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Day 446: We Need A New System

There is a lot going on in the world and especially the first world countries at the moment; a definitive movement towards something new and unexplored. Governments are venturing into unexplored territories, the economic system is becoming unveiled and people are facing economic and personal crisis on a level that has thus far been spared the western countries.

The big question in all of this is whether we will utilize this chance to expand ourselves or whether we will continue the way we have. At the moment – the big thing everyone is forced to see is the frailty of the economic system. Most of us live from paycheck to paycheck with few or no savings – and thus when an economic crisis hits – there is little we can do. And it is time that we question whether things must be like this, or whether we can in-fact change for the better. Why must money be a scarce resource? Why must unemployment exist? Why must we have inequality, have and have nots? Why do some have to live in poverty while some can live with more money than they can use in a lifetime? Why do we accept and allow a world for our children that is less than awesome?

The world I grew up in was slightly more stable, at least economically, than the world my daughter is going to grow up in. Now there is absolutely no certainty, and the entire system feels like it is toppling on the edge of disaster. And people seems to understand this on a deeper level and that probably why see this sure in panic buying of food and other consumables. People do have that general feeling that things are at the precipice of something bad – and – they are. The reason being that we have a system that does not care about you – and we have people that does not care for each other and the world around them. We have inhumane world – and whomever runs out of money – will find themselves in that hell.

My estimate is that this is not going to be over fast – this is going to stay for a long time – this is the consequence we have created for ourselves by not living in balance and harmony with earth and nature. And if we are able to handle this plague, yet refuse to learn, there will be another one that will hit even more harshly. And the consequences will be deserved. How much have not abused and harmed nature for our own personal happiness? To be able to make more money, buy more things, create more experiences for ourselves? Now – nature says: It is enough – if you are going to abuse me – I will make sure to protect myself with the necessary means.

And then, eventually, our race will become extinct. No more humans left. And most likely, if we remain the same, the world will be a better place without us. However – that can all change. I do see the potential for us to be custodians, to use our intellect for good, to support each-other, support animals, support nature, to blossom and live to the fullest. It is possible – where there is a will – there is a way. Just look at how long we struggled with lowering carbon emissions. Now when the Corona virus arrived and our survival became threatened – we closed our shops and went home. We could have done that before as well. Though we did not – and that is problem – we are still too much in our own personal desires – and not yet in a position within ourselves where we say – I WILL – I WANT to create this/that future.


Day 445: Stand Still and Time for Reflection

Lately part of my life has been circling around the Corona virus and in particular the effects it has had on society and on myself on a personal level. For me this virus shows us people just how vulnerable and connected with the rest of the world we are. We cannot pretend that we are all powerful creatures and that we can do whatever we want believing there will not be any consequences. It is clear that earth is changing, nature is changing, there are now clear effects that flows from our actions and inactions.

The virus pandemic is in part caused due to our destructive behavior towards nature, where we constantly grab more land to be inserted into our economy, leaving none for the wild animals and plants that are needed in this world to keep stability and equilibrium. It is specific that the virus jumped from a wild animal to a human. It was a way for the virus to survive when its own natural habitat became threatened. And now, it has all the habitat it needs, as it has free access and roam to the entire human population.

We really need to stop this notion that things just happen, that virus infections just starts to spread. Everything is specific and this virus tells us that we need to have a look at ourselves. As human beings we have a role as custodians to fulfill on this earth, we could step into the responsibility and commitment to take care of earth and the animal kingdom, yet, we simply have not been able to consider anything else but our own survival and expansion. Thus, that is what we will experience, that will be our consequence. Now we get to experience how it is when a virus, set on its own survival, will duplicate and spread itself, and kill, in order to remain alive. How does that feel? That is what nature and the animal kingdom has to go through every day because of our desire to expand and have more, and more.

Our system has stopped for a moment, markets have crashed, and people look at it as an enormous tragedy. However, is it really that? Have we actually lost something of value? This entire system is not good for anybody. It does not serve life, it does not serve what is best, and there has never been any real passion and drive to create a better world for everyone. Thus, as I see it, we have lost nothing of value. In-fact, this virus has inspired people to become self-sacrificing and benevolent. Politicians are rushing to take economic actions that will save the ecosystem of their countries. People are trying their best to support one another to make it through the crisis and nature is replenishing herself because the meat grind of capitalism has finally halted. Those are good things. Finally some changes are being forced unto humanity.

