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Day 434: Money Does Not Measure Value

I read an article in the newspaper today about a research study that had found that children that are deemed “kind” as young earn higher wages when they are older. And then there was a general discussion  on how to support your child to become more kind so that they could be able to earn more money when they become adults.

To me such a perspective on children is fucked up. What happens is that the entirety of the child and a supportive quality becomes measured against one aspect – money – aka survival. Seeing kids in that light has such a depressing vibe and unfortunately the vantage point of “money first” has really come to define most parts of society. It is seldom that principles are discussed in politics without being related to money and costs. And when it comes to education and choosing a profession, what is seen as the most important thing is earning potential. Though is that all we are supposed to be and do in this life? Earn money to survive and buy things and then eventually die? What about giving to society and other people? Those values have been lost – and that is something we have to change.

And, I do see that the new generation that is coming of age has a new way of looking at things. Environment has become important to youngsters and principled living is on the rise. And that is what I think we all need to incorporate into our lives to become more fulfilled. We do miss living a life that has impact and that is part of something greater. We will never be able to buy ourselves peace and fulfillment – there will always be a feeling of emptiness within us as long as we do not make the whole a part of us and vice versa. And that which is humanities greatest weakness, our urge to be individuals and that we cannot work together towards common goals, when changed, that is going to be our greatest asset and road to salvation. If we would work together and put principles first and money second – there are few things we would not be able to do.

Conscription is a way in which countries have been able to harness the strength of unity that is available when people work together. Unfortunately, we have used that power to make war. Though, the way I see it, conscription could be used to support equality, connection and growth in a community. Imagine all youngsters for one year in their early adulthood being sent to work in some vital aspect of society, such as farming, creating infrastructure, or constructing housing. Not only would it support connection between people, it would also give young people an practical education for free that they could use later on in life.

The point I want to make is that it is not healthy to measure life according to money – it is not healthy to measure society according to money and you cannot measure the vitality of a country using money. What matters is relationships between people and how we care for one another. I would like my daughter to grow up and live in a country where I knew that whatever happened to me, she would be wholly taken care of. A country where money would not matter, because what mattered was to give everyone the best life possibly. What a society and country that would be. Imagine the amount of fear that we could remove. Because is not the root of all fear that we are going to be hurled out the window and unto the streets the moment we are not able to fight back and defend our position?

At least I know what I am going to do personally. I am not going to evaluate my child based on money. And I will help her to develop supportive qualities – not for money – but because she will be able to live a much more fulfilling life.


Day 421: A House Divided Cannot Stand

A house divided cannot stand.

And unfortunately – humanity is a house divided. We are divided because we become too attached to our own personal lives – too involved in the belief that our life is what matters the most – and far removed from the notion that humanity is one race – living on one planet – all breathing the same air – all exposed to the same conditions – all made of flesh and blood. We are all from earth – though from the moment we are born – our devolution into personality begins. And this is why we as of yet are unable to manifest lasting and effective change for all people on earth to have the best life possible – we are too separated from one another.

Imagine if all of us would feel the pain of everyone else. The moment one starve, everyone would experience the deep pain, the slow decomposition and deterioration of muscles and fat and the increasing fear of death. How different our world would be. In such a world – there would be no wars – the pain of such an event would be excruciating – far too extreme to outweigh any form of reward. In such a world there would be enormous investments made to empower and better the lives of the poor, sick and elderly – as everyone would experience the consequences. Actions that further the empowerment of humanity as a whole would be rewarded and seen as distinguished acts – because these would lessen the pain and increase the sense of well-being for everyone.

Imagine such a world – a world where our nervous system would be connected to everyone else’s – no separation – no hiding. In our real world, there is no such thing – here we must rely on our empathy and our ethereal connection to earth/life/the physical – and this has been a complete failure. We are in most cases unable to stand together, to feel one another, and to care for one another. Our political opinions are proof of that – because how are we able to have different opinions of what would be best if we would not be divided and each of us have our own agenda and idea of what is best.

Living oneness and equality practically is not easy. The challenge is to remain stable and considerate when survival triggers comes into play, such as hunger, deprivation of sleep, cold or excessive heat. And I would say that for most people that is impossible – we are deeply programmed on a physical level to preserve ourselves and our survival. However – when our survival is granted – interesting things happen.

