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Day 360: Certainty Must Come From Within

Purpose and clarity as to what I am going to do, who I am going to be, what direction that I will take on and live, what future I will create, that is a desire that has arisen within me frequently over the last years. In-fact, it has been a recurring point since my teenage years – the urge and desire to have a clearly defined path for myself.

I am not sure exactly when it began, however I have since long had a tendency to want one point that I can aim to accomplish – one interest – one hobby – one part of my life – that I want to bring to its full potential and master so completely that I know it by heart. I used to be comfortable doing things for no particular reason but that I enjoyed doing it, though slowly that  changed. For example, when I started playing computer games, it was because I enjoyed it a lot. In-fact I found it amazingly fun, and I would play game after game. Then, something changed. I began to deliberately focus on becoming ‘good’ at a particular games, and ‘better than’ others. Competition became part of my gaming experience, and now it was not anymore a question of me enjoying myself, it was now about taking it to the next level, so that I could win. I did this with many games – I continued to play them even though I did not necessarily like them, because I was good at them, and I wanted to win.

The same happened with other interests, usually they began as unconditional and innocent projects that I would take on and enjoy with all of my heart – then – they would change and become a way to achieve victory.

As I have progressed through life, this tendency of becoming obsessed with one project, one movement, one drive, has morphed and changed and spilled over into purpose, and have thus become a way of achieving certainty. This metamorphosis has definitely been fueled by the world system, where there are continuously stories promoted about people that seemingly only have one point of purpose in their life, that they follow religiously, and are through that able to achieve success. Making sure that we have a fixed route, we know where we are going, we know what we will do, for me, that has become a way of creating stability and certainty, believing that I need to know my place in my external reality to be stable, and to know myself.

Obviously, this idea of life and purpose is limited. It is limited because in placing our focus and attention on the external reality, we miss that it is not our external reality that determines who we are, it is us that determines our external reality – it is us that decide who we are – and this WHO WE ARE is in turn reflected by our external reality. That principle is the key to any form of creation – it is the key to understanding why our creations sometimes falter, why they other times work out perfectly, and why our life looks the way it looks.

Thus – I see, realize and understand, that my focus, instead of being placed at developing my external reality, first and foremost must be placed at developing/creating/refining my inner reality – and from that will naturally flow a direction as I stand stable within myself and move in breath. Life cannot be predicted beforehand, it must be lived and directed in the moment. Life can only become a certainty, when we stand with certainty within ourselves – and hence there is no point to look for a purpose or clarity out there – unless we have established that for ourselves. It all begins with self, every time.


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Day 297: Wanting The Big Means Missing The Small

I have seen that in wanting the big, I tend to miss the small – and what is interesting here is that the big things might seem significant, yet when looking closely, the big is actually constituted by the small.

So, where does this apply? For myself I have seen this in particular when it comes to creating and walking towards a change in this world, and also when it comes to creating and building my own life. Before my inner eye I see the great changes, the complete revelation – and through only seeing that as being important and significant – it leads to me not seeing, or valuing the daily, small moments of change that I either apply, or that there are opportunities for me to apply. Hence the consequence of aiming big, of seeing only the big, is that this can create a sense, and experience of stuckness, and depression, because seemingly nothing moves.

Thus, I see that it is important to not forget, that change happens in the small, that a big change consists of several small changes, that a significant progress consists of several significant mini-progresses – and hence – change is created through those small daily movements.

In this, it is also easy to see how fame, success, and greatness can easily cloud my vision, when I start to focus on what others have done, and I compare myself, and think that I can only be someone significant if I am capable of mustering the same. Though, in this I do not accept and allow myself to see, yet again, that what is significant cannot be defined in terms of size, and using the amount of attention that is centered upon that event. Instead, what is significant can only be seen in each moment.

And this brings me into the next point, how looking at life with the expectation that it should contain these clearly defined and marked occurrences, these big happenings that makes my life move forward, that it hinders me from seeing what is right in front of me. Fact is, that the more I am looking for something specific, already with a picture in mind, an idea of where I am to go, the easier it is for me to miss what is right in front of me. Thus, when I am HERE – OPEN and HUMBLE to the current happenings in my life and reality – that is when I am the most able to responding to my life – finding opportunities, spots, openings, and those small moments of significant change.

What is the solution?