If we want a stable world for our children, we need to change ourselves, and we need to change our system. Pandemics like the Corona virus will continue to spread and become increasingly hostile unless we do something. The solution is that we take responsibility and step into our creative potential – and decide to make this world BEST FOR ALL instead of just a pleasurable place for a few lucky individuals that happen to have all the money. We need equal money for all, we need a basic income, we need economic changes that put an end to this holocaust, where people and nature becomes the prey of greed.


Day 444: Asking Questions

What is really important? What is really valuable? Why am I here? Why am I doing what I am doing every day? Where am I going?

These questions are essential to me. It is so easy to start moving on auto-mode; going to work, going home, looking forward to the weekend, resisting Monday, and then you start again. We get caught in the rat race, in the wheel going round, and round, and we never stop to look where we are going. These questions are my moment of stopping up, taking a breath, and seeing where I am going and why.

I have listened to several documentaries covering people that have went through a terrible accident and barely surviving it. A experience that is frequently shared by the survivors is how they did not see the accident coming and how they have developed a deeper sense of gratefulness and appreciation of life after the accident. Thus the incidents actually supported the individuals to stop for a moment and take a look at their life’s and what is really important to them.

For me, at the moment, the thing I have realized is that I have a few things that are very important to me. It is my family, my child, and my process of walking to life, and it is creating value beyond myself, for life, reality, the physical, and people/nature. I do not want to live out my life in a bubble, only making sure I take care of myself. I want to contribute to a better world – not be part of the problem – but be part of the solution. Those things are really important to me, and those are the things that I want to build and create my life around. And if I would die having lived/expressed these parts of myself fully – then I would be satisfied and at peace.

I foresee that if more people would look more deeply at what they need, what would be best for them, and what they really would like to live, then life on earth would be very different. And at the moment the greatest hindrance seems to be survival. We are stuck to these survival fears, stuck to beliefs that we are not able or capable of changing our direction, because we are too dependent on money. And then our focus becomes survival, instead of realizing that we could be and do so much more. Pushing through the survival fear is difficult – however – a key that I have found is the realize that we really have no control, or at least, that our control is very limited. When we embrace the fact that life is a series of spontaneous natural changes that we have little power over – and we embrace those changes – money becomes less important – because we realize that the only resource that will stand the test of time is ourselves.

And that reminds me of a salesman that shared how he looked at the word security. He noticed that most viewed security as having a house, money and a stable income, whereas he viewed security as his own ability to handle and directed his world/life every day. And I would say that he did have a point – because what are we able to control but who we are and who we direct ourselves in every moment? Everything else is dependent upon a myriad of variables. And the Coronavirus is a perfect example of that.


Day 443: What We Can Learn from the Corona Virus

The Corona virus. That is what is on every news channel, in every newspapers, everywhere. It has consumed the minds of men. A few fascinating things has happened as a consequence of the Corona virus. One of these is that the economy crashed, which shows how sensitive and weak our current system really is. If we just leave the system for a couple of days, stop working, stop buying things, then it creates massive instability. To balance this instability the central banks are attempting to kick start the economy by inserting more money into the markets – however – it does not really work.

My question in all of this is why we are accepting and allowing ourselves to have and participate in such an unstable system. How come we accept and allow ourselves to create a world where we cannot even leave for a couple of days in order to be sick. And not only that the system is not designed to handle a flu, our personal economies are also not stable enough to handle being away from work for a couple of weeks. Most of us live hand to mouth. Thus it is not strange that this virus is spreading. Our current system is not designed to handle pandemics of such scale. We should all start to look at whether this is how we want to continue live. Because things will get even worse. If we take a look at the past year, it has been a year of nature becoming volatile and out of control. Human beings cannot anymore dictate what is going to happen. The forces are too strong to be held back.

Part of me is satisfied that nature is now standing up and showing humanity what we have accepted and allowed, because this seems to be the only way that human beings will wake up and start taking life seriously. Now when the Corona virus has appeared on the scene, nothing else is really of importance but taking care of one another. The various kinds of distractions that usually have such power over us, such as the imaginary polarities and conflicts between various sexual preferences, political opinions, academic ideas, they have taken a back seat – for once – we stand united to face a threat that will require us to work together.

What can we learn from the Corona virus?

We can learn to have better hygiene overall – both within and without – cleaning ourselves thoroughly and with detail and applying self-forgiveness and correcting any inner dirt before it is allowed to become spilled out.

We can learn to work and stand together and support each-other – and use news and information in practical way to support what is best for all.