I recently watched a documentary called the boat. It was about a sociological experiment on conflicts. The researcher had the idea that only in a pressured state would the true nature of human beings come forth. Therefore he constructed a small boat with a sail, designed to keep 12 people in very close proximity. The boat was inhabited with a mixture of people from different ethnicities, cultures, religions and colors of skin – with the idea that this would be potential causes of conflict. The state of fear was supposed to be induced by the fact that these people would sail in the boat over the Atlantic, drifting with the currents and also using the sail – a difficult and potentially life-threatening journey.

What happened was interesting. Instead of conflict – what occurred was that the people started to working together, form a tightly knitted team, to effectively deal with the external dangerous that they were exposed to. Instead of becoming divided, they becoming united, solidified, and strong as one group. The researcher became increasingly frustrated – because he expected conflict – and even though the conditions seemed to be perfect – nothing happened. And thus he attempted to provoke conflicts between the members of the group, without result.

In the end the researcher viewed the experiment as a failure – because he had not learned anything about conflicts. However – what I see is that the experiment does show some very important points when it comes to conflict and fighting between people. Firstly – fighting and conflicts are very much a result of how we have designed our current system – where all are pushed into a state of survival and are pitted against one another in a capitalistic race. If we compare to the boat, there each participant were dependent on the other members of the group – and there was no systematic competition – instead the group competed against external elements to empower itself and its members.

Secondly – in the boat scenario – there were no shortages of food, water or accommodation – and the resources on the ship were to my knowledge distributed equally between the members of the group. This is a point that is in stark contrast the normal society were resources are distributed arbitrarily to the people that happen to have the most money – and there is no regard for any innate value in human beings – as each are only valued according to the amount of money that they have.

What is interesting thus is that this researcher actually created circumstances on his boat that allowed for peace and mutual cooperation to come through – even though he thought that he was creating an environment that would induce massive amounts of conflict.

Thus – to get back to the initial point. If we want to be able to create a new world, a new way, where everyone gets to have a life of dignity – a life of love and enjoyment – we need to start working together – start encouraging our strides forward no matter how small they might be – and stop dividing. We do not need more opinions – we need more understanding. And we do not need more leaders – we need more groups that stand and work together as one towards creating a better life for everyone.


 

Day 287: When a NO is more of a YES

Walking the Desteni process you get to learn how to stop your mind; for example, how to stop anger, irritation, fear, etc. In my own process I have enabled myself to stop various forms of thoughts, experiences, and other type of mind related points. Mostly, I have done this through stating ‘STOP!’ Or ‘NO!’ within me as the mind point arise. However, there are certain points that I have had difficulty with and that still at times pester me. These points have in common that my ‘NO!’ does not seem to have any effect. I will say ‘NO!’ inside of me several times, yet nothing happens, nothing moves, it is as if I have rather said ‘Okay!’ inside of myself.

When this happens it indicates that the ‘NO!’ is not clear and absolute. It indicates that there still is some form of hidden self-interest lurking in the background. In having this hidden self-interest I will then corrupt my NO statement, and sneak in some silent YES statements. The YES statement does not necessarily have to be expressed in the mind – it can come up as this underlying and deep movement of resistance. It will feel like I am not completely present in my body – an experience of resignation.

Thus, when this happens, I have found that it is important to locate the hidden point of self-interest. The self-interest will vary depending on the mind point. For me I have seen that my difficulty in stopping certain anger reactions has been because I held unto the self-interest of wanting division of labor and responsibilities to be fair and just. And I have seen that my problems with changing fear and social anxiety has been related to the self-interest of wanting to protect myself, and feel in-control in social contexts. And fears with regards to job, career and money has several times been connected to the self-interest of wanting to be in control, and secure more money for myself to feel safe.