One solution that I see is self-trust – allowing myself to trust myself and that I do not need to utilize control – as zooming into but only one possible future – only one possible direction – instead I can move myself with and as breath – in each moment – and trust myself that when I move and create in the small – this will ripple and eventually create the big – and hence I will create my life organically – through moving myself in every moment.

 

Day 252: How You Make Something More Out of Your Life

actionWhat is your definition/understanding of someone that is making something more out of their life? Do you see before yourself a president, or an important statesman? Maybe you see a big-shot international human rights lawyer that is fighting for the rights of ethnic minorities? I would say that there is a high probability that the person you envision holds some form of a important position, or at least, what we in mainstream society consider to be important.

Though, let’s look at this point in common sense: If, let us say, the definition of ‘making a difference in this world’ and ‘making something more out of yourself’ is to stand in the position of a president, and in that position make these ‘great reforms’ – how many of us would then have any capacity to really affect change in this lifetime? Not that many huh? In-fact, there is only a handful lucky enough to get into such an influential position. YET – does this then mean that the rest of the worlds population is unimportant, meaningless, and without any purpose?

The simple answer to that question is NO – it does not – and here we must re-look at, and redefine the point of ‘making something more out of our life’ and extract the true implication and meaning of this statement. What does it really mean to make a difference, to make a change, to have an effect, to make something more out of your life? Are you able to effect change, and make a difference even though you are a lowly paid worker, being a garbage man, or a worker in the grey zones of society, such as a stripper, or a prostitute? According to the dogma of society, apparently these human beings are low life scum, and they cannot contribute, and give value, because they lack education, and refinement – though I beg to differ.

What I see is that we all, regardless of where we live, regardless of our circumstances, regardless of our job, regardless of our upbringing, we all have opportunities to stand and live for a change that will have an impact. And maybe we will not be able to see the effects, the effects of our actions just at this moment in time, but only somewhere in the future – maybe not even in our lifetime. But if we act, take a stand, and if we dedicate ourselves, and our lives to bring through a change, it will create ripples, it will mean something, and it will come through in some way or another, that is certain.

But let us say we work as a garbage man, we have a low pay, have apparently no connections, and no ability to bring anything of value into this world, what can we then do? So here, we must look at the following, that even though we apparently work at the bottom of society, we have colleagues that we meet everyday, possibly we have a family that we interact with, also on a daily basis, and we have the extended family, neighbors, and the local grocery store, where that Indian guy works, where we buy our lunch each day – SO can you see? Even though we perceive ourselves to be at the low end of the food chain, we do have quite the network, quite the number of people we meet, that we influence on a daily level, where our words, and our actions will have a direct impact in the life of another.

And here lies the secret of changing the world, and making something more out of yourself, and your life, and imparting real value, and contributing to actual evolution. The secret is you – CHANGING – YOURSELF! And look – you might change a pattern within you of being irritated and frustrated in the morning, and one of your co-workers notice this about you – and he starts to ask himself – silently of course: ‘how did he (you) do that?’ Without even knowing it, you’re setting an example to a network of people in your life – and because you’re not angry in the mornings anymore – you now, by coincidence, strike up a conversation with the mail man, that you usually ignore because you are so annoyed – AND – you guys happen to be very similar and you really hit it off – things expand – because YOU expand in yourself and your living application.

This is what we need, normal people, in normal life circumstances, making the extraordinary decision to change their lives, WHO THEY ARE as a human being to become something better, to become something that they can be proud over, and in that these normal human beings, with average lives, have an effect on their environment that is truly exceptional. A human being that has changed WHO THEY ARE, that stand stable, and sound in every moment, ready to support others, and deal with life utilizing common sense, that is a resource for the entirety of humanity – and this is a gift we are able to give to ourselves, and this world – irrespective of our circumstances – we can always make, and live the decision to create ourselves to be a more enhanced and functional human being.

