon of fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into this new dimension and aspect of life, as working, from a starting point of fear, instead of accepting and allowing myself to explore and walk this new point from a starting point of self-expression, of self-enjoyment, of expanding myself and my capabilities and becoming more effective, more stable, and more directive in my expression and movement, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can’t accept and allow myself to anymore exist in fear, because it totally limits me and my potential, and consequently limits those around me, as they can’t take part of me in my full potential and see what it means to stand and live as an example of full potential – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have the opportunity in every moment of breath to stand up from this fear and directing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being myself, and fear trusting myself, in fear that if I walk my life in this way, I won’t get anything done, and I won’t manage to do anything with my life, and at the end of my life, as I stand before death, I will look back in disappointment and think that I could’ve done more, and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand – that it’s totally counterintuitive to live in this way – that when I live in fear all my life become is fear and there is really no ME living to talk about; and as such I commit myself to practice living my life without fear in all ways – to make this my end goal – to have no form of fear in me whatsoever – so that I can make the most of my life and live every moment to its fullest potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that at the end of the day – living without fear will be a much more fulfilling life than living with fear – that really isn’t life at all – and as such I commit myself to LIVE and fulfill myself in living through walking out of fear – and supporting myself to breath through fear and stop the fear thoughts as they arise within me


When and as I see that I am going into fear that I am not producing a sufficiently effective result, and that I am not pleasing to others around me, and that really they are annoyed and irritated with my presence, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that I am in-fact limiting myself through going into this fear, and that to live fully – I can’t allow fear to exist within me in anyway whatsoever – and as such I commit myself to breathe and stop this fear – and bring myself back to and as my human physical body – and to stabilize myself here in breath and realize that this is what is real – breath is real – living physically is real – and that is what I must value and constantly have as my goal – and as such let go of these fear characters

I commit myself to LIVE and I realize that living can only exist when there is no fear – and as such I commit myself to let go of fear – and to walk this process practically – through immediately as a fear thought arise within me – to apply self-forgiveness and let it go – and utilize writing and self-forgiveness when I see that thoughts are accumulating and that I am not effectively directing them – to as such slowly but surely integrate myself into my full potential of living as living one and equal with and as my human physical body as this physical reality

2012 The Dream For A Job And A High Income

While walking a education in the university, you’re able to at every corner see the true meaning, and purpose as to the “why” you’re walking your education. The university and teachers want to present the idea, and belief that the university education is walked in order to “gain knowledge” – “learn to think critically” – “grow and develop your character” – but that isn’t true at all.

As I’ve walked my studies now, for quite some time, I’ve come to see that most students dislike their studies and find it to be boring – not many that I’ve met have been interested in “gaining knowledge”, neither “learn to think critically” or “grow and develop their personality” – yet still they have kept on studying relentlessly – why?

The answer as to why people choose to study at university is clear – it’s to get a job – and this complete obsession with getting a job is able to be seen everywhere in the student-world, in every student-magazine you can see the articles about: “how to get the right contacts” – “how to make your employer want to have you” – “how to nail the job-interview” – I mean it’s everything about getting a job. It’s in-fact everything about making money – and the fact that people mostly dislike doing what it is that they’re doing in order to get there – their studies – isn’t really considered at all, but that’s the reality of it.

Thus – if we look at this current set-up, as how we go to a university in order to get our exam, so that we can then get a job, and then make money – all the time not doing anything for ourselves, but only to be able to assure ourselves a future wherein we – at the end of the day – have sufficient with money – where able to see that something is very, very wrong – because what is that is missing from our lives, our direction, movement and our daily application? It’s ourselves!

And this is why our current money system is ineffective and abusive – because no matter what we do, we must always make sure that we take into consideration “having a job” – as in “having money” – and within this we compromise ourselves, as we do things we really do not want to spend our time doing, and we walk educations without ever having any real interest in our studies, and we arrive at jobs where we do not feel any passion towards what it is that we’re doing. This is the sickness of our current money system – of apparent free will and free choice – that in the end turns out to be nothing but a prison, and a limitation that constricts how we live our lives – because all we do is done for money.

And since we’re young and placed into school – we begin to follow – we follow what the teachers tell us – we follow what our parents tell us – and we learn to follow the money wherever it goes – and all the while we are following, we never stop to question what it is that we’re in-fact doing, and what it is that we are giving our time to, and why it is that we are doing what we’re doing – we simply seek that light, as the job – the money – at the end of the tunnel.