The key to being able to stop the mind is to get to the point of standing as a clear and absolute NO – and to embrace a clear and absolute NO there cannot be any self-interest still existing within self. Jesus said that a house divided against itself cannot stand – and the same principle applies within us. If we state NO yet we do not back that statement fully – we will not stand. The reason for a division within self is because there are parts of self not yet investigated and directed – hence the importance of self-introspection and writing. In getting to know all of our own secrets, we empower ourselves to make a clear and absolute decision as to who we are – and that makes all the difference.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that when and as I have a difficulty in stopping myself and saying – NO – and living that NO – then there is a hidden self-interest that I have not yet opened up and directed – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not utilize writing and self-forgiveness to open up and direct all points of self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold unto self-interest when it comes to unfairness, when I feel that I am doing more work than others, and thus through holding unto this self-interest, disable myself from effectively stating NO and stopping anger and frustration coming up when I feel that I am doing more than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold unto a self-interest of me doing less than or equal to others when it comes to physical labor and caring for other responsibilities – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to do more than others – and to not want to commit myself and my time to helping and assisting others – feeling/experiencing that it is ‘my time’ and that I as such have primary importance – in that I should be allowed to do what I want with my time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize anger as a way of complaining about me feeling that the division of labor is not fair and equitable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the division of labor and responsibilities to be equitable – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to put in more effort – but only give as much as is needed – the smallest amount possible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to push, create and move points, so that they work, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to make them the best that they can be – and give that extra effort to move the point into a state of perfection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist pushing for perfection, because I feel that it is not worth the effort, and thus be content with mediocrity – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be content ‘when things work’ – instead of pushing myself to make things work excellently – and only then – when things are in optimum condition – having reached their fullest potential – accept and allow myself to be content with myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to closely watch others and the amount of physical work and activity they put down into their responsibilities – so that they will not trick me so that I get to do the brunt of the work – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within this state of policing – where I attempt to make sure that all responsibilities are divided equitably and fairly – and that no one gets to do more than another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand as an example of pushing myself to do that little extra that makes a point of creation excellent – perfect – and something to be proud over

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not unconditionally push myself to contribute to my life and others in my life – through giving my responsibilities and commitments my utmost attention – and pushing them to perfection – hence not accepting and allowing myself a point to be only ‘good’ or ‘working’ – but instead pushing for the point to be perfect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist working and taking care of responsibilities – because I feel that others have done less than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify giving into laziness and apathy through thinking that I have already done enough – and that now it is time for others to step up and do their part

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify doing the least amount of work through thinking that others are doing the same and that I am no worse than what they are

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to release this self-interest within me of wanting to do as little work as is possible – and instead embrace the point of pushing myself in work and physical labor – to through that create value for myself as well as others

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that I am going into wanting to avoid work because I feel that I have already done enough, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that this pattern of wanting to do the least amount possible is not best for me, neither best for others, and is creating the dynamic of competition – where each one only want to do the least amount possible – and trying to divide the work equitably – yet always there will be the feeling that someone gets to do more than another – thus I commit myself to embrace work, and responsibilities – to push myself to take them to perfection and not fear/resist taking on more than others – understanding that I create value for myself and others through my movement – and that I stand as an example for others in my decision to move

When and as I see myself policing others, because I want to make sure that they do the exact same amount of work as I do, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize and understand that this state of policing brings me into a mindset of looking at what others are doing, instead of looking at what I am doing, and how I can contribute, and how I can support myself and others – thus entering into a state of competition – instead of remaining within a state of creation – thus I commit myself to place my focus on me and what I create – what I contribute with – what I give and how I am able to support and bring through that which is supportive and best for all

When and as I see myself feeling that it is unfair, or unjust, that others seem to be doing less than me, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this feeling, that it is unjust, that it is unfair, that it is not right, that this experience is not supportive for me in my self-creation process and in me building and creating my life – instead my focus becomes trying to make sure that everyone is doing the exact same – instead of looking at what I can do that will support/bring through what is best for all – thus I commit myself to push myself to give more – to work more – to act more – to not look at what others are or are not doing – rather focus on what I can give and do for myself as well as others in my life

Day 195: What Are We Waiting For?

In reading this blog as well as listening to this interview – I’ve come to realize some very cool points that I will now take into application in my life.

So, what I’ve realized is in essence that I’ve been waiting in relation to actually taking the step into the unknown – committing myself fully to my process of self-change and actually walking through it – and I see that a point that have contributed to this is the idea and belief that I am not able to walk this process of change – that I am not able to change and birth myself as life from the physical.

