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Day 231: The Art of Doing It

“If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.”

“If you spend too much time thinking about a thing, you’ll never get it done.”

Bruce Lee

Sometimes there points open up that are obvious, and in my case, it was a movement that arose from within, coming through as a projection – where the projections was a picture of me following through on a project which entails me getting myself out into the system – out into the world – taking action – meeting people – speaking and interacting.

Just-Do-It-NowThe fascinating thing is that I didn’t take that projection into physical manifestation, it remained on a level of thought, a potential, a maybe – and even though I could experience and see – that this was something I wanted to do and that would allow me to grow and expand – I didn’t take it to the point of actual movement – and this is what I want to discuss in this blog today – identifying and forgiving this blockage that hinders me from movement.

In my case I can see this blockage quite clearly – and it’s called fear – and it’s not any fear – it’s fear of failure. This fear of failure leads me to get stuck in the stage of preparation – because one thing is a given – when I continually prepare and never go out there and give the show – I’m certain to never EVER fail. Though I’m also as certain to never do anything challenging and difficult with my life either – thus remaining in the stage of preparation is thus a recipe for mediocrity – and it’s also a form of complacency = complacency being the state where I’m fine and okay with the way things are – even though there is no movement/expansion/growth happening.

Thus – what I can see is that preparation is to a certain extent supportive – though at some point preparation – and getting ready for the future becomes a cave where we hide from stepping out into the unpredictable – and unfortunately that is what my preparation have become – a point of hiding.

Though – the cool thing about seeing this is that I can now begin taking steps to actually create my future and my life instead of preparing for it – so this is what I am now actively going to do – beginning with the small – which entails to see where I’ve postponed certain actions and points of direction – because I’ve been preparing into infinity – and easy as pancake making the decision to step out of preparation-mode – and put myself out there.

The worst thing that can happen is that I fail – and that is a much more enjoyable outcome than complacency and doing nothing at all.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become stuck in a state of complacency and preparation – where I see what it is that I’d like to do and express – yet instead of taking that point here – and living it in my everyday life – I project outside of myself into a future that I must prepare for – which is a form of self-sabotage and hiding – because obviously I will never get out there and actually do something unless I step into my physical body and move out to get out there and do things – act – live – speak and share myself – and get points moving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure – and in fear of failure hide myself in a state of non-doing – believing that through non-doing I can contain and save myself from the adversities of failure – and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I’m in-fact limiting and containing myself into a state of diminishing – because I’m not accepting and allowing myself to actively put myself out there – to actively go where I haven’t gone before – to actively expand myself – and move myself out of my comfort-zones – because I see, realize and understand that it’s in my challenging and moving myself through my comfort-zones that I will expand – grow – and become a more potent and effective human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to contain myself in preparation-mode – trying to save myself from the embarrassment and fear that could come into my body if I failed and didn’t manage to fulfill my ideals of success that I’ve created in my mind – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from self-creation – to hide from my potential and what I see myself doing in this world – through preparing – not realizing that in order to get good at something – and order to establishing myself within a certain field and learn new skills – I require to put myself out there and fail several times – and from this perspective failure is the road to greatness – because only through failing can I see what isn’t failure – and thus move myself to create that path for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to create myself and my life – and build myself – and do what it is that I want to do in this life – I require to take a chance and possibly – and that without accepting and allowing myself to take the risk of failure – there won’t be any movement – there won’t be any expansion and growth – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not actively put myself out there – and create opportunities for challenging myself – growing – and expanding myself – and becoming more potent and established in my physical process as I take action to put myself out there into the world system and create a life for myself that I want to live and be a part of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that at some stage the time of preparation is done – and then I require to move myself out into the system and actually practice physically what I’ve walked in a protected environment of preparation – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not enjoy this process of moving myself out into the world system – of taking action – of creating and building myself – and seeing, realizing and understanding – that as with everything – it all begins with one step forward – one step followed by the other – and thus what will initially feel hard, difficult and challenging – will with time become easy and effortless – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to get out into the world system from within and as this understanding that it might feel difficult and hard now – though through me doing it again and again – I will become better at it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself through not taking action on the projections coming up in my mind – that I see are these potentials for self-creation that come up as a nudge within me – to go in that direction – to push that particular point – to walk that aspect of my life into creation – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress these nudges/experiences that come up within me – and instead of taking them into practical application – immediately go into and as a state of self-suppression and holding myself back – and containing myself through utilizing the thought that I must prepare myself more before I take the step out into the unknown