Thus, For those of you ready to make the commitment, to change your lives, and in that, make a contribution to this world, which remain after your death, I recommend that you investigate the following links:

The Journey to Lifers

Take Responsibility for what is HERE as this world, within AND without:
Desteni

DIP Lite Course (FREE)

DIP Pro

Eqafe (Self Perfecting interviews, books, music, etc)

For your Info:
Destonian Wiki

Equal Life Foundation

Day 238: Self-neglect – and how to correct it

A couple of awesome and inspiring interviews have been released from Eqafe in the last few days covering the subject self-neglect. Here are links to the products:

Self Neglect: How you Neglect Yourself – Atlanteans – Part 307

Self Neglect: Changing the Pattern – Atlanteans – Part 308

Self Neglect: Awareness Emerges – Atlanteans – Part 309

NeglectedWhen I listened to the interviews I was amazed, because I could clearly see how I had been neglecting myself, my body, my process, and in short myself. Before I couldn’t see my self-neglect – it had become part of me – and in this world the generally accepted way of moving through life is within and as self-neglect. In some ways it is actually demanded of each human being to neglect him or herself – neglect is a part of the survival system – where we have to neglect that which is best for all in order to survive in the world system.

The word neglect in the dictionary has the definition: Fail to care for properly

Now this definition requires us to have a clear definition of the words care and properly – because without being clear on those two words – we are not able to see when we do not CARE for a point in our world PROPERLY – and thus neglect ourselves. And that is what these interviews assisted and supported me to see – because some practical examples are given – and being shown the nature and of neglect and it comes through – it’s easier to see the energetic signature.

For example, you can find the energetic signature of self-neglect in your self/actions/living when you rush through doing the dishes, just trying to get it down as fast as possible, and leaving behind grease, and stains of food on the plates. You can find the signature when you go to the bathroom, and as you wash your hands, you do it routinely without attentively making sure your hands are clean, rubbing the soap, and making sure that your hygiene is effective. You can also spot the energy of self-neglect when you wake up in the morning, and you start that inner rush, going into the bathroom while at the same time thinking about what you are going to do, and forgetting to make your bed, or opening the window to vent musty air from your bedroom after a night of sleep.

Basically, you will find self-neglect in the areas of your life where you have a tendency to be IN YOUR MIND, in the NEXT THING you are going to do, in the NEXT project – and this you will experience as a RUSH – a constant experience of anxiety/stress/pressure – where you will justify not living in and caring for your physical reality effectively, through thinking that you do not have the time. That is the very core of self-neglect – failing to care for your physical reality because the mind reality is seen as more important.

It’s not strange that our world looks the way it looks, with the ecosystem deteriorating, the economical system falling apart, the educational system worsening by each day, when we in our personal lives are not able to care for ourselves and our direct environment. Isn’t it obvious that this will reflect in the world system? It’s common sense that the greater whole is the sum of all the small parts – and the small parts in the context of the world system is each human beings individual life – individual actions – and individual expression.

Thus, if we are serious about changing the world to become a better place, we MUST start with ourselves, and make sure that we don’t accept and allow neglect in our personal worlds. Because if we do – how can we ever expect the greater whole to change? It’s impossible!

Day 231: The Art of Doing It

“If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.”

“If you spend too much time thinking about a thing, you’ll never get it done.”

Bruce Lee

Sometimes there points open up that are obvious, and in my case, it was a movement that arose from within, coming through as a projection – where the projections was a picture of me following through on a project which entails me getting myself out into the system – out into the world – taking action – meeting people – speaking and interacting.

Just-Do-It-NowThe fascinating thing is that I didn’t take that projection into physical manifestation, it remained on a level of thought, a potential, a maybe – and even though I could experience and see – that this was something I wanted to do and that would allow me to grow and expand – I didn’t take it to the point of actual movement – and this is what I want to discuss in this blog today – identifying and forgiving this blockage that hinders me from movement.

In my case I can see this blockage quite clearly – and it’s called fear – and it’s not any fear – it’s fear of failure. This fear of failure leads me to get stuck in the stage of preparation – because one thing is a given – when I continually prepare and never go out there and give the show – I’m certain to never EVER fail. Though I’m also as certain to never do anything challenging and difficult with my life either – thus remaining in the stage of preparation is thus a recipe for mediocrity – and it’s also a form of complacency = complacency being the state where I’m fine and okay with the way things are – even though there is no movement/expansion/growth happening.

Thus – what I can see is that preparation is to a certain extent supportive – though at some point preparation – and getting ready for the future becomes a cave where we hide from stepping out into the unpredictable – and unfortunately that is what my preparation have become – a point of hiding.