Though, obviously – I am able to do this – and the reason I can say this is because I’ve everything I will ever need at my disposal – I’ve the tools – self-forgiveness – self-writing – and self-commitment statements – I’ve a functional human physical body – I am breathing and I’ve a functional mental capacity – thus – there are no excuses and there are no justifications why I shouldn’t make it the purpose and focus of each day to bring through the potential that I know I am able to live.

After listening to the interview I recapitulated my process – I looked at what I am facing within – what I’ve been working with for an extended period of time – and where it is crucial that I push myself to actually change for real – and I see that the time of preparation in regards to these points is DONE – I’ve prepared myself – I’ve laid the foundation – I’ve walked the writing – I’ve walked the self-forgiveness – and now it’s time to bring this into physical application – and to take my self-commitment statements into living – and make my spoken and written wordliving words.

Thus – I’ve committed myself to make the primary point of attention in process to live my practical commitment statements – to get back to the basics and walk through these persistent and nagging points – that I’ve not yet fully pushed myself to transcend – that I’ve still in a way waited for to change – not realizing that when the points arise within me – I must stand as that point of movement that makes the decisions – that I will the point into physical manifestation and change – the only one that is able to do this is MYSELF – so – practical application – practical change – practical movement – being practical – and engaging in my process practically – that will for the time being be a priority.

And I see that it’s not that this practical application part of process is particularly difficult or tough – not more tough than other parts and aspects of process – it’s just that – I’ve never done it – I’ve never fully committed myself to it and walked it – and that is what I must do – to actually get my hands dirty – do it – do it – make the mistakes – and then – perfect the point – so that I establish this point of taking my self-commitment statements into practical physical application.

One of my primary motivations in doing this is that I realize what an opportunity that I’ve – that there is potential for me to create myself – and that I don’t want to under any circumstances look back at myself and my life – when I die – and realize that I didn’t give it my all – thus I take preventive measures and make sure that I give this my all – every day – every breath – push through and walk the point – until it’s done.

Persistency – Consistency – Steadfastness in Self-movement – those are the keys for real change to be birthed from the physical.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself within and as persistency, consistency and steadfastness – standing fast in my determination to walk this point through – to apply myself and walk this process to the best of my ability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving this process and myself – my everything and all – in fearing that my best and to the fullest of my ability won’t be enough – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to half-ass myself through my process believing that it won’t be enough when I give it my all – and also thinking that it will take too much effort – and be uncomfortable and too much if I give this process my all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not wake up each day with a clear intent and motivation to bring forth change on a practical on physical level in myself and in my world – with a clear intent and motivation to push through and move myself through the difficult and tough points that I’ve been working with – and seeing, realizing and understanding that I am able to do this – that it’s about me aligning myself within that clear intent and determination that I do possess – and that I must re-direct into process and into bringing through physical practical change on a daily basis and not stopping – not holding back and not quitting – until this is done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not develop and strengthen my spirit – my ability to stand – to support myself and practically apply myself when I face tough and difficult shit within me – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practice this point through the application of when a reaction emerge within – to immediately ask – where did this come from? How did I create this? And then look at solutions – to apply self-forgiveness on the point and immediately move myself out from the energy – to use breath to support myself to step out of the character and get into the physical here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this is my last life – and that when I die – I will be measured – and I will stand before myself and ask myself – what did I do? Did I give this my all and everything? And within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in that moment I want to see with full certainty and surety that – yes – I did absolutely everything in my power to move myself – to expand – to correct myself – to live my words into the physical – and that I did take this opportunity and I made the most of it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must create myself as the character of life – that I must bring into existence those characteristics that I see that I must have and live in order to walk this process and birth myself as life from the physical – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that walking this process half-assed – walking it without really meaning it – walking it without really wanting it – it’s meaningless and waste of time – because I won’t get anywhere – in order to actually expand – in order to actually move – in order to actually develop myself and stand – I must mean it – and I must live it fully