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it’s a lot of fun to take the step out into the unknown – and to do things that I’ve not yet done before – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it’s through putting myself out there and doing what I’ve not done before – that I grow – expand – and develop myself – that it’s through this process that I can become more – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this suppression is in-fact made out of fear – and that it’s a fear I use to protect my mind and my comfort zones to be exactly as they’ve always been – so that I don’t have to change and alter my ways – but that I can instead remain the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to step out of character – I require to do things differently – I require to walk down the path that I’ve haven’t tried – and do the things that I’ve not yet attempted – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live from this starting point of actively challenging myself – actively expanding myself – actively seeing how I can connect and network with others to put myself out there – and open up myself and my life to become more challenging and demanding – and realize that a life that is easy – is not a life that allows for self-expansion – because to expand there must be things to move and direct – learn and understand – there must be a growth where I move beyond what I thought myself to be

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that there is a particular aspect, or dimension, or point in my life that I’d like to pursue, and experience, and walk – and this comes up as a projection or slight movement within me – I commit myself to take that point up in me and honor it through moving myself into action – and not accepting and allowing myself to step back – and hold myself back in a point of suppression and fear – and thus I commit myself to nourish these small seeds of self-expansion that arise from within and take them into practical application – to as such expand myself, my life and my considerations – and go beyond what I think myself to be

When and as I see that I am going into a state of being comfortable with my life, being at ease, and having the feeling that I know everything to the tee, and there is no more challenges, I stop myself – I take breath and bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this experience indicates that I’m not pushing myself to get out there – that I am not creating opportunities for myself in my daily life – and not willing myself to expand my sphere of influence – and expand my skillsets and develop myself – and thus I commit myself to challenge myself to walk my life in such a way – that I continuously challenge myself – and move beyond what I thought I was capable of doing – continuously challenging myself to expand and grow – and become more effective – and realizing that this is the only way to live that is truly enjoyable and satisfactory

I commit myself to challenge myself – to move myself beyond my limitations – and I commit myself to make it a daily thing to not stop at what I perceive myself as being capable of – but realize that I can do more – that I can be more – and that it’s me that set the boundaries of my capabilities

Day 124: Living for the System

Today I have been reading about Comparative Law – and comparative law is as you might have guessed, one of these really obscure and perpetually small theoretical subjects that a small number of excited academic devote their life to – and what they do is that they compare the laws of different nations with each other.

What I found so fascinating as I was reading about the history of comparative law – was the immense time and effort that countless of people throughout the history have put in the “academic evolution” of comparative law – writing their long books about these philosophical and apparently interesting subjects. I mean, literally, they have put their LIFES into this – and at the end – what happens? Well, they die, and the sum of their existence becomes a name in a book that I am reading some 200 years later.

So, as I was reading the memorials of these fantastic dead people that had apparently discovered and realized these amazing things, I asked myself – but why did they do it? I mean, what was their goal? The answer the came up within me was: CAREER – oh yes, they did it because of MONEY, FAME and FORTUNE – and regardless of how pious they presented themselves – the one point it all comes back to is – MONEY.

live-lifeI could then more clearly see where I will take my own life if I continue to strive for, and live for a career, and some supposed happiness out there in the future in the form of money – at best – I will end up in some boring book about 200 years from now, where it is explained how I discovered some average, plain, and tedious thing – a couple of sentences will be awarded to me – and I won’t even know because I will be dead and buried a long time ago.

This is the consequence of living for the system – for money – for fame – for success and power – that one’s entire life pass by in lightning speed and before one realize it – it’s all over – and nothing one have ever done is of any substance or worth – nothing has ever assisted or supported anyone – because it’s all be done for money and in the name of self-interest.

It’s fascinating to see how so many of us come to this earth, and we run around like crazy monkeys absolutely wild to “become something” – to “make it” – and then we do – but then we die – and during our lifetime we never spent a single moment to consider; who am I? What is it that I would like to do? What is it that I see would benefit me and everyone else? Who am I if I remove money from the equation? Who would I be if money weren’t an issue?