Obviously within such an application of ourselves the world will remain as it’s always been, as we will simply follow the money wherever it goes, we’ll follow the suggestions of the employer, we’ll follow the suggestions of our professor – because we know that this is how we’ll get our hands on the money – but what about ourselves? Why is that we automatically, and without any question, assumes that this is how life must be? How come we assume that we have no say in the movement of the world system? How come we think that we have no say in terms of how our current system should be designed and constructed, and how we should experience our lives within that? Are we brainwashed to see ourselves as incapable, inferior and useless in regards to changing this system?

I mean – there is something wrong when each individual that goes to study does so – not for the studies themselves – but in order to satisfy a future employer – there is no life in that – there is no living in that – that is instead a hidden form of slavery, wherein you give your life up in order to get to be bought, and “employed” – to perform the tasks you’re instructed to perform.

It’s so very clear that our current system doesn’t offer any type of real and actual freedom – there is no actual individuality – we’re all simply followers, that follow the money wherever it will go – and in that we give up upon ourselves, and we accept life as it is, because we believe there is nothing more, and that nothing can be done.

But there is an solution – and there is another way to live – a way in which all will be able to choose their life’s, choose to follow their passions, and in-fact live their life as a individual – as self-direction – instead of simply following the money. This solution is called the Equal Money System – and it’s main-purpose is to remove survival from the minds of men, and woman – so that we instead can place our focus upon in-fact experiencing, and exploring ourselves in this reality – and really getting to know ourselves. I mean, we’re so caught up in money and the survival game that we’ve never even explored ourselves in terms of what it is that we’d like to do, and how it is we’d like to do it – our life is since a very small age directed to become a part of this current money system – where we must do the tasks assigned to us – because else we won’t receive any money.

Thus – the Equal Money System opens up the opportunity for us to get to know ourselves – and to in-fact choose studies that we do because we’re passionate about our subjects – not because we’re following the money.

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And God Created… Science

And god created science, and the university, the learned man and the stupid man – why?

Why didn’t god give everyone as they came here to this planet the same knowledge? All the knowledge required to live an effective life? Why did he make certain people smarter than other people? Calling them professors, wise and learned – while the rest are apparently doomed to stupidity, and to learn from those more wise that’s apparently holding the secrets of life?

Why did god create inequality? Couldn’t god see in his all-knowingness, in his wisdom and omnipotence – that if he created inequality – he would create jealousy, competition, self-importance, EGO and narcissism as well? Couldn’t god see that he created those that would feel inferior and pushed away by the education system, at the same time as he created those that felt, and was embraced and supported by the education system, due to their effective grades?

Why did god create a education system where people are pitted against each other, graded and compared in their ability to learn knowledge, to then be valued according to this ability as apparently ‘who they are’. I mean, why didn’t god consider all worthy of acceptance and love? Why only those few that managed to learn the knowledge of our education system verbatim, and then spit it out in perfect syntax and with perfect grammar – it simply doesn’t make sense what so ever.

The reason I pick this topic to write about is because I am currently studying a summer course at my university in regards to economical history – how our various laws and policies have been passed; who’s been the major influences and who hasn’t and why. And the thing that strikes me as I read – is how completely meaningless this knowledge is. And the meaninglessness of the knowledge is truly revealed when on one page there is one professor stating one thing, and then on the next page there is a new professor stating the opposite but on the very same subject!

I mean, when something like that happens, it’s time to seriously consider if the theories and knowledge we produce at our universities is truly real, and can actually be considered ‘truth’ – or if it’s just bullshit made up to make money. I mean, these professors got to research about something, and they got to make a name for themselves in someway – they must have money. So, obviously they will have to come up with something, some cool story, when they write their books.

Obviously, looking at education from a common sense perspective, we see that there can only be one fucking truth. The reason being = there is only one fucking reality. If you have several truths in the same reality, this means something has been missed, and reality hasn’t yet been discovered, or that some of the truth-claimers are missing reality.

I mean, in observing reality, two researchers should come to the exact same findings, if they don’t, this means that they haven’t in-fact observed reality, but only their own made up mind-bullshit. Or maybe they’ve simply made something up that sound cool – I mean, or maybe they’ve thrown a dice when they selected which theory they should push.

I am so fucking tired of theories, I am so fucking tired of science, got damnit – in this search for truth we miss the truth that is here – simplicity. All our science in the world hasn’t yet produced a solution for starvation, that implies that our science is severely limited and really of no use what so ever. Let’s face it – our science is only entertainment, it’s something we do because we think we’re smart, and we find out new stuff, that apparently no one has found out before, so we can apparently discover ‘the secret’ and then feel all mysterious, in awe and good about ourselves.