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that common characteristic of people that have produced marvelous results with their lives is that they gave it their all – they didn’t waver or give up – but kept on pushing regardless of what issues – challenges or difficulties that they faced – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself with that same intensity and will – with that same spirit and power to push through and move myself – and produce results regardless of what I am facing – and stand steadfast within myself in understanding that walking process and producing self-change is a matter of accumulation – is a matter of remaining consistent throughout time – and walking the correction and the direction that I’ve placed for myself until I stand – until I’m in a position where I am stable and sound and there is not anymore any movement within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spoiled with the tools of self-forgiveness, writing, and self-commitment statements, and in that use them half-assed – instead of when I sit down to do my writing – when I sit down to do my self-forgiveness – to be fully and totally here – to do it completely and absolutely – and to be here in the physical and walk the point with presence of breath – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and recognize the opportunity that these tools represent – the opportunity that living these tools in the physical represent – and that all the answers – and that the life I’ve been looking for – that it’s before me – and that all I have to do is to stop waiting – and simply step up and take these tools to their fullest potential through living them practically – and doing that consistently day-by-day – until it’s done

Self-commitment statements

I commit myself to each day wake up with a clear intent and motivation that I am walking my process – this is why I am here on earth – to birth myself as life from the physical – and thus I will use this day that is before me to fully apply myself – to stop myself when I notice I go into thoughts, emotions or feelings – to remain here with my breath and practice stabilizing myself in the physical – and to make sure that I do my writing – and that I walk my Desteni I Process course – and that I use the support-platforms that are here at my disposal for me to embrace and make my own

I commit myself to stop waiting and make each day a complete and fulfilling day – through taking the tools and my practical application to it’s fullest potential – through being HERE – and applying myself – taking my practical commitment statements into physical living – and creating myself as life from the physical – and walking this point until it’s done