Fame, money, success and power are insanely overestimated – and in the end – living for those things is not going to lead anywhere what so ever – and this is why I will push myself to in this life step out of my career seeker character – and do something with my life that I want to do – and that I am not doing because I want to “become something” – and have my name printed in a book that nobody is going read anyway.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how it is pointless and meaningless to live for the system, as in living to attain fame, success and power – because fact is that – power, fame and success doesn’t exist – and it isn’t real – and at the end of my lifetime all of these things will disappear and I will stand with nothing – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not devote my life towards building myself – building life skills – building life abilities – building my life character – building and working with that of myself which will stand the test of time and which will not disappear and be washed away by the time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend my time wanting and desiring to impress and become something special and important in the system – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that attaining such a position would mean anything, that it would have any form of intrinsic value, and that it would make me a more substantial and stable human being – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, how all these great people, all these apparent leaders and famous one’s – that in the end all go back to the earth and nothing of their life remains – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not devote my life to myself – to life – and to that which stands the test of time and which stands eternal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live to become someone special and unique – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a fear that I will not become something in this life, that I will not get a special and unique career, that I will not get a fantastic and wonderful life that others are jealous of – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how such a life is but a idea – but a façade – but a mirage that isn’t real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the gravestones standing lined up on grave yards prove one simple thing – that in the end – hierarchy doesn’t exist – fame doesn’t exist – specialness doesn’t exist – because in the end we all end up in the earth – and our bodies decompose and return back to soil – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that living for fame and specialness is self-deception – and also – completely ridiculous and unnecessary – because I am in effect devoting my entire life to something that isn’t real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not devote my life to myself – to not devote my time to life and to myself – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pass up and avoid certain opportunities that open up in world – because I fear that if I walk these opportunities I will not anymore have access to my fantastic and special career that I have imagined myself to have in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blind myself through holding unto the desire to become someone special and unique – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the entire idea of specialness and uniqueness is a farce – as it doesn’t really exist – and the proof of it’s nonexistence is death – because in death all are equal and nobody dies more or less than another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not accept myself as an equal – to not accept that I am not special and that I am not unique – and that I am not able to become special and unique – and thus I am able to dedicate my life to something of real value and substance instead; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not dedicate my life to myself – and to bringing forth something that will be of benefit to each and everyone – something that will not just be remembered as a book in 200 years time – but that will be a practical difference that make the life of all better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to devalue the time I give to myself in the form of writing and applying self-forgiveness – and working with myself – and think that this time is a waste of time – and that I am only using my time for real when I dedicate it to becoming something in the system – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not see, realize and understand that there are billions of beings that have dedicated their life’s towards fame and fortune – and all of these have faced the same fate – death – and in death they have been stripped of all their glory and fortune – proving that none of that is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not equalize myself to that which is real and of substance – which is this physical world and existence – this physical and practical reality that is here in every moment – and that is here in death – that is here in every moment of breath and that is the same regardless of where I stand in the system; and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to devalue and deprioritize that which is real and of real value

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted that which is real – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself take for granted that which is of actual substance, actual worth and actual value – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead place value and worth into my mind – and into the energy of specialness – and into the desire of wanting to become something in the system – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted my physical world and reality that is here in every moment – assisting and supporting me to live – participate and interact – and express myself in this world – and obviously that is of real value and worth – not my mind and the various energies and experiences I have accumulated therein

Self-commitments

When and as I see that I am living for a career, living for money, and living to become someone special and unique, and that is recognized and seen as important in the world system, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that real value is not in money, and it’s not in gaining position in the system, it’s not in being recognized – real value is HERE in every moment of breath – and real value is the physical – real value is recognizing myself – and not taking myself for granted – but utilizing my life and the time I have here to develop something that is real and of substance and that will stand the test of time

When and as I see that I am going into and as this energy of desire, as wanting to become remembered, and wanting to have a special life, so that I can feel good about myself – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that I am in this moment compromising myself – because I am not accepting and allowing myself to live – I am instead living for something else – living for an energy – living for a dream – living for a imagination – and as such I commit myself to take a breath – bring myself back here – and equalize myself here with and as breath – as the physical – and not anymore be a seeker for something more – but a human being living, breathing and expressing myself here

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Graduation Day! Welcome to the World of Bullshit!

Yesterday the third year college students of Sweden ran out from their schools, waving with their hands, shouting, screaming and consuming massive amounts of alcohol – they had done their time.

This event I find to be bizarre and completely delusional. What I find strange is that these college students run out from the school, apparently achieving freedom and having ‘their whole life ahead of them’ – being seen by society as the ‘bright new future’. While in-fact all that awaits them is 60 years of slavery in the system and then they die.