My god – there is no secret!

I also thought for a long time that I had to find myself, or I had to find the truth that is somehow hidden just in-front of my eyes, until I realized that there is nothing hidden in front of my eyes, what I see is what is here; there is nothing more to figure out – reality is based upon cause and effect and that’s how simple it is – as such there is only one single truth, and that truth is able to be seen by everyone, and without any effort or struggle. One simply removes the mind-bullshit as one’s own private reality, as thoughts, feeling and emotions – and suddenly the real reality become visible, as this physical actual reality that is right here.

And I mean – why should I go around attempting to find myself? And find truth? I am here – I breathe and I am here – that’s it – I am found! And as to the truth, the truth is here, as this world, and the solutions that can in-fact make it a better world is right in front of our eye’s and very simple; yet we don’t see them! Because we don’t want to! Because if we decide to in fact see what is here, and what the solutions are to solve the crisis that is here, we would see that it entails giving up our mind, as our separate reality, and in-fact living in a way that’s best for all, and we simply won’t do that – yet.

So, while our scientists waste their time inventing theories, further separating themselves from the real reality, and I have to sit and read this shit, apparently ‘broadening my perspective’ and ‘learning something’ – the world spirals into a complete fucking mess. And still there is no solution to starvation, because that would in-fact require some practical changes to take place, considering all life that is here and not only ourselves; and so for that has not been our strong side. We’ve much more liked to invent cool theories and entertain ourselves, while continuing to live out our day-to-day destructive behavior, waiting for god to take us to heaven, so that we can live for eternity.

My god – everything in this world is so fucked up and twisted.

But I mean, the buck stops with me, I am going to stop my mind as my own scientist in my head, as my own research, existing in a separate reality, lost in my thoughts, in a little bubble between my ears. I’ve decided to come back to reality – this one reality that we all share – and in-fact support myself and everyone else in this reality to have a cool life, and see the actual truth that is here, and as such enable myself to apply a real and actual solution; finally giving up my self-interest and desire for myself to live a cool life, while everyone else is disregarded.

Yeah – I am coming back to reality, if you was to tag along then visit www.desteni.co.za, and sing up in the desteni I process – the course of reality exploration.

Until next time!

Attractive Women Have Higher Paid Jobs

Attractive women have higher paid jobs. So says a news article from today.

Research done in 2007 showed that attractive women earned 12 % more than unattractive women. Further the research has shown that attractive people are experienced, and perceived as being more pleasant, nice, and in possession of more positive characteristics than unattractive people. The attractive people are also treated better at their work than the unattractive.

So, what does all of this show?

It shows that we are possessed by ideals, perceptions and judgments. In a more simpler term = we are brainwashed.

That pretty people get’s more money than ugly people shows how unfair, and abusive this world is, and how much the concept of free will is bullshit. If there was free will you would be able to get the same pay as the beautiful people if you happen to be ugly – you can’t! And you can’t walk your way out of poverty if you are born poor – it’s another lie sold to the world in order to hide the fact of how discriminative this world is.

We have a society where we have made sex and beautiful pictures more than the being standing in front of us. We’ve taken fantasies of our mind and deemed it to be more valuable than an actual physical being. Maybe this is why our society lacks substance – because our choices and decisions don’t hold any substance. We make decisions based upon pictures, illusory feelings, attractive and unattractive – values placed upon the physical, masking what is here as reality.

Because what is reality? What is actually affecting, influencing and creating your life? It’s not pictures, it’s not feelings, it’s not attractiveness and it’s not unattractiveness – it’s physical movement. Thereby the physical movement and application of each being should be the starting point from which you take decisions, as that is the actuality of the being, as what will have a direct influence and effect upon your life.

At the moment we instead take decisions based upon abstract ideals that holds little to no relevance at all in the physical. Towards an attractive woman you might find yourself becoming aroused – though that won’t mean much when you later realize that this woman is your worst nightmare, and that you and her can’t in anyway work together. That is a direct outflow of not considering what is really here, and what actually has an effect upon reality.

So, from two perspectives our behavior to select which people are going to be in our lives, and how in turn we are going to act towards them is stupid.

One: If you select people based upon their looks you won’t have the most effective people, the people you work with the best, the people you are able to enjoy yourself with the most – you will have people that arouse you, and that’s it.