Day 66: From Personal To Physical Living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take things personally, and to believe that everything that occurs in my world is a personal attack against me, and that accordingly my world is against me, and that what I must do to survive in this world is to spend every minute of my time to fight against this world, believing that if I was to stop fighting, I would become overrun, and completely destroyed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that other human beings are in essence out to get me, and that thus the common sense is to make sure that I have my defense system set up at all times, wherein I utilize such points as fear, anxiety, and emotions, to guide myself in my world, and to avoid situations that I perceive to be threatening, and to avoid, and push away people that I perceive to be threatening, and that I perceive can harm my survival in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lock myself into a state of taking things personally, wherein I will blame my world as having harmed me, and having insulted, and personally diminished me, and that I am thus allowed to blame, I am allowed to go into a state of victimization because apparently what others do to me, and how I feel about it, it’s others responsibility and thus I am simply allowed to relax back into a state of blame, and a state of shoving my experiences unto others, thinking that it’s others fault and not my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how ineffective I become in my direction, and movement in reality when I take things personally, and how when I take things personally, everything becomes about me, it becomes about my feelings, my thoughts, my ideas, my perceptions, and that I within this completely forget the point of realizing that I am a equal participant in this world, and that nothing in this world just happens by itself, and that nothing in this world is a coincidence, and that only within standing in this point of responsibility am I in-fact able to have a impact in this world, and I am able to change, and direct points that come up – because I don’t take it personally, I stand stable here, and I direct the point within and as objectivity as what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive, and believe that I gain something by taking things personally, and use taking things personally as a sort of introverted punishment, wherein I try to make others feel guilty, and feel bad about themselves, because apparently they harmed me greatly, and thus I am now allowed to look at others as the bad guys, and have others feel responsible for how I experience myself, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how this is limiting me, and how there is really no need to take anything personal – I mean to be a personality, a point in this world subjected to individuality as “my world” – that is simply limitation because it implies I must fight for my survival; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not align myself with life principle here – standing as what is best for all – not as a individual but as all as one as equal here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that for me to be effective, and have a impact in this world, I must let go of the point of taking things personally in everyway possible, because one of the points I am going to face extensively in this world in walking out of limitation, is rejection, is anger, is frustration, and it’s the mind demons of others; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to not take things personally, but to realize that what another experience is not about me – and even if it’s about me – the point of making the information emotional is simply ridiculous and serves no purpose; because the most effective way to change is simply to SEE and then DIRECT here in oneness and equality in one breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that it’s my decision to take things personally, and that taking things personally is not a creation of nature, it’s not a natural point that must exist within me so to speak, I mean it’s a point that I’ve created through looking at how my parents look at, and perceive themselves in relation to the world, wherein I’ve believed that taking it personally is a normal, and acceptable human trait, and that I should hold unto this point, and continue living the way my parents have lived; and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that this is not a effective starting point from which to live, and that I require to change this point within myself – and accordingly not live from within and as a starting point of wanting to be my parents, but realizing that my parents information has been flawed and that I must re-design myself according to common sense as what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that taking things personally is a program, a mind creation that exists as thoughts, experiences, emotions and feelings – and that in the physical as living here, there is no concept such as taking things personally, as there is simply HERE – and when a point arise HERE the point is simply directed – and there is no experience, there is no thought, there is no emotions, there is no feeling – and that is the difference between direct physical living, and mind living; the mind creates lot’s of unnecessary shit and the physical DIRECTS immediately here – equal and one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how I am not benefiting anything in holding unto taking things personally, and that all I am doing is that I am preventing myself from standing as a example in my reality, wherein I direct myself to live, and make decisions that are best for all, and wherein I am not held back, or hindered, or stupefied be and through the mind as emotions, thoughts, and feelings; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize the superiority of the human physical body – and see, realize, and understand that the physical body directs points HERE and that there is no bullshit within it – it’s simply directing the point here and then getting it done with – clearing the point – clearing the ineffectiveness – and then moving unto the next point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to defend, and hold unto the point of taking things personally, believing that it’s some type of protection towards others, and that I am within holding unto things personally apparently making sure that I can’t be fucked with, because I make sure that I am sensitive, and that I am really alert as to when someone apparently “attack me” – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand the limitation in this starting point, and to realize that I am not protecting myself towards anything – I mean I am only secluding myself in my mind trying to avoid facing myself through blaming others, and justifying this through thinking that it’s necessary while it’s in-fact not at all necessary and that taking it personally only serves to make me more ineffective in my daily application and living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become tense, and uncomfortable, and nervous when and as I perceive that someone is angry at me, and go into a state of defense, and protection, wherein I take the perceived anger of another personally, and I go into a state of lock-down – wherein I blame the other person for my lock-down, and for my experience of discomfort and feeling tense; and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, perceive, and believe that I require, and need to hold unto this state of tenseness, and that I have not choice, I have no freedom to make a decision that I should experience myself otherwise; and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to change my experience myself through in the moment breathing out the tenseness, and the discomfort – and to bring myself back here – to equalize myself here as breath as the physical – and to state who and what I am – to state how I live; and to practice living stability through breathing as stability here within and as each and every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I experience discomfort within me, or when and as I experience myself as being tense, to have a reoccurring pattern within me of blame, wherein I immediately state that: “the reason must be someone else!” – “someone else is doing this to me!” – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the obvious common sense, that I am alone in my mind, that I am alone in my physical body, and thus what I experience within and as me is always a creation of and as the mind as the points in me that I’ve not directed one and equal here; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop blaming others, and to take full responsibility for myself, and too realize that what goes on within me is my responsibility, is my point to direct and walk

When and as I see that I take something personally, and I go into a state of discomfort, and tenseness, and I blame others, as being the reason for my experience, and I hold unto my experience as a way of protecting myself; I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize, and understand that: I am responsible for what occurs within me, and that nobody but me is able to direct this point to a completeness, and that I can blame, and point fingers all my life, but change will only occur when I decide to live self-responsibility; as such I commit myself to stop blaming, to stop pointing fingers, and to stop looking at others as being the fault, the mistake, and the point of wrong; and I bring myself back here and realize that it’s all about me – and as such I am the solution – and I must correct myself

When and as I see that I am taking things personally and that I look at things occurring in my world as being a personal attack against me, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here, and I see, realize, and understand that nothing is personal, because I mean, everything is here as the physical, thus there is really no personal point, it’s instead a physical point, and in the physical all points are simply directed HERE with no experience, with no point of personal interpretation; as such I commit myself to face, and direct points HERE as breath with no experience and no point of personal interpretation – but to face what is here as breath within oneness and equality as here

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