Yes, it’s sad but this is all that our world and the system have become. You go to school as a child, beginning at 6 years of age. There you stay until you are 19, when you are to run out from the college buildings and leave the slavery behind, because now you can apparently ‘choose what to do in life’. Or so they say.

In reality you will not be free, you will not be able to ‘choose what do in your life’ and you have no  ‘whole life ahead of you’ – this is but brainwashing, massive amounts of bullshit that has been thrown at you – to have you accept yourself as a slave. Nobody ever wanted to go to school, because it’s extremely boring and unsatisfying, so a dream had to be made up, a fantasy had to be built. And the rainbow fairy tale is that you are to become free and fulfilled when you push yourself out from those school corridors, thinking: finally it’s the end of this bullshit.

No, it’s not the end of this bullshit. Now you’re left by yourself in this ruthless and cold-hearted money system, where nobody cares about you, and you’re only worth as much money as you’ve got in your pocket. That is the life which awaits all those that graduate. The bullshit taught in school doesn’t give justice to the horror that our actual real system consists of.

The one point that hit me in the face as I quit college was that nobody gave a fuck about me, there was nothing in life waiting for me, there was no hope, and there was nowhere to turn. All around me was an endless desert of bullshit where the prime objective was money – there simply wasn’t any life, anything worthy of living for. Who the fuck wants to live only to earn money? There is no point in only living for money. There is no substance in money. You can buy food and shit with it but it can’t make you satisfied and it can’t have you enjoy yourself for real. For that you don’t require money or the massive amounts of possessions that come with it. Consuming is not a pleasure, it’s not real joy, it’s not real self-expression – it’s bullshit and should be banned.

So, this is why I see the event of these graduating students running out into apparent freedom as bizarre. Because there is no fucking freedom. There is nothing to be fucking happy about. Your running out into a world filled will suffering, slavery, depression, hatred, separation, demon-possession and violence. There is nothing to wave your hat around for.

Though, I suspect few will read and even fewer will agree with what I say. Thus we shall wait a couple of years, so that you might have some experiences as to what this world has become. And this goes for everyone. Everyone is going to crash at an individual level, until we understand that consummation and greed is not valid principles to live by. Until then – have fun!

The System Fucked People

Why do we exist in a world where our money system is accepted as normal?

As I go through my day I often come across people telling me. That I must work to earn my money. And money as it is today is the right to live. So I must work to earn my right to live.

The question I ask now is, who is holding my right to live? Who has decided that he is god and the he is to decide what I must do or not do to be able to live?

And as I look at the system in which I am in. I see nobody. I see really nobody being in control of this system. If we look at a person breaking the law. As he have become pissed of that he must work to earn his right to live. He is sentenced to jail by a judge. Now this judge is as much controlled by the system as anybody else. If the judge do not follow the laws given to him he will be at the mercy of the system. Others will take his place and bring him down and send him to jail.

So everyone follows the laws laid before us. Follows what we believe to be right not considering that what has been laid out before us. Is bullshit. And doesn’t support anyone.

I mean, is there truly anyone sitting with all the power in this system? How easily is not to get into the other side of the system. Where all your control backfire against you. And you are trapped in your own deception.

What is fascinating is how empty this system is. How weak this system is. What really makes this system seem stable, and seem like it’s working is all the people that daily participate and believe this system. The world system to be real.

What if everyone. And here I really mean everyone would realize that this system is a buch of words given worth to by us, and that it serves no real purpose other than to shackle self-expression. The entire system would stop. Everything would stop. Lawyers, judges, policemen, politicians, beurocrats, all the cogs of the machinery suddenly realizing. But hey, what is this really?

That is the funny thing with out system. Some say fuck the system. There is really no system to fuck. There are system-fucked people instead. Which have been fucked with a belief that there are laid-down rules that one must follow. And that one can’t change here to what is best for all.

We got served with shit from the generation before us. But now it’s time to stop the shit and develop some real shit. Some real shit that can support everyone. And instead of fucking the system. We unfuck the people that have been system-fucked through sharing common sense with them. At first they will resist as their ideas and beliefs about reality and what is possible are ingrained. But as we show them how much brighter life could be without a complicated system of laws and rules and ideas that doesn’t benefit anyone. They will see.

And a financial crisis, the total collapse of our current system. Will help us in this regard.