We can look at how our current practices in farming leads to the creation of new diseases and how to support each other and all countries of the earth to develop effective healthcare system that can prevent new diseases before they are created.


Day 442: The Pharmacist

I watched a Netflix documentary called The Pharmacist. It is about a man called Dan Schneider that decides to become a pharmacist to support his wife and family. He lives a quiet and heavenly life together with his wife and two children, one son and one daughter. Everything is perfect, until one day, his son is murdered in a drug deal. Dan is utterly destroyed and is thrown into a abyss of pain, confusion, sadness, hurt and anger. And to deal with this pain, he decides to catch his son’s killer. Eventually he does – however he cannot rest. Because of the way his son died his eyes turn to the medical industry and a new drug called OxyContin, which is a pain medication based on opiates, and hence, highly addictive and dangerous in larger doses.

He begins to notice a irregular pattern in the prescription of OxyContin. Young people between 20 to 25 years start coming into his shop with prescriptions written by a certain doctor called Clegget. And what stands out is that they do not seem to be in that much pain and the doses they are prescribed are unusually high. Dan becomes suspicious and starts his investigation and uncovers a can of worms. He discovers that dr. Clegget runs a pillmill, and that is basically a drug dealer that presents itself as a pain clinic.

Soon the consequences starts to emerge in Dan’s community. Young people die in overdoses in large numbers and Dan intensifies his investigations and contacts governmental agencies in order to put dr. Clegget out of business. In the end, he manages to shut down dr. Cleggets practice, and he continues his work by sharing himself and his experiences of drugs in schools.

Dan makes a definitive difference in his society. From being a middle class dad minding his own business, he is transformed by this extremely painful event, to become a force of good. He is driven by empathy as he does not want anyone else to experience what he went through. In all the young addicts he sees his son and he pushes himself with patience and remarkable perseverance. He practically lives the point of oneness and equality as he extends the care and love he experienced for his son to the rest of his world. I found that remarkable and inspiring.

What I could see is that if all of us would do this in our worlds, in our professions, in our communities, if we each would take on a point that we want to change, that we see could be better, and persevere, we would have a different world. It is interesting that Dan needs to experience a great trauma in order to realize his responsibility towards his community and that his world is not a lone island – it is part of the whole.

Dan moves beyond a factor that tends to limit us; the trust and hope we put in our governments. He is not satisfied with contacting the government. He creates his own investigation, draws his own conclusions, and form his own movement. And that is really amazing. And what is more. He does this without any particular funding but his own average, middle class salary. If we take a look at these apparently great philanthropists, such as Bill Gates, what do they do but give a small portion of their money to projects and hope that this will solve all problems? That way they can ease their conscious and keep the rest of the money to themselves. Dan Schneider he got his hands dirty. He moved with passion and did whatever it took to find a way forward – and that is the mentality we need. Rich philanthropists might have a lot of money, but that does not matter when there is no real care and love for humanity.

Thus – I learned a lot from this documentary and from Dan Schneider – what he did was fantastic. I will practice walking with his stamina and determination and seeing myself as part of the whole instead of a isolated individual in my own bubble.


Day 441: Dealing with Pressure

This week I had a big and important meeting scheduled. It was supposed to last for several days and I had prepared myself for many days and hours. However, in a way I did not expect, the meeting was cancelled, and suddenly, all the plans I had created were changed. I noticed within me that I had built up a lot of pressure and energy in relation to the meeting – and when it was called off – I felt this burden lift from my shoulders. My body reacted with tiredness – and the following days I slept several hours more than what I am used to.

Hence – what did I learn from this event? That pressure is something that builds up incrementally and that it has a deep effect on the physical body – and that stress is also built up over time in such a way that I cannot see the heightened level of stress I am in because I have become accustomed to it – the stress have become normalized. It is thus really important to allow time, every day, for self-introspection, writing, self-forgiveness, and other activities that assist and support in letting go of built up energy. One of the best methods is focusing on breath and stopping the thoughts from wandering into the future – instead – one breath at a time – one step at a time.

I have also realized that stress comes up within me when I feel that much is at stake – and that is usually the case when I have a vested interest of some sort; primarily that tends to be money or career related – thus connected to survival. What helps me is to state that whatever the outcome – I will direct the point. Whether I lose my stakes or win the prize – I will find a way forward. I do not need to rely on a positive outcome to move forward – I will move forward regardless of the outcome. I disconnect myself from the stakes and make myself independent of the situation and able to deal with whatever might come. And probably – my fears all arise because I have placed my trust in money instead of in myself.