Though – the cool thing about seeing this is that I can now begin taking steps to actually create my future and my life instead of preparing for it – so this is what I am now actively going to do – beginning with the small – which entails to see where I’ve postponed certain actions and points of direction – because I’ve been preparing into infinity – and easy as pancake making the decision to step out of preparation-mode – and put myself out there.

The worst thing that can happen is that I fail – and that is a much more enjoyable outcome than complacency and doing nothing at all.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become stuck in a state of complacency and preparation – where I see what it is that I’d like to do and express – yet instead of taking that point here – and living it in my everyday life – I project outside of myself into a future that I must prepare for – which is a form of self-sabotage and hiding – because obviously I will never get out there and actually do something unless I step into my physical body and move out to get out there and do things – act – live – speak and share myself – and get points moving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure – and in fear of failure hide myself in a state of non-doing – believing that through non-doing I can contain and save myself from the adversities of failure – and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how I’m in-fact limiting and containing myself into a state of diminishing – because I’m not accepting and allowing myself to actively put myself out there – to actively go where I haven’t gone before – to actively expand myself – and move myself out of my comfort-zones – because I see, realize and understand that it’s in my challenging and moving myself through my comfort-zones that I will expand – grow – and become a more potent and effective human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to contain myself in preparation-mode – trying to save myself from the embarrassment and fear that could come into my body if I failed and didn’t manage to fulfill my ideals of success that I’ve created in my mind – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from self-creation – to hide from my potential and what I see myself doing in this world – through preparing – not realizing that in order to get good at something – and order to establishing myself within a certain field and learn new skills – I require to put myself out there and fail several times – and from this perspective failure is the road to greatness – because only through failing can I see what isn’t failure – and thus move myself to create that path for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to create myself and my life – and build myself – and do what it is that I want to do in this life – I require to take a chance and possibly – and that without accepting and allowing myself to take the risk of failure – there won’t be any movement – there won’t be any expansion and growth – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not actively put myself out there – and create opportunities for challenging myself – growing – and expanding myself – and becoming more potent and established in my physical process as I take action to put myself out there into the world system and create a life for myself that I want to live and be a part of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that at some stage the time of preparation is done – and then I require to move myself out into the system and actually practice physically what I’ve walked in a protected environment of preparation – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not enjoy this process of moving myself out into the world system – of taking action – of creating and building myself – and seeing, realizing and understanding – that as with everything – it all begins with one step forward – one step followed by the other – and thus what will initially feel hard, difficult and challenging – will with time become easy and effortless – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to get out into the world system from within and as this understanding that it might feel difficult and hard now – though through me doing it again and again – I will become better at it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself through not taking action on the projections coming up in my mind – that I see are these potentials for self-creation that come up as a nudge within me – to go in that direction – to push that particular point – to walk that aspect of my life into creation – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress these nudges/experiences that come up within me – and instead of taking them into practical application – immediately go into and as a state of self-suppression and holding myself back – and containing myself through utilizing the thought that I must prepare myself more before I take the step out into the unknown

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it’s a lot of fun to take the step out into the unknown – and to do things that I’ve not yet done before – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it’s through putting myself out there and doing what I’ve not done before – that I grow – expand – and develop myself – that it’s through this process that I can become more – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this suppression is in-fact made out of fear – and that it’s a fear I use to protect my mind and my comfort zones to be exactly as they’ve always been – so that I don’t have to change and alter my ways – but that I can instead remain the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to step out of character – I require to do things differently – I require to walk down the path that I’ve haven’t tried – and do the things that I’ve not yet attempted – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live from this starting point of actively challenging myself – actively expanding myself – actively seeing how I can connect and network with others to put myself out there – and open up myself and my life to become more challenging and demanding – and realize that a life that is easy – is not a life that allows for self-expansion – because to expand there must be things to move and direct – learn and understand – there must be a growth where I move beyond what I thought myself to be

Self-commitment statements

When and as I see that there is a particular aspect, or dimension, or point in my life that I’d like to pursue, and experience, and walk – and this comes up as a projection or slight movement within me – I commit myself to take that point up in me and honor it through moving myself into action – and not accepting and allowing myself to step back – and hold myself back in a point of suppression and fear – and thus I commit myself to nourish these small seeds of self-expansion that arise from within and take them into practical application – to as such expand myself, my life and my considerations – and go beyond what I think myself to be