Two: Towards those that aren’t considered to be attractive by societies rules and norms a discriminative attitude and behavior of favoring beautiful people isn’t very cool. You have a harder time to get a job, to get money, you’ll not be treated as well and you’ll be less likely to have so-called “friends” – though I wouldn’t worry about the last part, it’s all about fear of being alone anyway.

So – how to end this fuckedupness?

It will take years of education to re-train people so that they don’t live their lives based upon the pictures they have been trained to like. In a equal money system such a re-education is possible. In our current money system it isn’t, as all our education at the moment is based upon profit. We need education that goes beyond profit, and that supports the individual for no other reason but wanting him to live to his greatest ability.

So – investigate equal money and less take apart the discriminative nature of man.

Pregnant Woman Fired From Her Job

A newspaper reports the following:

A women got pregnant while working at a movie studio – her boss then attempted to remove her from being a full time worker to part time worker = she refused. Her boss then, according to the newspaper, attempted to freeze the women out from the social community of the workplace.

The woman was then fired – the reason given by the boss – she was embezzling the company’s money; while the woman say she was fired due to her pregnancy, because her pregnancy would cost the film studio money. The woman has now proceeded to sue the company – as it’s by law forbidden in Sweden to fire someone only due to their pregnancy.

So – what is the origin within this situation? What does this entire drama stem from? Can you see it? Lying in the backdrop of each action, word and thought acted out be the woman as well as the boss. Oh yes, MONEY!

Let’s look at the situation of the employer:

The employer as an entrepreneur is under constant pressure to earn money. If he doesn’t earn enough money he will not be able to support himself with the necessary commodities needed for survival. When as such, a woman becomes pregnant, that is to have a right to take long leave from the company yet still be paid – this means loss of money for the entrepreneur.

Thus – he acts out his fear, he attempts to save the money he is loosing, as his ability to support himself in this world through the measures explained above. He’s doing it in order to survive. Can you blame him? Is it his fault? Or, is it our collective fault as a humanity, due to having accepted and allowed ourselves to be subject to a money system that is ruthless and brutal in it’s nature – forcing you into submission and survival.

Would you have done the same as him? What would you have done when you had no money? How long would you go to protect your money? Can we – with the play-out as presented above actually say that children, and life is supported in this world? I mean – here is an obvious, literal example as to how that which is not a source for profit becomes disregarded and rejected – in this case – a pregnant mother. The moment you are not able to fulfill your role in the matrix as a effective source, and battery for the creation of money – you are disregarded. Such is the fucked-up reality we face people.

Let’s then look at the woman’s position:

The woman is about to have a child – she is about to enter a period in her life in which she will be very vulnerable, and she will need much assistance from those around her – in order to have childbirth be effective and supportive.

As she announces her childbirth all support, as money is withdrawn from her world. She is fired from her job, as she no longer represents a battery and source for money. Nobody cares of her, nobody cares of the baby she is carrying – in our current money system – the actual birthing of a new being in this world is valued less than money. As such – the women will probably become afraid, stressed out, nervous – not having access to money, and so her childbirth and her first moments with her child will be contaminated with fear of the future – will she have enough money?

Not only the first moment of the child’s experience with his mother – but his entire life-experience with the mother will be in the context of survival, fear and pressure – as the mother won’t have sufficient comfort, stability, and calm to interact effectively with her child – she will all the time be worried about money.

Look at the enormous role that money plays:

Our relationship with money shapes our life, it shapes our relationships, it shapes our food, our experience of ourselves, our experience with others – it shapes our childhood – where our parents wealthy and calm? Did they spend time with us, or where they all the time working?

How many parents loose it? Snaps, screams and lash out on their children due to the pressure the carry of bringing money into their world?

People – let’s look at the situation here:

We have an abusive system – we have a system that doesn’t support parents, or children, or moviemakers. It doesn’t support creativity, it doesn’t support enjoyment, it doesn’t support sincerity, it doesn’t support caring, it doesn’t support assistance, and it doesn’t support anything –BUT – fear, fear and fear. The hunt for survival is what the human race has become, and has always been. The fear and pressure always existent on top of our shoulders to bring the necessary money into creation each day – so we will be able to survive.


This is not a worthy way to live, and this is not a necessary way to live. There is another world that is possible. There is a world that is heaven for all possible. We do not need to live in constant fear, pressure, anxiety and competition – there is a world of mutual joy and care possible! All we need to do is – realize that such a world is possible!

Research equal money:

So – open your eyes to a new world. A world where people are not fired from their jobs when they become pregnant – where employers are not living in fear of having their company loose money – where no-one is being forced into scarcity, but all are given in abundance.

A world of abundance is possible!