Thus I have to catch the moments of building stress to stop it from reaching a crescendo where I lose my ability to think clearly, sleep and function effectively. And in order for me to keep me in that stability – I have to check in with myself daily and be on the lookout for the type of thoughts that initiate this build-up. Usually for me these thoughts are about some form of failure or mistake – I will do something that is going to cause everything to fall together – or they are thoughts concerning the ‘What if?’ – what if everything goes badly? What if I do not know what I am going to do? What if? What if?

When it comes to failure – I have came to understand that I must allow myself to fail. It is a natural part of learning and expanding. The worst thing that I can do with failure is to not learn from it. And it is stupid to fear failure – because that is going to make me fearful and careful about venturing out into new opportunities and possibilities. I must embrace failure as a part of my life – because then I will not be afraid of trying new things and doing what I want to do.

And when it come to ‘What if’s?’ I understand that I can explore those endlessly. What does help is to establish the worst case scenario, mentally place myself in that situation and explore who I would be and how I would deal with it. Where would I go? What actions would I take? What kind of emotions and feelings would the situation initiate within me? And then clear all reactions utilizing self-forgiveness – so that if the situation does occur – I am stable within it and I can direct myself.

Pressure build-ups are not necessary if I effectively deal with and release the pressure by consistent and steadfast application. Then I can remain stable and the same regardless of the challenges that comes into my reality.


Day 440: The Dark Side of Success

I recently watched a Netflix documentary called Cheer. I can recommend it. It follows the best junior college cheer leading team in USA – the Navarro College Cheer. The team members range in age from 16 to 18 and are doing their first or second year at the college – and what takes up most of their time is their training. They put in many, many hours of practice to be able to complete their gymnastic and acrobatic routines. It is athletics on a high level and several times it is explained that the career of a cheerleader is over at the age of 19, because by that time the body is worn out.

The one thing that struck me was how everyone seemed to be possessed with the want to win – to such an extent that they would go to any lengths to secure their medal. And it is interesting to see how the sport has evolved and gotten more and more extreme, where teams have constantly pushed the boundaries forward. Throughout the documentary several cheerleaders complains about aches and exhaustion. And many mentally break down because of the pressure that is induced. Still, everyone accepts this as normal, and continues – because somehow they are convinced that winning will make up for it all.

It is fascinating to see how much mental and physical pain the team and their coaches go through. Anxiety, fear, stress, conflicts, anger, irritation, blame, jealousy, day out and day in, for a year – all because of the hope to win one competition at the end of the semester. And – SPOILERS – the team does win their title in the end. But was it worth it? Everyone seems to think so, when they run out of the stadium to celebrate, drunk on feelings, feeling like they are floating – because they can call themselves CHAMPIONS.

This behavior is normal – in adults. Kids, they do not do this and neither does animals. And I think it is because they are much more present in this moment that any pain and discomfort that they experience HERE will be prioritized and solved immediately. They will not remain in the pain and the struggle for several months only to fulfill a vision in their mind – that kind of mind functionality does not exist within them. However, in us adults, it does. And because of that we are able to plague and harm ourselves in our drive for success and victory – completely oblivious to the damage we are causing.

Competition, winning, success – conditions we have come to value so highly, but why really? These things are so cold, singular, and needs separation to work. There must be a loser, there most be a failure, for someone to be the star. Is it possibly the drama and energy within it that we have come to desire, or have we never asked ourselves whether this is what we want to pursue in life? What about equality, family, support and togetherness? Working together instead of working against one another. Perhaps we are not ready to see yet the damage that our constant drive for more is creating. We are still zoned out. Though, we have a world around is that is trying to show us something is wrong. Mentally damaged children and a nature that is collapsing. Why is it that we value our capitalistic lifestyle more than giving EVERYONE what they need to live a good life. It is beyond my understanding and frustrating – because I see that we could create it.

When I was younger I played many sports and I really, really enjoyed them. Unfortunately, the coaches were possessed with the desire to win – and eventually – all joy was sucked out from the game and all that became relevant was the price. This is something we as adults have to change – we cannot allow ourselves to suck the life out of everything just because we desire success. Children should be shown an example of what it means to truly express and enjoy life unconditionally – to enjoy sports unconditionally – to enjoy what is here without dreaming about the future and something more. That is our real challenge. Winning is easy – but living – that is something we have yet to accomplish.