When and as I see that I am going into a state of being comfortable with my life, being at ease, and having the feeling that I know everything to the tee, and there is no more challenges, I stop myself – I take breath and bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this experience indicates that I’m not pushing myself to get out there – that I am not creating opportunities for myself in my daily life – and not willing myself to expand my sphere of influence – and expand my skillsets and develop myself – and thus I commit myself to challenge myself to walk my life in such a way – that I continuously challenge myself – and move beyond what I thought I was capable of doing – continuously challenging myself to expand and grow – and become more effective – and realizing that this is the only way to live that is truly enjoyable and satisfactory

I commit myself to challenge myself – to move myself beyond my limitations – and I commit myself to make it a daily thing to not stop at what I perceive myself as being capable of – but realize that I can do more – that I can be more – and that it’s me that set the boundaries of my capabilities

Day 128: Vocabulary and Mind-Control

Vocabulary, words, and reading – why are these life skills so important to all human beings, and why are they in-fact a necessity for world change to take place?

mind-control2In order to understand this point I will share an example from my own life, in relation to making a decision in regards to career and employment. So, as I’ve shared earlier in this blog, I will soon be leaving the secure zone of the university and head out in the big world, in order to find myself a job and make a living for myself. I realized that I had to make some form of decision – at least preliminary – as to what I direction I should go into, because due to the nature of my degree, there are many possibilities, and a variety of jobs to choose between.

During the first years of my education, I came face to face with extensive marketing campaigns of some few select employers – and these showed a possible future of money, success, and self-satisfaction. Unfortunately these employers were the only one’s marketing themselves, and thus to me it seemed as if the life they presented, was the only one available to me, the only career that held some promises – while seemingly there was no other valid options out there. Thus, in facing the decision of where I am to go in life after my education, I experienced much conflict and anxiety, as I felt that I must really push and will myself to get into one of these firms, to get that career, and the life promised by them.

Then, I started to question exactly why it was that I desired to go into this direction, and whether it was in-fact a suitable point for me to take on – was this everything that there was? As such, I asked myself, what it is that I would like to do with my life, where it is that I’d like to place myself, what it is that I am good at, what I am not good at, and how I would like my life to be in a couple of years; and at the same time I started to investigate and expand my horizons as to the various possibilities that my degree offers.

Here is where it starts to get interesting, and it’s here that the importance of vocabulary comes into play – because what I did was that I started to actively investigate, read, find sources, and expand myself, and this expansion was in the form of vocabulary – because when I read – when I investigated – I acquired new vocabulary, and in that came insights, as well as a sense of clarity – and I started to see exactly what the various professions entailed in terms of workload, expectations, requirements, investments, and so forth – and in this it became much easier for me to answer the question: Would this be something for me? Is this what I want for my life? Does this align with what I see for myself in the coming years?

So, in essence, my ability to read, and due to me having quite an expansive and effective vocabulary, allowed me to expand my horizons, and see things that existed beyond my social networks – because fact is that: My social networks and the vocabulary, and information moving in these, are often limited, and one-sided – and when acquiring one’s entire understanding of the world upon the basis of these networks, one’s understanding and comprehension of the world often get’s compromised, which leads to ineffective decisions, and in consequence, a lifestyle that is not in alignment with Who you are, and What you want out of your life.

This is why vocabulary is important on so many levels. For me, an expansive vocabulary allowed me to see new aspects, dimensions and viewpoints, it allowed me to effectively expand my understanding of myself, and my world – and it allowed me to take responsibility for myself and my direction in life. But due to the ineffective educational system we have in this world an extensive amount of human beings are not effective readers, and they are consequently not able to expand themselves, and their understanding of this world – as they do not have access to effective information skills – which is a skill equal to vocabulary and comprehension skills. And this is the reason as to why so many people are unable to see, and understand that there are problems in this world, and why they are unable to question the system as it currently functions – they simply do not have the vocabulary to comprehend what is going on.

This is for example why many tend to slavishly believe the six-o´clock news, when the reporter shares that “we are going to war for our freedom” – or that it’s “communistic to implement a basic income for all” – they do not have the vocabulary to fathom how the system operates – that for example – there is such a thing as propaganda and public relations – and that most media stations are owned by a select few elite, and that most of the electorates in our government are bought with corporate money – they do not have the expansive vocabulary to question what is before their eyes – and instead they simply trust the information available in their limited social network, which is almost at all times effectively in the hands of public relations and other propaganda tactics.

Thus, acquiring effective vocabulary and information skills is vital for us as humanity to be able to get ourselves out of this mess – because when we are able to assess words and information effectively, without reactions, seeing the words clearly, seeing their intentions, their purpose, seeing the information in the context in which it is shared, by which people, and why these people are utilizing a specific set of words, and coloring their perspectives with various one-sided opinions – then we’re able to take self-responsibility and make informed decisions – then we’re able to stand up and question everything and everyone – and see whether or whether not the patterns that are currently existent lead to a world that is best for all or whether a change is required in the accept patterns.

Unfortunately, our education have been deliberately set up to dumb us down, because the elite know, that a human-being with a ineffective vocabulary, and a ineffective information assessment skills, will be easily controlled and manipulated – and that fits them perfectly – because they want obedient workers, and obedient consumers – so that they can make more money and live a life of leisure and power.

For us that do see this problem, we have a massive responsibility, because before us lies the challenge of educating the rest of humanity, and opening up their eyes to what is going on – we have the responsibility to re-educate humanity – and in this it’s paramount that we give attention to how the schooling system currently functions, and how vocabulary is being disregarded, and how the youngsters are being programmed into stupidity instead of being self-directed living human-beings.

Though, our first responsibility is towards ourselves – we require re-educating ourselves and make sure that we’re not manipulated or lost in some form of deliberate mind-control – and Desteni offers a free course (see here: DIP Lite) that will assist and support us to walk this process.

Change starts with ourselves, and this is not a platitude – it’s simple common sense – yet we must live this information, make it practical, physical, in order for it to have value – thus – let’s begin – and let’s change.

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Day 113: Impatience

dirty-dozen-impatience-300x294Impatience is the experience I am going to work with today. It came up as I was out with my partner driving. She’s currently practicing to get her driving license and I am her instructor.

We were driving on a road that was the main road and we were driving past a crossroads where the cars coming from the crossing road according to the traffic regulations had to wait for the cars coming on the main lane before they were allowed to cross the main road. I noticed that my partner wasn’t very sure about whether or whether not she had to wait, or whether the cars coming on the crossing road had to wait – and in that moment I noticed this boiling anger coming up within me.

I can see how this anger is coming from me becoming impatient, and I want something to happen, I want to something to occur the way I believe is absolutely clear that it should happen – I think it’s simple – it’s easy – it’s just to follow the rules and look at the signs – and in that moment I am not taking into account the background, the experience and the being that in this case was my partner.

This is a problem because in not considering where and who others are in events taking place in my world, I am not able to direct the situations effectively – I will not attentively listen and see what is happening, and not be receptive to what is here, but instead seclude myself in my own belief and idea of what should happen, and how it should be – which really is irrelevant because it doesn’t change what is in-fact here as a matter of fact.

I can within this as well see how this tendency of wanting my idea of things to take precedence over how things are in-fact is influencing other aspects of my world, wherein I’ve at times a tendency to enforce my view, enforce my perspective, and not within that see how it’s picked up and where others stand in regards to what it is that I am saying or doing.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become impatient with my world, and want my world to behave and be the way that I want it to be, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to push for my world to be and behave the way I want it to be regardless of the response I receive – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and impatient when things do not go my way as how I want things to go instead of me pushing myself to remain here and stand in equality with my world – and be receptive to what is here – and walk with what is here instead of fighting what is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become impatient when and as things do not work out as I’ve imagined that they would work out – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reason that things should just work out the way I’ve imagined that they should work out and unless they do so there is something wrong, there is something that isn’t aligned and the fault must be with someone or something out there – instead of bringing the point back to myself and realizing that the fault lies with my imagination and idea creation – and not with my world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into anger, irritation and frustration when I think that points move to slowly and not fast enough – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect that everyone should be like me, should have the same experience, background and skills as me, should have the same mentality as me, should tackle events, integrate information, and learn as I do – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how this is not in-fact so – and that I can’t expect that everyone should be like – and that I can’t expect that everything will work out as it has worked out in my mind when I played out in my imagination

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be receptive and flexible – and accept and allow myself to work with what is here – to listen – to see – to be aware – and to change my direction and way of dealing with points when it is that I see that it isn’t working effectively; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold unto my view of things – instead of accepting and allowing myself to open and realize that there are billions of other human beings on this planet that are not the same as me and that to work effectively with these people I require to take them into account in equality and oneness – and see them for what they are and not for what I want them to be – or believe that they should be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectations and demands unto what is here in my direct reality – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I create such points within me – I will create the consequence for myself of becoming disappointed as well as frustrated – when points do not play out as I’ve hoped and desired for them to play out; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the solution is not to create expectations and then attempt to force my world into those expectations – but to be with what is here in equality and oneness – and direct what is here within being receptive to what is here – seeing what works and what doesn’t work – seeing what is effective and what isn’t effective – and sticking with that which works

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my expectations, demands and ideas of what should be here aren’t valid – because what is here is what is here and it has nothing to do with what exists in my mind; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to when I work with other people – when I work with reality – to let go of my mind – and to be direct – to interact without having the middle man of the mind be here as a mediator between me and reality – but that I stand equal and one with reality and I speak – direct and move myself without thinking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand how it’s not a solution to become impatient – impatience is not a physical tool with which I am able to direct and deal with my life – it’s only a reaction that comes up when I feel that something is not going the way I want to go; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not instead apply patience – realizing that what is here is what is here – and to change what is requires time – consistency – effort and dedication; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let go of impatience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the world existing in my mind, as expectations, ideas, beliefs, is not real – it’s not something I can use to shape and form the real world – it’s not something that I can use in order to interact with what is here – it’s really just a blockage existing in my head that disables me from being in direct relationship with and direct contact and interact with what is here; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not when I become impatient – take a breath and let go of those obstacles in my mind unconditionally – and accept and allow myself to be fully here – with what is here – and not try to make what is here anything else but what it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt and try to direct my world and reality through the mind as separation – wherein I will lock myself into and as a belief or idea of how I want my world to be – or how I want my world to turn out – and then I will forcefully attempt to manifest that dream and hope without any regard for the actuality of my physical reality; as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not direct my world in reality from a starting point of equality – standing with what is here – being receptive – being awarebeing awake – and seeing what is here and moving myself in alignment with what is physical and what is here – thus not being in conflict with what is here – but instead directing myself in equality and oneness with what is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that when something in my world doesn’t play out as how I’ve imagined or expected that it would – that the fault doesn’t lie with my physical reality – but the fault instead lies within me, with me creating a belief in my mind as to how my world should be, instead of me remaining with breath and walking with reality; thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a breath – and bring myself back here – and push myself to interact directly with the physical without having a idea between me and the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become impatient and angry when I feel that someone is not as fast I believe and think that they should, learning something, such as a new skill – and as such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this expectation within me that people should just learn something immediately, that they should change, grow and expand immediately, and unless they do so after the very first time, then there is something wrong with them – instead of seeing, realizing and understand that the fault doesn’t lie with them – but that it lies within me – in that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate in my mind instead of standing in equality and oneness with what is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and impatient when and as I feel that someone isn’t understanding something as fast as I think and believe that they should, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this expectation that people should understand something fast and preferably after the first time that I’ve explained something – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take into account that I can’t simply expect that how I want things to be is how things really are – and that some beings simply learn slower than others and that it’s nothing I can do anything about

Self-commitments

When and as I see and notice that I am becoming angry and frustrated, and impatient, because someone is not understanding my instructions, or understanding something I’ve explained, and they are doing a mistake that they’ve already done before – I immediately stop myself, I take a breath, and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand how I can’t have these expectations within me in regards to how fast people should learn because reality doesn’t work according to my expectations; thus – I commit myself to work with what is here – and be patient – unconditional – and get to know what is here and not judge what is here

When and as I want to enforce a particular point, as something that I’ve had come up within me as a imagination, I immediately stop myself, I take a breath and I bring myself back here – and I see, realize and understand that this pattern is not effective in terms of me interacting and living in an effective way with my environment – because in enforcing something – I am only considering myself and not what is here and how my decisions and way of living affects and influence what is here; thus I commit myself to work with what is here in equality and oneness – and instead direct myself and my world through being receptive – and flexible – listening and being aware of others and not just going for my one thing regardless of what resistance I am facing from others

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